Hi, all my fellow BTR-obsessed girls and guys out there! I really hope you enjoy this cute little Kogan piece I just finished! PLEASE R&R! :D
I've Seen the Future and I Know You'll Last
Kendall Knight had a problem. He was in love with someone, and he had no idea if they loved him back. He had been in love with this person for as long as he could remember. He was positive that it wasn't just another crush; these feelings were much deeper than that. Every time he looked at this person, it took his breath away. Every time this person smiled, his heart would just flutter. Every time this person touched him, it warmed him to the core.
Who is this person, you may ask? Well, that's where it got complicated. The person Kendall had such strong feelings for was Logan Mitchell: his best friend and band mate. The only people Kendall had confided his feelings in was his two other best friends, James and Carlos. Thankfully, both of them were totally cool with him being gay, and they even convinced Kendall to tell Logan how he felt about him. That's where it got even more complicated.
The three of them made special plans to get everyone except Kendall and Logan out of the apartment, so they could have some privacy. However, when Kendall told Logan that he had something to tell him, Logan said the same thing. Being polite, Kendall let Logan go first. He was elated to hear that Logan was gay as well….but elation was quickly crushed when Logan told him that he had a boyfriend. When Logan asked what it was that Kendall wanted to tell him, the blonde boy made up a fake story about there being an awesome new edition of their favorite video game being released. After he was satisfied that Logan believed his story, he excused himself, and went to his room and just broke down into tears. Why the hell had he waited so long to tell Logan how he felt? He had waited too long, and now he had lost Logan to someone he knew could never love him as much as he did.
That had been two months ago. Kendall had met David(that's Logan's boyfriend) several times since then, and he felt a sick feeling in the pit of his stomach every time he saw him. David was tall and dark-haired and rather good-looking, but Kendall could tell just by looking at him that he didn't love Logan. David had moved into the Palmwoods about three months ago, and during that time, Kendall had heard numerous rumors about him that none of his relationships ever lasted long, and that he could charm anyone into believing that he cared about them. The fact that Logan had fallen for this just tore Kendall up inside. Logan was so sweet and kind-hearted, and Kendall knew that he deserved better than David. Kendall couldn't stand to see Logan be hurt, and he so wanted to tell him of these rumors, but at the same time he knew that if he tried to break them up, it would cause all kinds of drama that could ruin their friendship. He was coping with not having Logan as a boyfriend, but he couldn't bear it if he lost him as a friend.
On this particular evening, Kendall sat in the living room with James and Carlos, who were locked in a two-player battle of Mario Kart on their Nintendo DS's. Kendall, however, was reading through the latest edition of Hockey Magazine. He looked up from the glossy pages of his magazine when he heard someone enter the room. A small smile tugged at his lips when he saw that it was Logan. The brunette boy was dressed up in a pair of black skinny-jeans, a black t-shirt with blue graphic designs across the front, and a pair of black high tops. Kendall thought he looked absolutely gorgeous, especially with the way the skinny-jeans hugged his legs so perfectly, and the fact that black was an amazing color on him. Hell, any color is an amazing color on him, Kendall thought.
"Ooo, someone's looking spiffy tonight." James pointed out when Logan entered the room.
"Thanks. I've got a date with David; he's picking me up in a few minutes." Logan replied.
Kendall's smile instantly fell, and he felt a sour feeling in his stomach at the mention of David's name.
"Nice. Where ya headed?" Carlos asked.
"We're gonna grab a bite to eat, and maybe go see a movie." Logan answered as he seated himself in one of the seats at the bar of the kitchen.
Just a moment after he said that, there was a knock at the front door before it opened, and David stepped inside. The dark-haired guy wore a pair of black jeans, a red t-shirt, a leather jacket, and a pair of lime sneakers. His usual cocky smile adorned his features as he strutted across the room over to where Logan sat at the bar.
"Hey, hot thing; I hope I'm not too early." he said as he wrapped an arm around Logan's shoulders.
"He's not a thing, you idiot!" Kendall growled in his head, his fists tightening slightly around the edges of his magazine.
"No, actually you're right on time." Logan replied as he hopped off the blue bar stool, "We're heading out now, guys. Tell Mama Knight not to wait up for us like she always does."
"Can do." James called, not taking his eyes off the DS screen in front of him.
With that, Logan and David walked out the door with their arms around each other.
"I don't know what in the world Logan sees in that guy." Kendall said as soon as the front door clicked shut, "He's a total asshole, and I know he doesn't love Logan."
"Well, if you're so in love with Logan, why don't you just tell him?" James asked, still not taking his eyes off the game screen.
"You don't think I want to? I've wanted to ever since seventh grade, but….Logan seems happy with David, and I guess there's nothing I can do about my feelings now." Kendall explained, a hint of remorse in his voice as he went back to reading his hockey magazine.
After watching Chernobyl Diaries at the theater, and sharing a bucket of popcorn, Logan and David drove to the nearest fast food place to grab a bite to eat. They each got a small burger and an order of fries as well as a chocolate milkshake with two straws to share. Logan received an odd look from David when he proceeded to dip his fries in the milkshake, but he didn't care; that's the way he'd eaten them ever since he could remember. The contrasting salty and sweet tastes just made his taste buds tingle and come to life.
When they finished eating, Logan was half-expecting David to take him back to the apartment and their date would be over, so he was pleasantly surprised when the dark-haired guy sitting across from him suggested that they take a walk in Palmwoods Park. At first, he was a bit apprehensive because there was a slight chill in the air, but he was quickly convinced otherwise when David played a little convincing footsie with him under the table, and gave him one of those charming looks he was so good at making. After disposing of the burger wrappers and French fry boxes left over from their 'dinner', Logan picked up what remained of their shared milkshake, and was leisurely escorted out the door by David's arm wrapped around his lower back.
It was a short drive back to the Palmwoods, and after they pulled into one of the empty parking spaces, they quickly located the park, which was devoid of anyone else but them. For several minutes, everything was silent between them while they slowly strolled along the walkway that twisted its way through the park. Logan held the plastic cup containing what remained of their milkshake, and the two of them occasionally took sips of the creamy treat.
"You know…." David finally said, breaking the silence, "….you were really hot tonight in the movie theater….with the light flickering across that creamy skin."
He enunciated his words by playfully nuzzling Logan's neck, his warm breath tickling the skin, which was cooled by the night air surrounding them. A shy smile tugged at Logan's lips, and he giggled softly. He was almost positive that he was blushing as well, but maybe the sparse lighting in the park would conceal it.
"Thanks." he muttered as he raised the half-melted milkshake to his lips once more.
"We've been going out for almost two months now, and I was kinda hoping we could….take things to the next level." David said, a hint of seduction in his voice.
Logan's heart skipped a beat, and he tensed a little. He knew what David was getting at, but he had never been in a serious relationship before, and he wasn't sure he was ready to take such a big step yet. He wanted to wait until he found that one special person….and he wasn't totally sure yet that David was it.
"Uhhh….I d-don't think so." he stammered.
"Aw, come on." David coaxed, giving Logan's shoulders a little squeeze, "We could go back up to my apartment, and we'd have the whole place all to ourselves."
Logan side-stepped just slightly away from him, trying to get even a fraction of an inch of space between their bodies.
"That sounds great and all, but….I just don't think I'm ready." he explained.
He expected David to understand and drop the subject, so he was not-so-pleasantly-surprised when he felt a firm hand grab his ass through his jeans.
"Come on, baby….I haven't been able to take my eyes off you all night. You have no idea how horny you make me." David moaned in a gruff voice right in Logan's ear.
"David, seriously, no!" the brunette boy insisted as he wriggled free of David's grasp, "I told you; I'm not ready."
He turned to continue walking down the pathway, but was stopped abruptly by a rough shove against his back, which succeeded in knocking him forward into the grass. At first, he didn't know what had hit him. For a brief moment, he thought that David must have stumbled and knocked him over by accident, but that assumption was quickly disproved when the taller boy knelt over him, and yanked him up by the fabric of his t-shirt.
"You don't say no to me." he growled.
Logan was suddenly struck by fear and confusion. There was an enraged, monstrous look that he had never seen before etched across David's face. It was as if he were a totally different person. The next thing he saw was a fist raised above David's head….and it was aimed right at him.
After Logan left with David for their date, Kendall didn't stay in the living room with James and Carlos much longer. He couldn't concentrate on his magazine, and he knew that if he stayed there, James and Carlos would notice that he was distracted sooner or later, and he didn't feel like being interrogated about his feelings. Tossing his Hockey magazine aside on the coffee table, the blonde boy got up from the couch, and made his way down the hall to the room he and Logan shared. He sighed heavily as he shut the door behind him, and flopped back across his twin-sized bed. For several minutes, he just lay there in the near silence. The only sounds he heard were muffled the whoops and mock battle cries emanating from the living room. He soon tuned out the noises as his mind drifted to the boy that had been the target of his affections since middle school. He smiled when he thought about how beautiful and special and kind-hearted Logan was, but the smile was only half-hearted because the dark fact that they would probably never be together loomed in the back of his mind. All he could think was, "Why the hell didn't I have the guts to tell him sooner?"
Deciding not to lay there feeling sorry for himself like he had done so many times before, he got up off the bed, and grabbed his blue cardigan hanging next to the door before stepping out into the hall and making his way to the living room. James and Carlos were still locked in their video game battle, so they didn't even notice as Kendall walked out the front door. He planned to take a walk in the park to clear his mind, like he always did whenever he was stressed from rehearsals or something was bothering him.
Kendall didn't feel like waiting for the slow elevator, so he took the quick route down the stairs before making his way across the sparsely-occupied lobby. It was a short walk to the park, and he was relieved when he got there. For some reason, he always found a walk in the park to be so relaxing and somewhat therapeutic. Whether the park was crowded or empty, the trees and grass and meticulously manicured hedges provided a peaceful atmosphere for him to think.
As he unhurriedly walked through the park, his thoughts and the silence were suddenly interrupted by a commotion that seemed to be coming from somewhere off to his left. Instantly curious, he walked toward the sounds. As he drew closer, he could easily identify the sounds as being those associated with a fight: dull thuds(obviously punches), scuffling on the ground, and groans of either anger or pain. Sensing that someone might be in trouble, he quickened his pace to a sprint, and when he rounded the end of one of the numerous hedges, his heart stopped for a split second.
A few feet away were the two forms of Logan and David….and the latter was viciously attacking the first. Logan lay on the ground with David straddling him, trying to defend himself against the blows being delivered to his chest and face, as well as the strong hand gripping his throat in an attempt to hold him still. Anger flared inside Kendall as soon as he saw Logan being attacked by the person who supposedly cared for him.
"GET THE HELL OFF HIM!" the blonde boy cried as he ran forward.
The sudden cry must have distracted David because he paused and looked up in just enough time to see Kendall barreling toward him before being roughly knocked to the ground. The impact stunned him just long enough for Kendall to deliver one sharp punch to his jaw. Immediately after that, he launched himself at the blonde boy so their positions were switched. Kendall had been involved in plenty of hockey fights before, so he knew how to fight back and defend himself. The two of them scuffled on the ground for a couple tense minutes before David ended up flat on his back, out cold.
As soon as the fight was over, Kendall turned his attention to the victim of this vicious attack. Turning around from David's still form, he saw Logan sitting with his back against the nearest tree with a look of fear and confusion etched across his features. A bright red scrape marred the once flawless skin of his right cheek, a bruise was beginning to form below his left eye, and a thin trail of blood streamed from his cut-open lower lip.
"Logan! Logie, are you okay? D-do you think anything's broken?" Kendall gasped and stammered as he knelt in front of the brunette boy, holding him gently by the shoulders.
"N-no, I'm….I'm okay. It's just a few cuts and bruises." Logan answered, his voice slightly out-of-breath as he tried to comprehend what just happened.
"Do you think you need to go to the hospital?" Kendall asked.
"No….I just wanna get back up to the apartment." Logan replied; the last thing he wanted to do right now was sit in the Emergency Room, waiting all night to be seen for a few minor injuries.
Kendall nodded in understanding, and carefully helped Logan to his feet. He made sure to keep one arm close around Logan's back, but not making contact, in case he became unsteady on his feet. He also stood so that he blocked Logan's view of David's knocked-out form on the ground; Logan didn't need to lay eyes on that bastard ever again.
After leaving the park, the two of them made their way back up to apartment 2J, taking the route through the Palmwoods' backdoor to avoid the prying eyes in the lobby. When they reached the apartment, they were so grateful to find that everyone had retired for the evening; there was no one in sight in the main part of the apartment.
"Where do you keep your first aid kit?" Kendall asked as he shut the front door behind them.
"It's in the bottom drawer of my nightstand." Logan answered quietly.
Kendall nodded, and the two of them walked down the hall to the room they shared, shutting the door behind them. Logan felt rather tired both physically and emotionally from his ordeal, so he seated himself on the edge of the nearest bed, which was Kendall's while the blonde boy stepped around the bed to search for the first aid kit. When he found it, he quickly scurried into the bathroom to retrieve a washcloth from the cabinet below the sink. He thoroughly soaked the washcloth with water from the faucet, then wrung it out so it was slightly damp. He then returned to the bedroom, and sat down next to Logan.
"You wanna….tell me what happened?" he asked as he lifted the washcloth to carefully wipe at the blood smeared across Logan's chin.
"We were walking in the park, and he kept….hinting that he wanted us to go back to his apartment to have sex, but I kept telling him no; that I didn't think I was ready. And….that's when he started hitting me." Logan explained, "He kicked me right here."
He lifted up his t-shirt to reveal a dark bruise beginning to form on his side, directly on his ribs. Kendall had to close his eyes briefly at the sight. His heart wrenched at the thought of someone wanting to hurt Logan. The brunette boy was so sweet and kind-hearted; he had never done anything to deserve this.
"Logan….I've gotta ask…." Kendall started, his voice shaking just slightly from fighting back tears, "….did he rape you?"
"No." came Logan's quick answer, "I think he was trying to….but, no, he didn't."
Kendall breathed an audible sigh of relief. If David had touched Logan like that; if he had hurt him and violated him, prison would be the least of his worries. Hell hath no fury like Kendall after someone hurts one of his friends.
After hearing the news that Logan hadn't been raped, Kendall just felt an unexplainable rush of emotion. His and Logan's eyes met, and he knew in an instant that he had to let Logan know how he felt. David was ultimately out of the picture now, so there was nothing standing in the way. Without even thinking, Kendall leaned forward and pulled Logan into a quick but gentle kiss. He was careful of the cut place on Logan's lower lip, and he was met by the faint metallic taste of blood, but he didn't care. When he pulled back, there was an understandable look of surprise etched across Logan's face.
"What was that for?" the brunette boy asked in a breathy voice.
"I love you." Kendall finally admitted, "I've been in love with you for…..for as long as I can remember. I've been so scared to tell you because I didn't know how you felt about me, and….I was scared that if I told you, you would hate me."
For a few seconds, a tense silence loomed between them while Logan processed everything Kendall just said. It was the longest few seconds of Kendall's life. What was Logan thinking? What was he feeling?
"Kendall…." Logan finally said, "….I could never hate you….because I love you, too."
The blonde boy's eyebrows instantly perked up. Had Logan just said what he thought he said?
"Y-you do?" he asked, hoping against hope that he had heard Logan correctly.
"Yeah." the brunette boy answered, "All that you said about not knowing how I felt about you, and being scared that I'd hate you….I was feeling all that, too. When we came to LA, I tried to push my feelings for you aside both so we could focus on our music, and because….I didn't think you would ever love me back. That's when I met David. He seemed….nice, and he was sorta good-looking. We went out for a couple months, but my feelings for you never changed. I just….I never thought I would end up with someone that would hit me."
After that last little bit, Kendall could see a small but noticeable saddened look come over Logan's face as he thought about what David had done to him. Almost on reflex, he reached out to hold the smaller boy's hand.
"Logan, I would never hurt you. I love you more than anything." he said reassuringly.
"I love you, too." Logan whispered, offering a small, shy smile.
Kendall smiled back as he leaned in to gently(and more confidently) kiss Logan again. This time, the brunette boy kissed back, and even brought his free hand up to cradle Kendall's cheek. The contact seemed to warm Kendall's entire body, and the feeling of Logan's perfect, warm lips against his own made his heart flutter. The kiss couldn't have lasted long enough for either of them, but after several seconds, their air-deprived lungs made that decision for them. When they pulled apart, both of them were sporting goofy smiles like two twelve-year-olds that had just received their first kiss.
"So, does this mean we're….boyfriends?" Logan asked after several seconds.
"Only if you want us to be." Kendall answered.
"You have no idea how long I've wanted that….but before we get ahead of ourselves, I have something I need to tell you." Logan said, igniting a tiny spark of concern in the blonde boy.
"What is it?" Kendall asked, tilting his head just slightly to the side.
"I've never had sex before, and after tonight….I just really wanna take things slow." Logan explained.
"That's perfectly fine." Kendall said, breathing an internal sigh of relief, "We don't have to do anything until you're sure you're ready."
The blonde boy's heart fluttered at the shy smile that tugged at Logan's lips. That smile was one of the countless things that made Logan so beautiful and special. At that moment, Kendall vowed in his heart to love Logan, and respect him, and genuinely listen to what he had to say, and treat him the way he deserved to be treated.
"So….now what?" Logan asked, breaking the silence.
"Well, after I finish up with your first aid, how does snuggling up under the covers with hot chocolate and a movie sound?" Kendall suggested.
"With you, it sounds awesome. It could be our first date." Logan replied.
Kendall's heart leapt with excitement, and he quickly but carefully tended to Logan's other injuries. After wiping away the last of the blood from his chin, and dabbing a bit of anti-biotic cream across the scrape on his cheek and covering it with a band-aid, he put the first aid kit away where he'd found it.
"Okay, I'm gonna go make the hot chocolate, and you pick out a movie for us to watch." he said as he straightened from placing the first aid kit in the lower drawer of Logan's nightstand.
After Logan nodded, Kendall stepped out of the room, and made his way to the kitchen. He quickly found the container of powdered hot chocolate mix, a measuring spoon, a measuring cup, and two mugs. Setting all the items on the counter, he took the measuring cup, and filled it with a cup-and-a-half of water, then set it in the microwave. After setting the correct time, he stepped back to lean against the edge of the counter while he waited. His mind soon drifted to the fact that he and Logan were now boyfriends. The first thought that went through his mind was, 'Wow!'. The events of the past half-hour seemed almost too good to be true. He'd spent so many years loving and pining over and fantasizing about Logan, he never thought his feelings would be reciprocated, and suddenly….they were! Just like that, the biggest thing he'd ever dreamed of had come true.
He was suddenly broken out of his thoughts by the loud beeping of the microwave, signaling that the first cup of water was heated. Shaking these thoughts from his mind, he opened the microwave to take out the measuring cup of hot water. He then went through the process of mixing up the first mug of hot chocolate, making sure to add extra marshmallows because that's the way Logan liked it. Next, he repeated the process for his own mug of hot chocolate. Once both mugs were mixed up, he returned the ingredients to the cabinet, picked up the two mugs, and made his way gingerly down the hall to his and Logan's bedroom.
"Find a good movie for us to watch, boyfriend?" he asked in a particularly cheerful tone.
"Yeah, I've got it narrowed down to two." Logan answered, holding up two movies: Paul and Air Force One, "Which one?"
"Mmmmm, Paul." Kendall said as he glanced back and forth between the two movies.
Logan quickly set the other DVD case aside, and placed their chosen movie in the DVD player. As Kendall set the two piping-hot mugs of hot chocolate down on his nightstand, and turned around, he was met by an unexpected(but not at all unwanted) sight: Logan removing his t-shirt. For a moment, he was mesmerized by the expanse of creamy skin marred only by the bruise David had inflicted. It was obvious that their vigorous dance sessions and the occasional trips to the gym with James were paying off for the brunette boy; he was noticeably more toned than he used to be. His muscles weren't as bulky as lots of the other guys at the Palmwoods, but Kendall thought he looked perfect. He was so beautiful.
"Uhhh, what are you doing?" the blonde boy asked once he found his voice again.
"Changing into my pajamas. You can't have hot chocolate and a movie without pajamas." Logan answered, bringing a smile to Kendall's face with his logic.
"I couldn't agree more." Kendall replied, deciding to follow suit.
With that, the two of them set to work at changing into their favorite cozy pajamas. Kendall's consisted of a pair of dark plaid bottoms and a grey long-sleeved t-shirt. Logan's consisted of a pair of black flannel bottoms and a dark-red long-sleeved t-shirt. While they were changing, Kendall found it rather difficult to keep his eyes off Logan's nearly-naked form. The blonde boy's breath caught in his throat when Logan bent over to retrieve his pajama bottoms from the lower drawer of his dresser….and he was wearing nothing but a sexy blue pair of boxer briefs. However, he quickly looked the other way, reminding himself that, 'He wants to take things slow. How is it gonna look if you get a hard-on five minutes after you just admitted your feelings?'
As the movie started, the two of them crawled onto Kendall's bed, and sat so their backs rested against the wall, and their lower halves were covered by the blankets. Since it was a twin-size bed, they had to sit very close, which neither of them had any objections to. Kendall wrapped an arm loosely around his new boyfriend's shoulders, and Logan rested his head lightly against the blonde boy's shoulder while they sipped at their hot chocolate. Up until now, neither of them could remember ever being this happy.
They were in love.
A/N: Well, there it is! I really hope you liked it! *super duper snuggly panda huggles to all who did* ^-^ PLEASE REVIEW! :D