As I recall the first time I met Christian Grey, it was because of my friend Kate. She had a crush on him, and she wanted to make him fall for her, she had just started working at his company. So at first we hanged out together, and Christian had set me up with Elliot. I figured we are just hanging after all, and why not getting to know the guy. But as Elliot seem a bit more interested in me, Christian started acting weird.

And that's how it all began, I noticed how Christian will look my way several times. He even got upset when Elliot tried to take me to places he considered "Unsafe" He will take control of the situation like he was the boss of our lives. "He thinks he can monopolize everyone" – said Elliot.

I wasn't sure why he was doing that, but somehow it started feeling like I can feel safe around Christian. Elliot wasn't a bad guy, but it didn't feel like we will eventually be something.

There was this time when Christian and Elliot were going to hang out to a sports bar, and they invited me to come along. I accepted, after all I didn't actually had something to do that day, and Kate was spending time with her family. So I was alone back in the apartment.

-How do you like this place? – Asked Christian while staring at me, and observing my every movement

-Its decent, I rather hang with you guys than not do anything at all.

My admission sounded a bit odd, and I think he picked up the odd part

-Really?- He asked grinning – with us? Because I haven't seen you with Elliot in the whole evening. You're actually hanging with me.

I felt embarrassed, flushed. I looked down and smiled, my eyes went up again, looking at him straight to his eyes.

-Shut up! – I said while still grinning

He smiled back and pass the beer to me.

He saw some friends and went to say hi, - excuse me for a minute- he said while walking towards them, I stayed back where he had left me. And it didn't take long for Elliot to come and talk to me.

-I need some company, I want to get out of here for a while. – he said to me looking in Christian's direction.

-What? – I asked confused

-Just go along with it, just for a bit. We can talk about ourselves. – I could tell he didn't want Christian to notice our abscence

I looked at Christian's way, deep down I wanted him to notice what just happen. To come and tell Elliot to leave me alone, but he was so into the conversations with his friends. I turn back at Elliot and smiled. We left the sports bar and he started striking up a conversation. Except that I didn't feel like talking much with him, I didn't feel comfortable with this, I could sense his second intentions. We sat at a bench not very far from the sports bar, and started talking about us. Silly things in life, mistakes, and old dates, all that kind of stuff we tell to our buddy's. We were having a great time and we didn't noticed how long had passed, Elliot cell phone started ringing, and it was Christian. He was worried because he hadn't seen us for a while, and soon we will be going back home. When we went back, he seemed upset. With me? With Elliot? Both of us? I don't get it!

In our trip back home he was talking on the phone with some friends, planning to go somewhere while ignoring us. Elliot looked at me through the mirror and smiled. I didn't smiled much, I wasn't sure what was happening, and it didn't felt right. When they drop me off, Christian drove off fast, and his car disappeared between other cars in the street. I went up to our apartment and started thinking about him… in that moment I realized my head has been full of Christian Grey for a while.

I started wanting his attention, craving for it. I need it him to notice me, if he is acting strange maybe is because he actually likes me. One time Kate was at work, and her car had broken down so Christian was taking her back to our apartment. I was out for a while buying some groceries, and in my way back while I was walking by the sidewalk, Christian was passing by in his car, he had left Kate in the apartment and was going back. But what happened at that moment, his eyes found me very quick, he stared, and I stared back but made it look like I didn't see him. His car was moving, his eyes turn back to the front and he kept driving, disappearing from my sight. My heartbeat was going fast, I want him to talk to me, to say he wants me, I know he does.

I need this.