Inspired by quote from Sherlock Holmes (2009). Irene Adler to Sherlock Holmes: "I don't wanna run, anymore."
I don't wanna run, anymore. I don't want to guard myself. I don't want to chase anyone. I want you to make me stop.
Make me stop swirling away in this tornado of my own creation. I don't always know what I'm doing though it may seem like I do.
I'm tired and it isn't fun, anymore. I feel alone but I'm scared to open up for fear of hurt once more.
I look out at the vast future ahead of me. It lays in my line of sight like a gray English afternoon, with heavy clouds preying on passerby, stealing their cheerfulness. I want to stop the game and always be cheerful no matter how much the grayness clouds my mind.
I have reached a dead end. I am standing on an unfinished bridge. I cannot go forward and I cannot go back. I don't want to go back. Sometimes I wonder if I would ever jump, just to see how it feels, but I know I would only taste the salt of the velvety water below if I was pushed.
And so I wait. Maybe you will find me. I hope you'll find me. Because, you see, I don't wanna run, anymore.