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Why Can't I

Chapter 1

"Sowa! Sowa!" His voice always use to be there…

"Kaiwi! Kaiwi!" And now is gone…

Riiinnggg! Riiinnggg! Riiinnggg!

"Ah!" Kairi yell exasperated as her alarm clock rang loudly and annoyingly, telling her that it was time to wake up for school. She really should get another one, maybe one that didn't sound so loudly at 6:00 A.M. in the morning. Kairi almost please by the idea almost felt asleep again, but her annoyingly loud alarm rang three more times waking her right back up while she slam the damn loud thing off.

'That's it! I'm getting a new alarm clock.' She decided in her head, while getting up from bed and muttering to herself how tired she was.

As Kairi study her complexion in the bathroom mirror from her room, she made a face and let out horrified "Yikes," before turning on the sink and splashing cold water on her face and drying it later with a pink towel she kept close to her sink. After cleaning up herself in the bathroom she went to her closet a pick her school uniform. It was a square sky blue short skirt, with a matching tie and a white button up shirt. Though she liked to push the shoulder sleeves a little more up. Kairi then put on her dark blue tube sucks and went to put on her school shoes, when she notice they weren't anywhere in her room. She pause for a moment to try and remember were she left them…

"Oh! Dah," (slaps her forehead) " I left them at the door, like I always do." She said, and snorted. "I should really get some helped, I'm getting Alzheimer at sixteen."

Down stairs Kairi's mother was making breakfast, she was humming a soft tune when she heard her daughter's foots steps upstairs. She smiled to herself, 'Guess she's already up,' She thought with chuckle. After coming back two years ago to Destiny Islands, when Kairi's grandmother finally pass away, she had been a little unsure that Kairi would get use to living here again after they had left to Radiant Garden to be with her sick grandmother when she was only seven. She smiled sadly. Kairi had pass most of her childhood taking care of her sick grandmother, till the very end when she finally died peacefully while Kairi held her hand. She died happy and it was all thanks to her granddaughter's care and love.

'Though I wonder,' She thought to herself, 'If I did the right thing in taking Kairi away from this place when she was so young…'

It had been a question that had always bother her. Kairi had only been seven after all when they left Destiny Islands and she remember a time that Kairi had even cried because she didn't want to leave Destiny Islands. Why was it again…? She had a friend?

"Good morning mom," Kairi greeted, snapping her out of her thoughts.

"Oh. Good morning sweetie, I didn't hear you come down." She said truthfully.

"That's because you were deep in thought again mom." Kairi told her teasingly.

She smiled at her daughter and agreed, "Yes, well I am at that age were your mind just wonders."

"Mom, you make it sound like your older then what you really are," Kairi chided playfully.

Kairi's mom chuckle at that, they always had this kind of treatment. Kairi and her mother got along well, just like best friends do, because to Kairi her mother would always be her best friend. As it was already getting late Kairi had gobble what was left of her breakfast and headed out, not before giving her mother a kiss goodbye and grabbing her lunch.

As she ran to the buss stop and made it not a minute to soon, Kairi took a deep swallow of air and got on the buss.

"Finally! I thought you weren't coming," Said and exasperated Selphie.

"Sorry, Selphie. Guess I should pay more attention to the time, huh?" She admitted.

"Mmm-hmm," Selphie agreed.

Kairi liked that about Selphie, she was the type of girl who always spoke her mind and wasn't afraid of what other people thought of it, she also had great fashion sense and was a great friend. There was only one downside to Selphie though…

"Well, what are you standing in the middle of the buss for. Sit down next to me right now, I have so much to tell you!" She exclaim.

Yup, that's Selphie, she is a walking, talking chatter box full of the latest gossip and fashion that there was in the whole Islands. Still Kairi loved her even if she talk her ears off.

"You know that Roxas and Xion had another fight, can you believe it! Why, and I mean why are they still together? Its so obvious that its not going to work, I mean I know Roxas is totally cute, but Xion should really look for someone that actually pays attention to her. You know? Like yesterday a saw her talking to him and he was just nodding the whole conversation, it was so painfully obvious he was not listening…Kairi, are you listening?" Selphie ask looking suspiciously at Kairi who had been doing exactly what she had been commenting what Roxas had been doing to Xion.

"Hmm…? Oh, yes of course. Your totally right she should dump him." Was Kairi's reply which she knew was a great reply even though she wasn't really listening, because most of Selphie's conversations were about couples who were having problems so it was always the same answer.

"Yeah, I know right!" Selphie agree and Kairi just smile relived she got it right. "Oh-oh, Kairi, Sora alert, hide!" Selphie warn urgently as the buss stop and two young boys got on. Both with spiky hair, though one was blond hair and the other brown hair, they were also both very handsome with similar sky blue eyes and killer smiles that went well with there athlete bodies; Roxas and Sora twin brothers and on the top ten most hottest guys in school.

Kairi's heart did a triple jump in her chest and she buried her head in her school bag. As Sora and Roxas pass by them, both given the girl with her head in her bag a weird look, they both sat in the back of the buss were the 'cool' kids sat. Selphie gave on last look over her shoulder to make sure they weren't looking there way before giving Kairi the okay.

"Okay Kairi, is all clear," She told her then.

Kairi got her head out of her bag and sighed, "Thank Selphie, I don't know what I'll do with out you." She said relief.

Selphie look at her friend concern. "Kairi, how long are you planning to keep it up like this?" She ask her for what it seem the hundred time.

Kairi just sighed again and gave the same explanation she had given her for the hundred time as well, "I don't know…Maybe until we graduate from high school and I never get to see him again." She finish lamely.

Selphie frowned at that and Kairi shrug awkwardly. Now it was Selphie time to sighed disapprovingly. Kairi knew what came next.

"Kairi, you shouldn't keep doing this to yourself," Yup, she is doing the speech again. "You and Sora knew each other when you were very little and you told me you never forgot him, that he was special to you…Why do you keep hiding from him?"

Kairi lower her head sadly and said almost in a whisper, "You know why…"

In that moment the buss stop again and a beautiful girl with platinum blond hair that pass her shoulders and ice blue eyes got on. Her skin was so fair and delicate she look as lovely as a porcelain doll.

"Namine!" Sora call his girlfriend. Yes, his girlfriend the one Sora had chosen to be his special person and the reason Kairi hid from him and never let him see her. The truth was that Sora didn't even know she was here, well to be more clear, he literally didn't know that Kairi was here, he never really seen her face or even know that the girl he use to play with until he was seven had been back in Destiny Island for two years now. And that's how Kairi prefer it after hearing that Sora had somebody else...

Namine look back at Sora and smiled, then saw Roxas sitting beside him and blush. Roxas gave her a knowing look and smirk devilishly at her making Namine blush even harder as she went to sit next to her boyfriend Sora, who loop his arm over her shoulders. Who ever saw her though, thought she was blushing because of Sora, so they hadn't notice Roxas and Namine stares a minute ago.

Back to Kairi and Selphie…

Selphie let out a non impress sniff as she studied the blond girl. "She is not that pretty Kairi, you can probably do circles around her." She told her so sure of that fact, that Kairi was able to smiled at her friend's faith in her looks over one of the most beautiful girls in school. Though she knew it couldn't be true.

"You should listen to Selphie, ya." Said the orange hair senior who was sitting in front of them.

"Wakka, were you ease dropping again." Said Selphie annoyed at there older friend.

Wakka just scratch the back of his head a little embarrass and said accusingly, "It wasn't my idea, ya. It was Tidus."

"No it wasn't! Wakka you snitch!" Yell the shaggy hair blond who set beside him.

"Wakka, Tidus when will you learn." Selphie chided them and both her and Kairi laugh at the now fluster males.

At school…

"So Kairi," said Selphie later while getting some book from their locker for the first class of the morning, "Tell, me that story again. The one about you and Sora when you were little." She ask hopefully at Kairi.

Kairi had an amuse/exasperated look on her face as she said, "Again, Selphie? I told you that story so many times already."

"I know, I know, but you know how much I love romance stories and yours is always the best." Selphie said sweetly, too sweetly.

Kairi just let out a deep sigh and complied, knowing she didn't had a choice anyway-Selphie wouldn't take no for an answer, "Fine. I'll tell you for the million time then."

As they walk toward their first class in the morning Kairi began…

~Flash back~

I had been crying that day on the beach…

I was only four and didn't have any friends, until I met him,

"Why are you cwying?" He had ask me confuse.

"I(sniff)I am alone(sniff, sniff)nobody wants to play with me…" I had told him heartbroken, I had been to busy crying that hadn't really notice him, but then he said something that I will always remember.

"Well, I do. I want to play with you." He said with such I kind voice.

His words had made me stop crying and I was finally able to actually get a good look of him and I ask him still unsure, "Reawy?"

The boy with the sky blue eyes and bright smiled nodded at me and said while reaching a hand for me, "I'm Sowa and I want to be friends with you."

His words had brought a smile back on my face and I blush as a took his hand and said happily, "And I'm Kaiwi and I want to be friends with you too!"

I was so happy, he was always so fun, so kind, he was always the reason I woke up so early those days…Because I wanted to see him, I wanted to see Sora's bright smiles and blue eyes. I liked to play with his chocolate spikes that no matter what, it staid spiky and it always made me laugh, but most of all I liked being with Sora because he was Sora. After a time Sora wasn't my only friend I made new friends thanks to him. I thought that maybe having so many new friends would make me care about Sora a little less, but it didn't; it made me care for him even more.

I could see what made me like him so much. Sora was different from the other kids, Sora always had and internal glow that made people around him like him automatically, he was so childish and stubborn. He got himself into so much trouble, but he still made me laugh and smile with every wild idea of his. He was such lazy bum, too. I always use to tease him with that and he puff his cheeks and say other wise. We argue too, kids argue all the time, but when I use to argue with Sora it always ended the same, we staid mad for a couple of minutes and we just look at each other again an it was all better.

Me and Sora, Sora and me…

They use to tease us…Riku especially, he always competed with Sora an he always won. Sora didn't like it when he lost to Riku, but they were still best bodies and rivals. I wonder if that was why Riku tease him so much with me. I remember hearing them talk about a paopu fruit and Riku told Sora to race with him and who ever won the race got to share a paopu with me…

I didn't get it, until I heard about the legend.

If you share a paopu fruit with that special someone, you'll remain a part of each others lives, forever.

That's when…

That's when I knew I wanted to share the paopu fruit with Sora, only with Sora.

But that was also the day my mom told me we had to leave and I…

I wouldn't see Sora,

I had cried that day again…The same way I had cried the first time I met Sora, on the beach,

"Why are you crying Kairi?" He had ask me that day just like the first time, only we were a little bit older and we knew each others name. It was so strange to know that this was going to be our goodbye when it had been our hello…

"Because(sniff)this is goodbye Sora(sniff) I'm leaving to Radiant Garden to lived with my grandma and n-now(sob) I'm going to really be alone," And I cried, I think I even cried harder then the first time, but of course Sora wouldn't let it.

"No your not,"He had said so sure that I look up at him with surprise, but hopeful eyes.

"I'll be there when you leave and I'll be there with you in your new home," I though he had lost his mind which I tried to point out.

"Wha-what? Sora you can't come with us!" I had exclaim. Knowing Sora wasn't that nuts, Was he?

Sora just shook his head, he squatted in front of me while holding me by the shoulders.

He look me deeply in the eyes and said, "I will be there, Kairi. Because are hearts are connected, yours and mind."

"Our hearts…are connected…?" I had ask him confuse. He nodded and I was able to see what he saw.

We were connected, me and Sora,

Sora and me.

I was able to smile again and I was so happy I hug Sora and he hug me back. The day I left I left Sora a little gift.

"Its my lucky charm, you better give it back when a come back home." I had told him.

"Don't worry I will." He had assure.

"Promise?"

"Promise."

Sora didn't know that my lucky charm had the shape of a star for a reason…

It was my form of a paopu fruit so we remain a part of each other's lives, forever.

"Don't ever forget, where ever you go, I'm always with you." I had said in the end, because we were connected and no one was ever going to break that…

~End of flash back~

Selphie sighed dreamily at the end of Kairi story and said, "Oh wow, I wish I had such a romantic back story like that one."

Kairi just giggle and said teasingly, "What about in kinder garden when you and Tidus share crayons."

Selphie frowned at her, "That wasn't romantic Kairi." She hiss.

Kairi just laugh and said, "But I thought you said sharing crayons is totally romantic when your in kinder garden."

Now Slephie was just glaring at her, "Not when he its them." She retorted and Kairi just blew right then and there. She laugh out loud and couldn't stop, which was bad, because they were still in class.

"Young miss, do you think this is funny?" Ask the teacher piste because he got interrupted.

Kairi tried to calm her laughter as best as she could, so she could apologize to the teacher.

"I'm sorry Professor. Marluxia, I wasn't laughing about the class. It was just something random." She tried as best as she could to sound as honest as possible, too. But it was hard not to laugh either when the teacher in the class looks like a total pansy.

"Hm. Well it better not happen again or it will be detention. Do you understand miss Kairi?" He just talks in such a way that Kairi didn't know how much she could take of this. She cover her mouth and nodded, "Yes Mam', I-I mean no Mam'." After those words left her mouth the whole class started first with a few chuckles, then laughs every were then when Kairi notice her mistake.

"Oh! I'm s-sorry S-Sir," She said after she notice she just called the male teacher a Mam' and not Sir. The teacher just arch a brow which didn't help with her image of him being a pansy, and she could swore she could see a vain pop out on his forehead as his eyebrow started to twitch. Professor Marluxia gave her detention after that incident and it was her first detention, ever.

"I'm sorry you got detention Kairi." Selphie had said feeling bad for her.

Kairi just gave her a force smiled and said, "Is no big deal Selphie, is was bound to happen sooner or later." Kairi try to sound fine, but the truth was that she was freaking out!

'My mom is sooo, going to kill me.' She thought, scared.

After detention…

"Well, miss Kairi, I hope you learn your lessoned today." Said Professor Marluxia, who had the honor of being her jailer this evening in detention.

'Yeah, never show your doubt about your teacher sex in class.' Kairi thought sarcastically, but she just said, "Yes Professor Marluxia."

After finally getting out of detention, Kairi had now the difficult task of thinking of a way to explain to her mother how she got detention, for in a way calling her teacher gay. Hey, her mother may be her best friend, but she was still a parent. She was so going to be grounded, she just knew it. Kairi was then snap out of her depressing thoughts when she herd noises coming from on of the close class rooms she was passing.

'Huh? That's odd. Its already late, nobody should be in the classrooms at this time.' She thought as she got closer to the close door were the noises were coming from.

"R-Roxas…" She heard a female voice moan.

Kairi blush crimson as she understood what those noises were. There was a couple making out in there! Kairi would have left them alone, but then she heard the male one whisper the females name.

"Namine," He said huskily. Kairi eyes went as wide as saucers and her mouth fell open, but nothing came out.

'No way,' She thought shaking her head as one of her hands cover her mouth, 'Namine…is cheating on Sora with, Roxas.'

O.O…

Hee-hee, cliffyXD

Hope you guys like it! Well this story was inspired by the song 'Why can't I' by Liz Phair and a cool video from Sokai a saw. Also this story was also inspired by xXPrincessMXx and her Fanfiction 'On Your Mind'.

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