I remember back at school when boys boasted over their sexual prowess. How they'd speak about the girls they 'bedded'. I remember how even my closest friends would tease me when I refused to speak about such things. How they'd laugh and snicker when I admitted to being a virgin.
I remember how I passed through my late teens avoiding the topic entirely. Kou and Takato had flings here and there while I sat idly by with my camera taking photos of every pretty couple. Wishing I had someone of my own.
I remember how two years ago when I was bound and drugged by a terrifying man. How the thing I'd unconsciously treasured so much was torn from me in the most brutal way possible. How I cursed and condemned that man to hell for taking what was mine and giving me nothing in return but pain.
I remember how, since that day, I've spent most of my time on my back. Whether it be by Asami or Feilong my days were spent with copious amounts of pain and pleasure.
"Hey, what's wrong?" I blink from my trance seeing Asami inches from my face and a slight wet sting on my neck.
"Nothing, just thinking." He sighed softly before lying back beside me and pulling my body close, my hand settling over his heart.
"Is that so?" He mused, saying nothing more but tightening his grip on my waist a little more. Closing my eyes I nuzzled closer feeling utter contempt.
And I remember feeling no anger for how it all unfolded. Because unconventional as it may be this man took my virginity and my heart. My first and hopefully my last. My tainter Asami Ryuichi, the man I love.
Very short but it wouldn't leave my mind until I wrote it down. I'm sorry if he's OOC or there are any grammar mistakes or if it doesn't make sense because I wrote this while half asleep. Still, it'd mean a lot if you'd leave a review and tell me how to improve.