"If I could… if I were able… I would want…. To go to… the same place… as you…" These are last words that Zabuza Momochi will ever utter. They seem selfish and selfless at the same time.
Is that all I am? A tool? One that has outlived its usefulness and now lies broken in the snow?
That's what I've always felt I am, what any shinobi is. A weapon. No matter whom they report to or what village, if any, that they serve, that fact remains unchanged. And, just like a tool, they are cast aside when they outlive their usefulness or are broken. That is exactly what I have believed, ever since my departure from Kirigakure.
But I see differently now. I lie on the unfinished bridge in the Land of Waves, having slain the very man who bought my and Haku's skills. Haku…
He lays next to me, dead, snow dotting his face. He saved my life not seven minutes ago, having taken a fatal blow meant for me. He….was simply fulfilling his role as my tool. That was what I told Haku. In return for rescuing him from his native village, he was to unquestioningly serve me.
I have tried my best to consider him as no more than that. For the most part, I succeeded. Other times, when he displayed his remarkable child-like innocence, still intact after the hell of his village and his training by me, I found it hard to see him as a weapon, rather than a person. It was also those times that I wondered if it was in fact the right thing to do, if my intentions were selfish or not.
It doesn't matter now. Haku's kind and gentle heart ceased to exist when Kakashi Hatake's Lightning Blade tore through it. He has flown away to Heaven, like the angel that his soul always was.
I, however, am a different story. I know what I told Gato to be true. I will be seeing him in hell, and judging by my extreme fatigue and weakness, it will be soon. I know that I won't see Haku again. I have no illusions of any ascension to Heaven by me.
Kakashi seems to think differently. I hear his words vaguely, almost unconsciously. "You're wrong, Zabuza. You can go to the same place as Haku…." Oh, I wish…