Piano Keys

by Feelin SPAZTIC

Whenever I was lonely, I got on my piano and played. All black keys? I was sad or angry. All white? I might have been happy or exited. And when I played both, the knives and bullets came out. Rated T for some language, violence, suicidal thoughts...

Piano Keys

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Prologue

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Y'know, for the longest time, I thought my reputation meant something. Like maybe if I had pretended to be some girl who liked pretty dresses and like attention, maybe, just maybe I'd fall in love. I thought that one thing for 5 years in a row. Until high school. And every time I did, a frown would appear. But I kept at it. Then, right before I left my junior high for the last time, all those pretty thoughts went down the drain.

Being pretty got me very popular with the whores and with the players. I had the rep of the queen bee's sidekick. Karin and her group had loved me. Helped me dress and do my makeup, and all that other bull. She even landed me a hot boyfriend. Sai? He was great.

Until he raped me.

That night changed everything. I went home and told nobody what had happened. I locked myself in my room and did nothing but sit on my floor for 2 weeks. I was hungry, thristy, tired and dirty. It was then when I swore to myself I was gonna be myself. It was then I wrote the poems of my life.

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Drifting away from the human race,

Feeding myself to the demons that lie below,

Falling through the eternal space,

And withering in the darkness.

Nothing will ever change this feeling,

The wrath I put upon you,

It will burn your soul to the core.

Then through you in the depths of Hell.

Scream out it God,

Scream out to the Earth,

Scream out to everyone,

Just don't scream out to me.

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Deep dug holes in the water,

Losing air by the seconds,

I won't change for you anymore,

Just drift until I die.

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Finding keys to natures treasure,

Is gonna take much more than searching.

You have to look deep inside of yourself,

Then drop.

It's funny because,

You can't do it.

Your scared to die,

You can't fight it.

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After that I came out of my room. But it was then I realized, I was alone.

My parents had left me there to die. They left because they hated me. When I locked myself up, it gave them an excuse to get out. It was all they needed. A little push. They took almost everything with them. They only left everything in my room…

And the piano.

I sat down and looked at the black and white keys. I had never been taught how to play. I lightly touched one of the white keys. It made a deliciously dark sound. A sinister little grin cam upon my face. I hit a black one and a dark tone sounded in the room. Suddenly, music notes and words flew into my head. My hands just automatically started to play.

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Finding a dark hole to crawl through,

Things just can't get wooooorse.

Soft lullabies play in my head,

The tinkling of bells is heard all around,

And the light sound of drums start to plaaaaaaaay.

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I stopped. How did I know how to play? I stepped away from the piano. What were these voices in my head? What was happening to me?

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Just a prologue. Hope you liked it okay.