I am finally posting this, thought I never would. But I'm still unsure how I feel about it... I'm hoping that if I post this up here maybe it will help motivate me some way? I don't know, let's see how it goes.

This was originally planned to be a one shot but I made the plot a little more complicated so now it's not ^^!

Original summary: According to Kanda it wasn't a date but a "casual outing". Lenalee didn't mind, she just wanted someone to hold her bags while she went shopping.

-This summary has been with me for months! I can't bear to give it up!

New Summary: It's official! The 'golden couple' is on a break. While Allen is lost in his thoughts, Lenalee is lost in the world. So she turns to the last person anyone would ever seek for consolation. Kanda Yu. But it's okay, because to her, he was always the first.

Warnings: It's AU, high school AU. So be warned for teenage drama? Maybe some other stuff later on. Probably. Rating might go up.

Anyways, hopefully you'll enjoy it. Reviews are appreciated. Suggestions are welcomed.

Disclaimer: Alas, I do not own the D. Gray Man.

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Prologue: Even Golden Couples Have Their Bad Days

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It was a typical Friday night, the two boys were chilling at McDonald's simply digging into the vast amounts of fast food. But what seemed like a night to enjoy a friend's company was actually a moment of prolonged seriousness.

"Yo, beansprout. Tell me something, why did'ya end things with Lenalee?"

"My name's not beansprout!" Allen snapped, "And Lavi, we have been through this, Lenalee and I are taking a break. Why are you so hung up about it?"

"Dude seriously? The 'golden couple' on break for a coupla months now. Kind of weird don'cha think?"

"Even golden couples have their bad days." Allen muttered lowly.

Lavi looked pensive but then smiled knowingly, "I think there's something heavy going on between the both of y-"

"There's nothing 'heavy' going on. It's just a break, get over yourself." Allen answered gruffly, grabbing a couple of fries and tossing them at Lavi's face.

The redhead easily blocked them with the back of his hand and sighed exasperatedly, "Just admit it. There's something holding you guys back!"

"ALRIGHT FINE! There is! Happy?"

"Aha, I knew it! Man Allen, you're losing it."

"…Yeah, whatever… " Allen continued to pick at his fries halfheartedly. "But it didn't have anything to do with Lenalee back then."

"I knew that." The stress on 'that' earned him a hardened look from Allen to which he rolled his eye, "I wanna know exactly what though. And what did you mean by 'it didn't have anything to with Lenalee back then'?"

Allen fidgeted a little, unsure whether to tell his nosy redhead friend anything or not. He sighed defeatedly, "Let's just say that someone messed with my head, okay?" Allen wasn't prepared to tell anyone the full truth. But he forgot that Lavi was a lot smarter than that.

"You began to like someone else, didn't you?" Lavi had a solemn smile, one that people rarely got to see and Allen suddenly felt stupid.

"Sort of, yeah. I don't how it happened, because Lenalee is perfect! But somehow... it just did."

"And? Does Lenalee know?"

"Well I didn't tell her that was the reason. I'm not sure if she figured it out. But if she hasn't then don't tell her!"

"Relax man, I understand."

Allen exhaled a breath of relief but tensed up again when Lavi asked, "So who is this mystery crush that stole you away from Lenalee?"

It was silent for a few moments before Allen answered, "I can't say."

"I see. What are you going to do?"

"Nothing." Allen said simply, "I mean, I'm not interested in my 'crush' anymore, so yeah." Lavi sent him a questioning look, so he added, "I'm serious! I'm telling the truth."

Lavi nodded, accepting Allen's answer and folded his arms over his chest as he observed the smaller teen sitting across from him. The white-haired boy tried to hide it but Lavi could tell that he was beginning to sulk, now that wouldn't do.

"Maa-ma, what's with that face Allen, hm? If you got no more crush, then what's holding you back from getting together with Lenalee." The redhead leaned on the table with a wide green eye and a goofy smile plastered on his face, "Actually can I take her out on a couple of dates first? 'Cause y'know she's a cutie and all ... Ha-ha! I see you grinning, there ya go!"

Indeed, a small grin was forming on Allen's face. "Lavi, your an idiot" he chuckled, shaking his head as went to grab of fries from the large side order.

Lavi snagged a fry from the younger one's fingers and plopped it into his mouth. "Takes one to know one my friend. But listen to me, yeah? Just try to get back with her why don't you?"

"N...nah, I can't."

"Huh? Why?"

"I think she's crushing on BaKanda."

"BaKanda? Oh! Ya mean Yu?

"Hmph. Pretty-boy bastard…"

Lavi awkwardly scratched the back of his ruffled head, well that did make things more complicated.

If Lenalee was into Kanda and Kanda was somehow into Lenalee as well, what could he do? They were also his best friends and he just wanted everyone to be happy.

"Do ya really believe that somethin's going on between'em?"

"You know how close Lenalee and Kanda have gotten ever since our split."

But could Lenalee really be forming a crush on Kanda? It's possible, he believed that. He also believed it could be because it was a habit of hers; every time she was upset by something major she would begin to hang around and sort of 'cling' onto Kanda. It was like a defense mechanism of hers or something.

Allen probably didn't see it that way because he hasn't known her for that long. Unlike Lavi who knew Lenalee longer than Allen with Kanda knowing her longer than the both of them.

"Now c'mon, that's how Lenalee has always been." The look he sent to the smaller boy was almost patronizing and he pointed out, "she goes to him whenever she's upset."

Allen glared at the window to the left of him and muttered, "What are you trying to say?"

"Not saying anything," Lavi raised his hands in a mock-surrender gesture, "but you have some unresolved issues. Maybe you could talk to her abou-"

"I can't!" Allen immediately interrupted and the sudden raise of his voice shot down anything Lavi had to say into silence. He lowered his gaze to his 5th, half-eaten McDouble and spoke so low that Lavi had to strain his ears to listen. "I know I screwed up but for some reason something is stopping me from talking to her. I'm just so confused so I don't want to give her false hope by pretending that everything is okay when it's not! I'm unsure of what I want and yet I can't help but feel a little bit afraid that Lenalee just might go for Kanda." Allen took a deep breath to try and calm himself down. Lavi was left stunned, he didn't know what he should say to console his friend but he had to try.

Lavi smiled softly, "I might not know what's really going on in your head right now but always remember that Lenalee truly cares for you and you'll always have a special place in her heart." Allen looked back up at the redhead to return the smile. Lavi's smile broadened as he carelessly waved his hand, "And look, Yu's no problem. He's terrible with girls."

Allen scowled, "Get real Lavi. I know that Bakanda has had his fair share with girls. Sure maybe not as much as you," Lavi looked affronted at that comment and Allen smirked a little, "but girls still like him even if he is an anti-social prick." Allen huffed and slumped back into his seat. He chucked another fry at Lavi and giggled when it Lavi on the nose.

Lavi glared as he picked the fry off his lap but spared him a sympathetic look, he knew Allen had a point.

Yu Kanda was a strange guy. Infamous for his foul temper and being distant from others, people always feared him but for some odd reason he was never left out of any social group. It might've been because he had this strange presence that could set up the mood no matter what he did. As Lavi liked to say, 'he could liven up a party just by showing up and brooding by the booze'.

Lavi sent a secret apology to the sprout because it was technically his fault that Kanda achieved that sort of status in the first place.

Allen leaned over the table a little, sending Lavi a pointed look, "Lavi, do you even who Kanda is? Are we talking about the same guy here?"

The redhead placed his hands behind his head and stared blankly up at the ceiling of the restaurant before grinning wide and said, "Yup."

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Impromptu Date

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If I was given time to think about it, Kanda really wasn't the kind of person anyone would want to have as a friend.

He had an emotional range of a rock and talking to him sometimes was like trying to talk to a wall; actually I'm sure talking to a wall is easier, at least a wall can't walk away from you. He had a serious attitude with almost everyone, hurting others, emotionally. Oh, he also had a penchant to get violent at times too, physically abusing his friends like Lavi and getting into fights with nice people like Allen.

So it's kind of funny how Kanda became one of my closest friends.

Maybe it's because he was the kind of guy who always stood patient with my sniveling and crying, always hearing out my worries.

The kind of guy who would carry all of my books (plus his!) to his car after school. The kind of guy who would risk being caught up in my older brother's embarrassing overprotective rampages by letting me chill out at his place whenever I felt upset and needed to hide away from other people. The kind of guy who always somehow made me feel better in his weird Kanda-will-insult-you-but-make-you-feel-better kind of way.

Don't get me wrong though, it did hurt a little whenever he didn't return my text messages or when he skipped out on plans we made.

Still... I can't help but admire his frankness.

Anyone feel bad for Allen? I do, the poor baby. And Lavi is such a sweetheart.

The 2nd part was Lenalee's POV and that's how most of the story will be told in (I think?).

Should I continue with this? *sigh* Bear with me.

Anyways, take care.