Hey guys, so again I wrote this chapter thinking I could put in inside my "Wishes can come true" and then realized that it wouldn't fit in. So here we go, I'm warning you , it's very dark, and sad, so maybe It will be a one shot or maybe I will continue depends on reviews!

Jane and Maura have been happily married for 2 years now, and a few months ago they decided they were ready to start a family. Unfortunately things didn't go as planned.

"Hey honey, how do you feel this morning?" Jane asked crawling in bed next to her wife.

"I'm bleeding." Maura shuttered.

"The doctor said you might bleed for a few days, but if you feel it's too much I can call her ." Jane replied touching her wife's forehead to see if she had any fever.

It had been 3 days since Maura had miscarried. Jane tried her best to reach out and help her, but Maura would only stay in bed crawling in fetal position refusing to eat or even talk.

"I meant my heart." Maura replied rolling on her side turning her back on Jane.

" Oh sweetheart, I'm sorry, it's gonna be ok, I'm here." Jane replied wrapping herself around her wife 's shaking body.

"Please don't touch me. Stay away." Maura ordered pushing Jane away.

"Maura, please let me help you." Jane begged.

"I don't want your help I want you to leave me alone, please." Maura begged unwilling and unable to even fight.

For the first time since they've been together Jane felt powerless. Maura and her were soul mates, they were always able to read each other's mind and find out what the other needed. But this time it was different, no matter what Jane did, or tried to do or say, it always seemed to be wrong.

But Jane loved Maura and she wasn't going to quit on her, she was going to fix her, she didn't know how but she was going to.

"You're my wife, I love you and I'm not going to walk away from you." Jane strongly stated trying to be reassuring but not intrusive or overwhelming.

"How can you love me?" Maura objected.

"How can you ask me that? You're my wife, the love of my life." Jane replied shocked.

"I failed you Jane, you wanted a baby and, I lost it, how can you love a woman who is not even capable of carry a pregnancy to term." Maura finally let out crying.

"Oh Maura, you didn't fail me or our child, you heard what the doctor said : you didn't do anything wrong, miscarriages in the first trimester happen." Jane replied trying not to burst into tears. Maura needed her to be the strong one.

"I know, please just leave me alone you don't know what it's like." Maura rasped burying her face in her pillow.

"You're right I don't how it's like physically , but what happened to you, happened to me to, it happened to both of us. God Maura I found you on the floor bleeding out. I thought I was going to loose you. And when you were in the OR I prayed God to let you live because I knew I would have been able to survive without you. So yes I didn't have our child ripped out of me but this child was my child too even if I wasn't carrying her . I miss her every second of every day, trust me . I 'm going to think about our daughter every single day of my life but you are here, you're alive and I'm thankful for that. So when I say we are gonna get through this I mean it. If you're not ready to talk about it yet fine, I will wait. I will wait for the rest of my life if I have to but I'm not leaving you alone."

"I don't want to go through this ever again." Maura finally let out.

"I know, I promise I won't let anything bad happen to you again." Jane said kissing her wife's forehead.

"I mean I don't want to try again." Maura clarified .

"Don't worry about it , we'll talk about it later, you need to rest and time to heal."

"I'm serious Jane, you know I never change my mind when I have made a decision.I do not want to try to have another baby and I don't want to adopt either. If I can't carry a pregnancy to term, I'm clearly fit to be a mother. "

"Oh Maura, don't say that, it was an accident, you didn't do anything wrong, you know you're going to be a great mom."

"Is having a child that important to you?Would you still love me if I didn't give you one?"Maura asked scared to death of the answer.

"I want a child, I don't need one but I do need you. If you don't want to ever have one then fine I will be perfectly happy spending the rest of my life with you, you and me ,just us two. I'm not leaving you Maura."

Maura felt quickly asleep as far as she could from Jane, she didn't want her to touch her. Most importantly she didn't want to feel her reassuring voice in her ears telling that she loved her, she felt she didn't deserve to be loved after failing her like that.

Jane on her side of the bed couldn't sleep. Maura and her have been through some rough times, but they never had to overcome something like this. For the first time in their relationship she didn't know what to do. And for the first time Maura was actually rejecting he hand refusing her help and she didn't know how to fix it, how to fix her wife.

The next morning Jane wake up and decided to make some waffles, she knew it wouldn't fix Maura but she knew her wife would need to eat at some point.

"I see you're up, I made you some waffles." Jane said entering their bedroom.

"I'm not hungry. I want to see Bass." Maura said trying to get out bed, but she couldn't : her legs were shaking and she could barely stand.

"Easy , easy, I got you." Jane whispered keeping her wife from falling by pulling her close to her.

"Oh Jane promise me you still love me and you still want to be with me." Maura begged bursting into tears.

"Of course, I'm staying right here and I'm not going anywhere, please try to lay down." Jane murmured trying to help her to get back in bed.

"You can't be with me 24/7 Jane, this is not realistic, you need to go back to work."

"Hell with work, you just miscarried, I'm staying here with you until you're totally recovered, that's not negotiable."

"I don't want to be a burden. You need to work."

"Well usually I would use work as a way to cope, but I wouldn't be able to work and focus knowing that you're home hurt. And beside I married a rich heiress so I don't really need to work."

"I always knew you were in for the money." Maura smiled.

"You got me, now please eat something."

"Alright, you can that I can't resist your waffles anyway." Maura replied taking a small bite.

"I know, I'm proud of you Maura."

Maybe things weren't that lost.. Maybe Jane could find a way to bring Maura back, to save her. The only thing she knew right now was that Maura needed time to heal..She wouldn't get better over night. So Jane decided to be patient, caring but without being to overwhelming hoping that one day Maura would open up and talk to her about losing their daughter.

Jane knew it would take time before Maura would accept to talk about it, but she knew talking about their daughter was the first step towards recovery.

SO guys, should I continue?Or is this way too far from the show?