a/n sorry

Chapter 3

I felt hollow. The worst thing I could have imagined happened. Percy died.

Percy was the bravest person I ever knew. He's the love of my life. When Chiron IM'd me and told me Percy was dying I was in Florida visiting my dad's parents. I got on the first plane to New York, ran off, and got in the first cab I saw. I got to camp about 20 minutes before he died. His only weak spot had been just slightly grazed by a knife with poison in the tip. The same kind of knife I protected him from during the war. He was feverish and a little out of it but he was still my Percy. I sat on the edge of his bed and he pulled me to lie down against his chest, I could feel his heart beating. For someone who was supposedly dying it was strong. He told me he loved me and I felt his heart stop but I could still feel his arms around me.

I'm not ashamed to admit that I spent a majority of my time after that sitting on the floor of my cabin wearing his hoodie or one of his old camp shirts. I never thought our relationship would end the way it did. The gods promised to make us immortal after we got married. I thought we would be together forever but even the gods can't bring back the dead. I never thought we would have a last kiss.

One of my favorite memories with him is of our graduation party a few years ago. We'd just finished our senior year at Goode where his stepfather worked. To celebrate his parents let us throw a party for our friends at Montauk. Everyone there was either a demigod or knew about the gods so Percy was showing off his ability to manipulate water again. I just laughed at him and rolled my eyes. The music changed to a slow song so he pulled me in and tried to get me to dance. I'm not a good dancer (neither was he) and I don't like to but I did because I love him.

I love how he would nervously shake my dad's hand whenever they see each other, the way he walks...er...walked with his hands pushed deep into his pockets unless he was holding mine, and the way he kissed me when I was in the middle of a conversation or to shut me up when I talked about architecture. I thought it was annoying at the time but now I don't go a day without wishing he was here to do it again.

Now instead of watching how calm and innocent he looks when he's asleep I just go through picture albums filled with our adventures and it's like watching his life go by. After this summer I'm leaving camp, it's too painful to be here. There are so many things that remind me of him here. I don't know how many of the campers I'll stay in touch with but I know Nico will keep up with me because he knows how much I'll want to know how Percy is.

I know he's in Elysium because he was the greatest hero ever. I'm sure the "sun" is shining and it's beautiful where he is. I like to think that he's thinking about me and everyone else here and wishing he hadn't had to leave us behind. He was and will always be the love of my life. I'll never forget him. I could feel the tears running freely down my cheeks.

I'd talked to Chiron about my secret. When it was time to perform his funeral ceremony (Greek style) no one argued that I would be the one to set the pyre on fire. How could they? I came dressed like Taylor but without the contacts. When everyone looked at me it seemed to click in their minds that she was really me.

"I-I wrote this for Percy. I wrote almost all of my songs about him" I managed to stammer.

I still remember the look on your face

Lit through the darkness at 1:58

The words that you whispered

For just us to know

Told me you loved me

So why did you go away?

Away

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement

I ran off the plane

That July 9th

The beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is that

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember

The swing of your step

The life of the party, you're showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I'm not much for dancing

But for you I did

Because I love your handshake, meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day when I don't miss those rude interruptions

But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is that

I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe

And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines

And it's a beautiful day

And something reminds you

You wish you had stayed

You can plan for a change in weather and time

But I never planned on you changing your mind

So I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is that

I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

Just like our last kiss

Forever the name on my lips

Forever the name on my lips

Just like our last

I could see the tears in everyone's eyes. Even Clarisse's eyes were wet. Everyone loved Percy. He befriended and was nice to everyone. He was our leader. I knew I was close to bawling, I already had tears streaming down my face.

I slowly walked over to Percy, covered in a sea green shroud embroidered with gold tridents. I placed a drachma on each eye and set his pyre on fire.

Goodbye Percy

A/n sorry I killed Percy! This song also made me feel like someone died so…yeah. I'll be posting two more chapters before I end this story.