Rake the Skin, a 24 fanfic

Staring at your reflection,

you see

i m p e r f e c t i o n .

You see

scars.

slits.

You see hatred-

burning, f u m i n g hatred, alone in your eyes.

[whereisthelove]

You see a shadowy ghost of a past life;

You see a monster.

Just a devilish soul welling up inside of you... living in you...

c o n s u m i n g y o u .

[itstakingover]

The devil, it hurts innocents.

It threatens infants.

It kills people for the mere joy of watching them suffer.

Watching them sl o w l y f a d e a w a y,

so that you remember you're not the only one with issues.

To you, each person is a m a g a z i n e,

their issues from the inside announced on the cover.

So when you look in the

m i r r o r ,

you see

anger.

rage.

fury.

You see everything you told yourself you wouldn't ever be again.

Issues.

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You pulled off the Zaden mask for good, you said.

The p l a s t e r could not longer cling to your skin;

the a t m o s p h e r e of "unstable" would no longer follow you e v e r y w h e r e you went.

You were free.

[butfreedomisneverfree]

But look at yourself now.

F l a w.

F a i l u r e.

I m p e r f e c t i o n.

You deem yourself nothing but a snake—

an animal, no- m o n s t e r- created for no purpose than to bring fault to humanity.

You are Zaden.

So you slowly, s l o w l y,

lift the knife,

&& rake the skin...

but you won't deepen your cut, because you aren't there yet.

You are getting there.

Blood drips from your o p e n wound,

Smearing on the carpet,

the floor,

anywhere but where you wish it would.

[smearitonherheart]

(MAKE HER HURT.)

('cause right now, she's not feeling a thing...)

You s c r e a m.

Not from pain;

Not from hurt.

From l o n g i n g.

Longing to feel.

You don't want to shake anymore.

You don't want to cry just to make sure you're alive;

You want to b l e e d.

And even if you lost your breath,

You'd catch it; save it for a r a i n y day

when you should be feeling e v e r y t h i n g . . .

but instead feel nothing.

So you deepen the cut.

And you know you're getting there...

[itscomingfast]

You're coming close... and it's okay with you.

[sohereitcomes]

You're f a d i n g . . .

Falling.

Plummeting.

Sinking.

Until you're gone;

You can never look back.