This story is about Elizabeth's struggles after the death of Mark. Hope you enjoy!! Read and Review PLEASE!!!
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I never thought that I'd feel this much anger all at once. Never in my entire life did I expect the only person I've ever loved to leave me....alone. Although I have a beautiful daughter, Ella, a wonderful job and a great group of friends, I just can't seem to accept the fact that he's gone, forever. It's tough to deal with my own troubles, and having to take care of Ella without any help is even more of a burden on me. The biggest problem with this whole situation is undoubtedly Mark's daughter, Rachel. She is doing drugs, drinking and having sex behind my back, and quite frankly, I can't take much more of it. During dinner, tonight, I'm going to tell Rachel that I would appreciate it if she moved back with her mother. She'd probably do much better there. Maybe she'll keep herself out of trouble, but I doubt that. It should be Jen's job to deal with her, not mine. Even though she is the daughter of my late husband, it makes me more and more disheartened to see her life going in the trash everyday. I hope that she straightens out soon. I am so confused about everything now. Should I continue working, or should I devote my time entirely to Ella? But, I can't do that, because I need to support us, with Mark not here anymore. There's a dark cloud over me...I can feel it all the time. Every second of the day, I know that something bad will happen to me. It's becoming regular, and I'm terrified of what will happen. Doug and Carol left yesterday with Tess and Kate to go back to Seattle. They came for the services. Doug and Carol are great people, and I wish they lived closer so we could go out and socialize often, but the distance makes it almost impossible. What will baby Ella do without a daddy? Who will walk her down the aisle when she gets married? Her father will miss everything of importance in her life! He won't be here for the birth of her children, and that is something every person looks forward to, having their father hold their children. It's as if the memories of such events are more meaningful than anything else.
Psychologist: I'm sorry, Elizabeth, but I've been paged for an emergency with one of my patients. We'll have to meet some other time.
Elizabeth: Is there time for just one more important detail?
Psychologist: Sure, as long as it's not too long.
Elizabeth: Thank you...I found out yesterday that....that I'm expecting a baby. How will I ever manage two young children all on my own? How will I ever be able to support them on my salary? What will happen to us? Oh Lord, how will we ever get by?
Psychologist: All you have to do is sit down and think about all of the things that make you apprehensive. Think through each and every one of them and decide wether or not they are of true importance, or if they are just obstacles that you'll definitely be able to overcome. I think that you are completely in control of your whole body and mind, all you have to do is have someone to guide you through things, and that's what I'm here for. Trust me, with a few more sessions, you'll be the Elizabeth that everyone once new...maybe even a more friendly, delightful Elizabeth, with an interesting past and a promising future. Just have faith in yourself and you'll get by. Faith will help you get by.