Welcome to my post finale rage fic! It's really short, but I think it makes some valid points...Addison's POV
The Unanswered Question.
I hate unanswered questions. I love to be---no, NEED to be in the know. So, I ask questions, they get answered and I begin to understand. It's simple really. Until people do things that don't have an answer. Like the question that's been eating away at my skull. Why did Derek and Meredith have sex?
Well, I don't know why. I don't know why Derek thought that it was ok to cheat on me because it's not. I don't know why Meredith didn't scream and shout and refuse to be the dirty mistress again. I don't know why we were working on our marriage this WHOLE year, just for Derek to have an affair.
And I hate him for it. It's only natural. HE was the one who picked me. HE claimed he was trying and HE was the one who was DEVESTATED when he found me in bed with Mark. Does he think that Idon't feel that kind of pain? Does he think I'm immune to this? I'm a person just like he is. And I loved him. Really loved him, just like he did once upon a time. And I realize Meredith was the one who made me go away for him. Meredith made him forget. But really, she was just my placeholder. A convient fuck buddy until I showed up and made him admit the pain he's been through and the anger he felt towards me. He's not McDreamy. He's a coward. He can't evensupport his own wife, after she makes the worse decision of her life. What happened to death do us part?
Meredith is getting scolded as well. SHE ALWAYS DOES THIS. When she's weak and vulnerable, she sleeps with inappropriate men. By now, especially since the last time it waswith George, she should realize that sex is not going to put back the pieces of her life. She can't expect to have men always there for her. And she can't keep doing this to herself. She's a smart girl, way too smart to use sex as an outlet. And it never works. Nothing gets magically put back together again because she's gotten intimatewith someone. If anything it just gets worse. I used to be upset with Meredith for this, but I think now, I just pity her. Because she needs the closeness of having sex to reassure her.
And now as it all comes together, I realize. It was never an unanswered question.
This started out as one of my ownjournal entries and blossomed. I really love it and I hope you did too.
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