Heavily inspired by Sailor Moon R, episode 70. I've never tried my hand at writing something like this before, so I'm hoping for a little feedback to help me improve. Hope you like it ^_^
Sailor Moon belongs to Takeuchi Naoko-sensei
(Koan's POV)
I still can't believe you defended me. Me. A member of the Dark Moon faction, who tried over and over to destroy Crystal Tokyo before it formed. Who tried to kill the one you call "Chibiusa" so many times. And I still can't believe how different things have become. When Master Rubeus sent me to the Hikawa Shrine that day, I had no idea that the battle we had would be our last.
Though sometimes, the memories still haunt me... everything I had done for the Dark Moon clan, everything I had sacrificed for what I thought was a noble purpose... everything I had given up for a man who had no love for me in return, who used and abused my elder sisters and I... Sometimes it even gets to the point where I can't tell what my reality is, a human cosmetic saleswoman or a vicious invader sent to bring the future to its knees, through any means possible...
You're lucky, you know. You have Yuuichiro by your side. Even if he annoys you, you're still luckier than I. He genuinely loves you. I'm jealous of how well you two get along. Sometimes... sometimes when I walk around peddling the make-up I carry in my suitcase, I come across couples so deeply in love, and I find myself wishing for the days when I had no idea I was just being used. Everything comes rushing back to me, no matter how I try to force it back and move forward like you wanted me to, and it's all I can do not to cry.
The battle keeps replaying in my head. It's all still so vivid, like it happened only yesterday. I still feel the impact of Sailor Venus with her chain, ripping the space-time bomb out of my hands. I still tingle at the crackling of Sailor Jupiter's thunder attack destroying it from a safe distance. I still hear Sailor Mercury's defiant yell of "You've got nowhere left to go!" I still remember the anguish I felt, the way I was screaming. "It's all your fault! I've lost everything! All because of you!"
And then your gentle whispers come floating through my mind as you kneel over me, protecting me from your friends... "You haven't lost everything, Koan. You still have yourself. If you admit to yourself you made a mistake, you can move on and slowly put things back together piece by piece..."
You're definitely a strange one, Sailor Mars. Convincing Sailor Moon to change me like that with the Silver Crystal. But you were right about what it meant to love someone. You showed me the truth. The light from the Silver Crystal felt so warm and welcoming, I almost cried from the sheer joy if it all.
It was because of you damn Sailor Scouts that I lost everything. And it was because of you Sailor Scouts that I gained everything back. I'm so much happier now than I ever was with Master Rubeus. Funny, a few short weeks ago, I would have considered that a blasphemy. It's amazing how fast a person's life can change.
Even so, I was your enemy. My sisters and I attacked you again and again and again and yet... yet when Sailor Jupiter tried to attack me, you took the hit in my stead.
So, I'm grateful to you. And I'll continue to be grateful, to you and the rest of your team, for the kindness I never deserved.