A/N: So when I was watching the episode "The Premiere," the part where Nat was singing "Fire" just broke my heart. I wanted to delve into what Nat and Rosalina were thinking in that scene and also 're-write' the episode so there are more Natalina moments. :) This story will be from Rosalina's point of view, but I will probably write the story from Nat's point of view in the future.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Naked Brothers Band.

Rosalina's POV

I should be really happy to have my spot back in the band, but I'm not. I am thankful to be back. But nothing is the same as it used to be.

I pretended not be affected by it, but that "ran off on a cruise and kissed every French guy she saw" comment on the news created some fresh wounds. Of course we all know that's not what really happened, but it just served to remind me about how badly I messed up. It doesn't matter whether it was one French guy or every French guy. I broke Nat's heart. And I hate myself every day for it.

Nat tried to defend me; I have no idea why. He was the one who was hurt the most. Even I couldn't defend myself. I tried to apologize a thousand times, but I eventually realized that no amount of apologies could ever erase what had happened.

Every day, I see Nat, Kristina, Thomas, David, Qaasim, Alex, and Cooper hanging out as a band. Sometimes they're kicking a ball back and forth. Sometimes they're chilling and watching movies. Sometimes they're just sitting back and talking. There's one thing that happens every time. I just can't bring myself to join them. I can see they're having a good time without me.

They may have let me back in the band, but it's clear that Kristina has taken my previous spot in the band. She is a great bass player, she gets along with the other band members, and Nat has an obvious crush on her. I am glad that Nat has found someone else who will hopefully never make the terrible mistake I did. But it hurts so badly because I don't think I will ever love someone the way I love him.

Today, I'm sitting in the rehearsal studio, just thinking, when suddenly I hear Nat playing the piano and singing downstairs. I know it's a bad idea, but I decide to go listen to his song anyway. I step quietly into the room where I heard the music coming from and my stomach knots up when I hear his song. I don't even think he notices I am here.

"How could you leave the beautiful gold
Why did you not realize that it would be gone

You played with fire and you got burned
You played with fire and you got burned
You played with fire and you got burned"

When the song is over, I leave. Partially because I just can't handle that look he has in his eyes and partially because I can barely hold back my tears.

Gone are the days of "Rosalina," "Beautiful Eyes," "Girl of My Dreams," "Your Smile," and all the other amazing songs he has written about me. He is still writing songs that correlate with his life and consequently me, but now they are just reminders of my mistake.

This is the worst kind of sadness. I have no one to blame but myself. I let Nat down. I let the other band members down. I let myself down. And I don't know how much longer I can take this feeling of regret.

It has been a few days since I heard Nat's new song and I am sitting on the couch in the band rehearsal room. Alone. I'm just letting my regret consume me when an unexpected person shows up.

"Hey, can I sit?" Kristina asks.

"Sure," I shrug, moving slightly to give her more room.

Kristina sits down and after a moment, she explains, "I'm here to listen if you want to talk."

I'm so confused that all I can think to say is, "Why?"

"Well you're one of my band members and I can tell you're hurting and I want to help."

"There's not really anything to talk about," I say honestly, "I can't go back and change what I did and that's all there is to it. I just need to accept that somehow."

"Rosalina, I'm not saying what you did was right, but everyone makes mistakes," she says to me and even though this is the first real conversation I've had with Kristina, she sounds so genuine.

"Maybe so, but sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have come back. Don't get me wrong, I love this band with all my heart… but no one looks at me the same anymore. I feel like I'm just causing everyone pain."

"I admit, when they were trying to decide whether to keep me or bring you back, I felt like the decision was obvious that they should keep me. But now that I've been a part of this band for a few weeks, I can tell they all still care a lot about you, especially Nat." That last part surprises me the most. How can Nat still care about me?

"No, I don't think so," I shake my head. "Nat couldn't possibly still care about me after what I put him through."

"I'm serious," she argues, "Every day, they all ask each other if anyone knows where you are or what you're up to."

"That doesn't mean anything." I'm not quite sure why I'm being so stubborn about this.

"Rosalina, I know it may be hard for you to believe, but they can all tell how sorry you feel and they all just want to forgive you and move on. Really, they talk about this all the time. It's been getting annoying lately," she laughs a little to lighten the mood.

I muster a slight smile, but that's all I can manage right now.

"You should probably know that I don't think Nat will ever stop loving you," she says, but that just doesn't make sense to me.

"He already has. I've seen the band hanging out and I can tell Nat likes you now."

"What? That's crazy!" Kristina's forehead wrinkles, "We're just good friends."

After a few seconds, she adds, "Trust me, you're the only girl he will ever notice. He still writes songs about you. Whenever he looks at you, he has this look that he's determined to win you back someday. And whenever he talks about you, there's longing in his voice. Just ask any of the other band members. They'll tell you the same thing."

"Thanks Kristina," I say. I still doubt that's true, but I'll just accept it for now.

"So what do you say?" she asks, "Do you want to come ice skating with us?

I smile and answer, "Sure. Just let me grab my bag."

I hope you liked the first chapter. :) There will be more to come shortly.