A/N: Hey folks! I just wanted to thank you for taking the time out to check out my first ever fan fiction: If I Fell… I've been reading fan fiction for about a year so I decided that it was time to give it a shot. It should be around 20 something chapters by the time it's done. Please be patient with the updates. Ill try my best to do at least once or twice a week, maybe more often depending how inspired and non-busy I am. I hope it isn't horrible. But if it is feel free to give me some constructive criticism. Thanks a million!
Disclaimer: Much to my dismay, I don't own Twilight. If I did Emmett would be my big brother, Edward would never leave my house, and I'd go shopping with Alice every day.
Here goes nothing….
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Ugh.
So here I am on a very rare sunny day in Forks, Washington, and where do I have to spend it? In school…fun right? Not a chance. Of course it didn't help that Alice insisted on taking me shopping that day either. The only reason I ever agreed to endure the torture that she calls "shopping" is because she told me Edward would be there.
Edward.
Just his name made my heart skip and caused the butterflies in my stomach to start fluttering around. We've been best friends since that first fateful day back in kindergarten.
"Hi I'm Edward! You're going to be my best friend forever and ever and ever and ever! Can I borrow your crayons?"
Of course I let him borrow my crayons, I mean who wouldn't he was Edward Cullen, and supposedly my best friend. Ever since that day we've been inseparable. We even promised to marry each other when we got older. Cute right?
I've always had a crush on him but then when we reached middle school my feelings got pretty intense. I hid it though, Edward was very popular and I didn't want to weight him down. That's all I would do, I mean the stunningly gorgeous Edward should never have to be seen with someone as ordinary as me. I guess that's why he's with Tanya now.
Through the years we've still remained best friends even if we are in two different worlds. However I wish we were so much more than friends. Edward was perfect, he loved the classics, he was sweet, gentlemanly, he cared for me, he was protective and not to mention extremely handsome. He gives me compliments on a daily basis just to boost my self-confidence, and when he tells me he loves me he truly means it, just not the way I do.
Never the way I do.
There's always that little voice in my head that says "What if he does love you like you love him? Have some faith Bella!" But I tell it to shut up. I don't need anymore people telling me that they think this will work out when it won't.
The only people I've told about my feelings are Alice, Rose, Jasper, and Emmett. Alice Cullen is Edward's twin sister/pixie and my second best friend next to Edward. When I told her my feelings about Edward she squealed and told me that it will all work out she could "feel it". That's another thing about Alice; she has these strange "feelings" about what's going to happen and usually she's right. The one thing she's wrong about Edward and me though. Rosalie Hale (but I call her Rose) is Emmett's girlfriend and one of my closest friends, we fight a lot but we always run back apologizing to each other an hour later, that's why I love her. Jasper Hale is Rose's twin brother and Alice's other half. He's a very calming person who's always there when I need to vent my frustrations. And last but certainly not least there's Emmett Cullen, my big teddy-bear. He's Alice and Edward's immensely huge adoptive brother. He looks like a body-builder but on the inside he's just a huge ball of goofy fluff. When I told all of them they encouraged me to tell Edward, but I couldn't face the rejection I knew was coming.
I sat in my English class barely listening to the teacher drone on and on about Haikus. I just doodled on my notebook and thought about how amazing my best friends were and how leaving them in a week after we graduated was going to be hell on earth.
You see I got accepted to Seattle University, where the Cullens and the Hales all got accepted to Dartmouth. This is the first time I'll ever be away from all of them for more than 3 days.
I was snapped out of my depressing reverie by the bell ringing. Grabbing my stuff, I ran out of the classroom eager to meet with Edward and head off to lunch. I guess I wasn't paying attention when I ran straight into Edward, my own personal god. I dropped my books and waited for the impact of my fall to hit me, until I realized I was being held up by a pair of very strong arms.
"Bella, what am I going to do with you?" He sighed while picking me up.
I could think of a few things you could do to me.
I bent down to pick up my books and as I looked up I was met by a pair of bright green eyes full of worry.
"Bella are you okay?" He asked while grasping my shoulders. His touch sent electric currents throughout my whole body. I wonder if he feels it too.
"Um, yeah I'm fine. Just falling like usual. Thanks for catching me. I'd probably be dead right now if you hadn't ever saved me from falling my whole life." I said half-jokingly.
A look of pain crossed his face as he contemplated my words.
"Bella don't you even joke about that. You know I could never lose you." He said telling the complete truth.
Blushing I said, "I know, I know. Now let's get to lunch I'm starving!" It was the truth; I was so hungry it was insane. I heard Edward chuckle as turned and went to go put my books in my locker.
"Ready to go madam?" He asked in his perfect velvet voice as he extended his hand to me.
I looked at his hand with mock horror "Edward what would Tanya think if she saw us?!"
"Yeah you're right, we don't want you getting killed today now do we?" he said while winking.
"Of course not, I'm too young to die." I said as we marched toward the cafeteria together.
Edward chucked and smiled the breathtaking crooked smile that he only saved for me.
God he was perfect.
As we walked into the lunch room Edward was immediately tackled by Tanya. I did my best to ignore them and reign in the hurt that was threatening to form across my face.
When I turned towards my table I wasn't surprised to find both the Cullens and the Hales glaring at Tanya. I don't blame them. She was evil and conniving all wrapped up into a gorgeous package. Tanya was the prettiest and most popular girl at school, and she had absolutely no substance what so ever but maybe that's how Edward likes them now.
After I returned to the table after buying my lunch I tried my best to ignore Edward and the witch playing tonsil hockey. I turned toward Alice; she'd divert my attention for a while.
My assumptions were correct when she started squealing.
"Bella, Bella, Bella! Our family has decided to have a huge party for all the graduates! You wanna come?!" she practically screamed while bouncing in her seat.
I chuckled at her extreme excitement and replied "Yeah, I'd love to Alice."
She jumped out of her seat and ran over to me and gave me a huge hug.
"Oh Bella! You have to let me pick out your outfit! And Rose can do your hair..." I just blocked her out as her and Rose talked about colors that would compliment my skin tone. I've learned with Alice that you can't fight with her about these kinds of things, she gets her way somehow. It's easier to just accept it and move on.
I heard a light moan from beside me and I had to hold back the throw-up that threatened to spill out. Suddenly I wasn't hungry anymore.
Doesn't he know how much that hurts me?
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