A/N This story starts the morning she was going to jump off of the cliff in New Moon.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, New Moon, or the characters. It's all Stephenie Meyer's.

Chapter 1 Good Clean Fun

BPOV

"Aw Jake, really?"

I just pulled up to Jacob's house with my extra clothes, ready to jump off the tallest cliff I could find, or at least the tallest he would let me. We were standing in the rain, as I refused to go inside expecting to be leaving for the cliffs as soon as I got there.

"Sorry, Bella. Have you seen the sky today? Bad weather's coming, worse than usual. The water'll be too choppy to go near."

My eyebrows pulled together in thought. I'd been so wrapped up in getting another message from him that I barely remembered driving here. I looked up, getting my face hit with raindrops. The skies were it's usually drab gray, but today it look darker and somewhat gloomier than usually. I didn't care. I had to jump today. I had to do something drastic. I had to hear his voice. It's been too long since I heard that perfect sound. We could still jump. Jake knew how to swim… He wouldn't let anything happen to me.

"Come on. You can swim better than anyone I know. You practically live on the beach. And you're so strong." I said as I put my hands on his huge biceps, attempting to persuade him with my feminine charm, or lack thereof. Maybe he would take pity on me and go with it. "I trust you to keep my head above water." In more way than one… Without him I don't know where I would be right now. I would probably still be an emotionless mess if I hadn't found those bikes and brought us together. Although I would've probably found another excuse. I always liked spending time with him, even as a little girl.

He laughed. "I'm not going to let you. Flattery will get you everywhere, just not in dangerous water. Even if I was right next to you the whole time I know you would get yourself in the hospital again."

"Hey!" I said rather loudly, offended that he would think I would get myself hurt. No matter what the situation.

He put his hands up. "I'm not saying no to cliff diving, just no for today."

I sighed, knowing he wasn't going to back down. "Then what do you want to do?"

"Oh sweet Bella, never ask a guy that." He looked at me with a devilish smirk on his perfect face.

I glared back at my determined friend. Holy crow this boy never gives up. I hope he never does. I shook my head, getting that ridiculous thought to disappear. I was so lonely I was beyond delusional now. I smacked him, knowing I wouldn't do any damage to his strong body but I tried anyway. Being defenseless was starting to get more than annoying, especially with Victoria still around.

My face dropped, thinking about my certain demise. She was back and I knew that nothing, absolutely nothing would stop her from finding me.

Thankfully, he cut off my thoughts. "Are you ok?" he asked while putting a hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him, his faced etched with worry.

"Yeah, yeah. My mind wanders sometimes, well constantly. It's just with Victoria coming back…" I tried to sound nonchalant, but failed.

He barked out a laugh. "Do you know how many wolves you got on your side? I'd like to see that leech try to get past us." He said as he put his arm around my shoulders. I rolled my eyes, hoping when something happens, his cockiness wouldn't get him hurt. "Now can we get out of the rain? Or do you still want to rebel out here against the weather?" He said, walking away. "Because I'm going with or without you."

I stayed where I was, trying to catch his bluff. Just as I thought, he barely got ten feet away before he playfully growled and turned around. "What is it this time, Bella?"

"I still want to jump."

He walked back towards me and grabbed my hand as he dragged me to his shed. "We can still have fun today, and not get killed in the process. I know, it's probably a strange concept for you."

Maybe he was right. It's not like I wanted to hurt myself. "Fine." I said giving in.

"Now…" I said slowly as I sat down on my sad looking chair, making sure I phrased everything correctly, "what good clean fun can we participate in?" I grinned innocently at him.

He stifled a laugh and tried to stay serious, sitting next to me. "Well, I think all my ideas are out the window. Oh, we could go to my bedroom and…" I slapped him, again. He shrugged. "Alright, I got nothing."

"Well I guess I'll be going." I joked, standing up. I took one step forward before I felt my frozen hand warm up immensely as Jacob grabbed my hand and pulled me on his lap.

"You're not leaving me that easily." He wrapped his arms around my tiny frame. I was about to push him away when I realized just how cold I was. Even with my heavy jacket, somehow I was still soaked. Maybe I should have made my demands out of the rain. "You're shivering," he stated as he pulled me tighter to his body, rubbing my arm with his hands.

"You're like my own personal heater." I said, already warming up more than I thought possible in such a short time. I knew I shouldn't be doing this, but he was so warm…

He grinned down at me. "Thank you?"

"But I… I'm not sure if this is considered good clean fun."

"Really? Well as long as we're…"

"Jacob!" Billy yelled from the house. I jumped and pushed myself out his arms too quickly. I almost fell, but luckily Jacob caught me and steadied me. "Sam's on the phone."

"Damn it. Are you ok?" He asked, looking down at me.

"Yeah."

"I'll be back."

"…ok." I said, even though he was already in the house.

I stood in the same spot, still not moving. Why am I doing this to him? I really need to stop leading him on. I knew in the back of my mind that I shouldn't sit on his lap. We're just friends, and friends don't do that. He wouldn't be doing it with Quil. I giggled at the mental picture.

"What's so funny?" I jumped as he approached me from the house.

"No noth… I was… Nothing." Calm down. "Wh-what did Sam want?"

He gave me a strange look. "They found a new trail deep in the woods. We're all going over there to see if it leads anywhere."

"Oh. Ok. Just… just be careful ok?" I was always nervous for him. I hated that they were putting themselves in danger for me. If anything happened to him…

"You worry to much Bella." He kissed me on the forehead. "I'll see you later?"

I shook my head. "Yeah. Ok… I'll be at the beach."

He smiled at me and then ran into the woods.

I poked my head in the back door. "Hey, Billy. I'll be at the beach today."

"Are you sure? The weather's getting worse."

"Yeah I know. I can tolerate the rain. Bye." I said shutting the door.

I slowly walked to my car in a daze, a little disappointed that Jake had to leave. I thought we would spend the whole day together. If he never got that call I'm not sure what he would have attempted to do. The next time he does something, I knew I would have to remind him how nothing can happen between us. But I knew I would avoid that conversation. The last thing I ever want to do is to hurt him.

I wrapped my arm around my stomach as I drove to the beach. As I felt my wounds open more, I knew I couldn't completely blame him. Being with him made my pain almost bearable.