I do NOT own Teen Titans.
Forgive Me.
Have you ever felt a heart break?
I have.
Did you ever fear the next day?
Afraid the light will bring death to you?
Do you know what tears feel like,
Ones that really count, ones that you make
After looking back on your life?
Have you ever woken up with tear puddles at your face?
I have.
You probably don't know what it feels like to lose control.
To have no say in your life as it plays out in front of you...
Or you did, but you didn't know.
I'll tell you how it feels.
It feels like rain on a winters night.
Piercing into your skin with a harsh impact.
It feels like a knife thrusting it's edge into your throat.
It hurts like an open wound that never heals.
Your eyes always burn from crying
Your mind is always spinning from memory.
Not a day goes by when you don't think back in time.
Not a night goes by when you don't look up at the sky,
And wonder if anyone misses who you used to be.
Every minute you look over your shoulder...
Fearing who may be behind you.
I tell you all this from experience.
One I still feel... one that is still a living curse.
The wind is howling right now, it is screaming against my window.
But it doesn't make me turn around,
My fingers just work to write these words.
In those short sentences, I spilled out my life.
All up to now... on this cold night as I huddle on my bed.
Even now memories are haunting me.
Words scream at me...
Faces scorn at me.
I just glanced over at my night stand (if it can be called that).
Where a bottle is standing calmly. As if it didn't hold the poisonous mixture.
What I did minutes ago was selfish I know. It may hurt others...
But that will be nothing new to me.
And I can't live like this anymore.
The blotted splats of tear drops on this page,
Confirm the pain I feel.
I am going to write these last words...
And mean them with all my heart.
Whoever you are... whoever is reading this...
I ask one last request, those I don't deserve it.
I'm sorry... everyone... I am. And if you can find it within yourselves to...
Please...
Forgive me.
-Tara (AKA 'Terra') Markov.
Uhg, I know I need to stop with all these depressing fics that kill Terra off (You'd never guess I was a Terra fan xD), but I felt like writing a sad one-shot tonight. My kitten was run over by a car this mourning :(
I might take this back down sometime, but for now I thought I would post it and see if anyone liked it.
Thankz for reading.
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