This is a poem written for a fic, called Falling Into You.
I'm learning how to let go.
Let go of the things that hurt me.
The things that still haunt me.
But...theres things I cant let go.
The what if's.
The dreams I still have of you.
I want to reach out so bad.
But how do I reach out without hurting you?
Without hurting the life I have now.
I've moved on.
I've grown since my last mistake.
But yet...something always pulls me back.
The other night…
I dreamed of you.
I dreamed of you and what could've been…
And now here I am…
Writing this.
So confused.
Scared.
I want to reach out.
I want to explain.
But I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
Especially you after I've hurt you so many damn times.
Maybe writing this is a mistake.
I shouldn't be.
I shouldn't be trying to send you a message.
I'm sorry if it hurts, if this brings you too much pain.
I want to explain.
I want to let go of all this.
Of all these what if's
Of feeling like I made a mistake
A wrong decision
I guess...I'm trying to say I'm sorry.
For everything.
The ball is in your park now.