First off, I would like to apologize to everyone for not writing for a long time. There has just been a lot going on in life that I have not had a chance to write like I want to. I'm back though. The inspiration for this story came from when I was sitting at the theater watching Breaking Dawn Part II. I thought what if Alice's vision was reality and not just a vision. How would the Cullen's and pack cope with the loss of their loved ones?
This has to be a dream
Bella POV
"Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back."
― Mitch Albom, For One More Day
If only I could go back and just agreed to let Aro change me in Italy or had James just killed me in the beginning, none of this would have ever happened and I would not have lost all the things so near and dear to my heart.
Oh how I will miss you my Renesmee and dear sweet Jake. I barely had time with you, but I will love you for the rest of my existence. I know Jacob will take care of you and that you will come back to me one day. I will always cherish the times we had together Jacob from building the bike to sitting on our piece of driftwood.
Carlisle, dear sweet Carlisle. He didn't deserve to die. He was protecting his family. He loved and helped everyone around him. I don't think I will ever be able to get that image out of my head for the rest of my existence.
Jasper our brave soldier on the field of battle. He fought so hard and valiantly for his family. If only my shield was stronger and Alec didn't distract me Jasper would still be here. It breaks my heart hearing Alice's choked sobs in the forest. She couldn't bear to come inside without Jasper.
Seth, the brother I never had. He had such a kind and pure soul. He was so young too, he didn't deserve to die at the hands of Jane and the guard. Hearing Leah painful cries and the loss of her brother shakes me to my core.
Even though I was never close to Leah like the others, I still loved and respected her for helping defend my family and me when we needed her the most, even when she didn't like it or necessarily agree with it. She was always there and that's what I loved most about her.
I'm going to do the best I can the rest of my existence to make it up to my family, the pack and to Sue. Oh poor Sue not only has she lost her husband she has lost her children and it's all my fault. Thank God, she has Charlie to help her through it. Now, I've got to go with Sam and the pack to break the news to Sue. Wish me luck.