What Hurts The Most

By: esmtz

Kyle had been standing in the rain for what seemed like hours. He was at a grave sight and was looking down at a specific tombstone with tears in his eyes.

"You fucking asshole…it's already been 5 years and we still can't find you….I can't find you…" Kyle swallowed trying to keep himself from breaking down; his whole body was shaking and shivering from the cold.

Kyle continued to look at the tombstone and he suddenly felt angry.

"God, Cartman…" Kyle said quietly as the tears fell from his face, "Why do you make me feel this way you fucking fatass?!"

There was nothing but the noise of the rain. Kyle started to cry as he fell to his knees and put his head in his hands.

"What hurts the most, Cartman, is that I don't even know what happened to you…" Kyle sobbed as he looked back at Cartman's tomb, "How am I supposed to know if you're still alive or not?"

Unbeknownst to Kyle, Butters had seen that Kyle had gone to visit Cartman's grave and had followed him. He was hiding behind a tree so that Kyle didn't notice him. Butters was looking really nervous as he watched Kyle.

"Aw hamburgers how am I supposed to tell Kyle the truth?" Butters asked quietly to himself.

Flashback:

"Butters, get your coat. We gotta go." Cartman told him wearing clothes that looked like he was going mountain climbing.

"Go where?" Butters asked confused.

"You're going to help me freeze myself."

"Ok." Butters said before he went to get his coat.

Flashback End:

Butters took a deep breath and hesitantly went towards Kyle.

"Hey there, Kyle. What are you doing out here in the rain? You could catch a cold." Butters said.

Kyle jumped slightly completely surprised to find that someone else was there with him. Kyle quickly wiped away the tears on his face (not that it mattered with the rain) and looked up at Butters.

"Oh hey, Butters, when did you get here?" Kyle asked.

"A few minutes ago…" Butters lied still looking nervous, "how long do you plan on being out here?"

Kyle sighed as he stood up and looked at Butters.

"I was actually going to leave now…" Kyle said, "I'm kinda surprised you're here, Butters."

"Well…Eric is my friend too…so I wanted to pay him a visit." Butters said trying hard to not make it sound like Cartman was dead.

About a month after Cartman disappeared, his mother decided to put up a tombstone for him (even though they never found his body) and then left town. Butters had never told anyone about what really happened to Cartman and wasn't planning on telling anyone especially after seeing Kyle, of all the kids Cartman hung out with, freak out the moment that the news had gotten to him. They were 14 now and Butters still felt guilty about Cartman and was feeling really hesitant about if he should tell Kyle or not.

'They might as well accuse me of killing him in the first place…' Butters thought to himself.

"You ok?" Kyle asked.

Butters jumped slightly startled.

"Sorry, Kyle. I was just thinking about something."

"What's that?"

"Uh…"

Suddenly they heard a voice calling out to them.

"There he is! Kyle, what are you doing out here? I've been calling your house, but no one was answering." Stan frowned as he and Kenny walked up to him and Butters.

Kyle sighed.

"Sorry, dude. My parents are out of town right now and I have to look after Ike, but he's asleep so I just came to visit…" Kyle looked back at the tombstone.

"Don't worry about it. Kenny and I were just wondering if you wanted to come and hang out with us at my place since it's really raining out here." Stan said looking at his friend worried.

Kyle didn't say anything for a few seconds. He turned to look at Stan and nodded.

"Yeah…ok…"

Butters watched as Stan, Kyle, and Kenny left and then he too went back home not even wanting to look at the tombstone. He knew that Kyle had been searching everywhere for Cartman, dragging Stan and Kenny everywhere he went even if it was out of town.

"Butters, is that you? Get upstairs now mister! You are grounded for a week for not taking your coat with you or even asking your mother or I if you could even go outside!" Butter's dad yelled at him.

"Yes, sir." Butters went to his room, closed the door, and went to lie on his bed knowing that he wasn't going to get any sleep at all tonight.

Author's note: Ok this story is gonna be a one sided KylexCartman and its gonna be a death fic. I'll try to keep it going as long as I can, but I already know that it's going to be short. I'm just hoping this one will last more than 5 chapters. I want to thank you all who voted on my new story. This one got 4 out of 9 votes, The Stan wanting to kill Cartman got three and the last two only got 1. I'm hoping to put in some more flashbacks in this story. I'll update soon. I also hope this story is as good as when I first came up with the idea or better. Also this story was inspired from watching the go god go episodes in season 10.