Please Don't Flame Me!This is my first fic on I have one on fiction called a time of need. By Lilly-emily-Alice-amyiyn. Please read!
I opened and closed my mouth in shock as I stared at the reflection in the mirror. A month before, if I stood here looking at myself I would break down and cry, but now I found myself smiling. I didn't feel my usual emptiness, but I felt whole again. My image in the mirror blushed and happiness flowed through my veins.
I guess my happiness was because of my friend, Jacob black. He brought life back into me and he also brought love again. Somehow thought him healing my wounded self, I had found myself falling head over heels in love with him. He showed me kindness compassion, and warmth. Edward was always cold and stiff. He wouldn't touch me, hug me, or even kiss me. It was too dangerous but I knew the truth. He was afraid to get close to anyone, even the one he used to claim to love.
But Jacob, he was fun and warm, he would hug me, attempt to hold my hand and goof off with me. He made me feel safe and I loved everything about him. Every time I bleed I would quickly run out and cover it hoping to stop the blood, and yet he always came running after me, while I was apologizing he would grab my wound and place a bandaged on it gently and say, "Don't apologies for bleeding!"
Then it happened. We no longer saw each other; he would never call me or come over. Billy said he had mono, but something in his voice said different. I could feel my heart breaking even more each day he avoided me. It killed Charlie to see me like this, my nightmares came back and I knew Charlie was tired; I was such a burden to everyone. How I longed for Jacob to come and stop the pain and nightmares...which leaves me here,
Facing a shirtless Jacob
Rain caked my hair and I stood staring at shirtless Jacob. "You're supposed to me sick! If you're too sick to visit me or even pick up the phone then why are you out in the rain!" I yelled at him. He stood there like a statue. "Jacob!" "Go away." My heart stopped. "W-What do y-you mean?" I asked. "Go running back to your filthy bloodsuckers." My eyes widened and I looked down at my feet. "I don't know what you're talking about." I said shakily. "But you do! Don't lie to me!" my head snapped up at his harsh tone, and tears slipped slowly out of my eyes. "What the hell Jacob! What's the matter with you!" his eyes lowered to a glare and he cluched his fists at his side. "I…..I'm not ….Good….Anymore….I used to be…good…a good kid…but not anymore." I stared up at him. What do you mean! You're the kindest person I know! You're loving and helpful! You care for people and help them! Don't tell me your not good!" we both heard the cracking in the woods and looked over to see Sam and his gang. Jacob turned back to me and I instantly knew. "Sam….Sam got to you…didn't he?" He let out a low growl and his fist clutched tightly again.
"Sams trying to help me" more unnoticed tears streamed down my face. "I can't tell you what's going on but try to remember the ...the...stuff I told you at the beach about the quilliets." I looked up at him. "Now get out of here and never come back, or you will…get hurt." He promised. I took a step back. "I can't believe…I thought I….I lov….how could I fall for……ah you!" I screamed. My heart was breaking and I let out a small sob. "Fine I won't be a bother to you anymore Jacob…I will forget you and ignore all my feelings….goodbye." I said before running to my truck and quickly starting it. I drove away and sobbed on the way. Soon my vision was getting blurry and I had to pull over. "Why Jacob why?" I said before I closed my eyes for what I wished was forever…but my luck was on the line between good and bad.
I don't know…should I finish what I have written in this Purdy piece of paper I have in my hand? I need at least 2 reviews if I'm lucky before I post. Thank yall again!
T.R Nya~Jaky!