Sunshine
Disclaimer : I don't own Naruto
Inspiration : my lovely girl ebondeath's " Skin and Bones " and my dear angel-chu's " Quietus"
A/N: Part one of the three shot trilogy. Sasuke Centric. Angst and a lot of it.
Dedication : To those who have learned that it's better to have loved, than to never have loved before.
You are my sunshine,
my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You never know, dear,
how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away
My name is Sasuke Uchiha. My namesake was chosen by my mother as she declared that I would be like a great shinobi like Sasuke Sarutobi. As you know, my life has never been without pain or sorrow. But, all that changed when I allowed myself to be loved by my sunshine, my love Sakura Haruno. I wanted to protect her from my inner demons that held the true me hostage. It wasn't until my best friend Naruto Uzumaki, kicked my glutous and lost an arm did I come to realize how blind I was for running away from the shining light that always was by my side and liberated me from those demons. Sometime later I married her. Boy, never have I seen her so beautiful in my life. She looked so innocent, so happy, so mine. Her emerald eyes glistened so luminously they looked as though they were made out of glass. I've only seen them this way two other times, when I proposed to her and when she saw for the first time our little bundle, my twilight, Sarada. As I watched the horrid "miracle" of birth and saw that my daughter has my raven hair I silently prayed that she'll have her mother's eyes. Though she didn't, she was the spliting image of her mother. She just had my strong Uchiha genes for dark hair and eye color. But, enough dwelling in the past. I will tell you now of the years that I have lived locked out of my heaven.
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5 years ago
A week before the incident I was spending my last day with my family before I had to go on an assassination mission. I woke up at approximately 6:30am in order to make breakfast for Sarada before she goes to school. I try hard not to wake Sakura up because what I had planned ahead was intense. Swiftly finding my way to Sarada's bedroom and I woke her from her deep slumber. She mumbled a "Good morning papa" followed by a hug and went to the washroom to get ready. Gliding my way to the kitchen I prepared Sarada's favorite cinnamon apple pancakes with a glass of tomato juice. It is incredible that, that tiny being is a perfect balance of me and my beloved wife. With that being said, I have never feared anyone (excluding the massacre) nor anything until one frightful day that Sakura and I endured the rage of our daughter. Not even a Kaguya/Madara hybrid comes close to a tempered Sarada. In fact, the solemn purpose of her wearing glasses was because that raged activiated her Sharingan early. Sarada later sat down at the dinning table in her usual spot and began eating her already served food. After taking two bites she paused, looked into my eyes, and spoke " How long will you be gone papa? You'll be back in time for the Kage Summit right? I mean you have to, you're the Hokage's best friend! " Observing her posture and tone of voice, I knew she was in the verge of tears; so I kissed her forehead and told her I will be back as soon as I can. After finishing breakfast, I walked with her to the Academy and watched her enter the building with her close friends the new generation Shika-Ino-Chou. To my luck, I arrived home to a still sleeping Uchiha matriarch in bed. I undressed and slithered my way in between the sheets. I watched her as she slept and admired her undeniable beauty. She later woke up with a toothpaste commercial smile and we made love. We made love the whole day as though it would be our last. Unbeknownst to both of us, it will be forever our last.
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It was the day of the Kage meeting, as I was on my way home after the trouble-free mission. I was 10 minutes away from the front gates when I started to feel a strange sensation as though something was following me. I turn to look back but nothing was there. I thought it was just imagining things but as I turned back around and began to walk again, I was bit by a tiny snake that mirrored the look of Mada. The venom it contained started to give me an extreme migraine that matched its intensity of the wound Itachi inflicted on me long ago. About to collapse, I was pushed against a tree at a choke hold. "Hello, Sssassuke-kun it's been a long time how have you been?" a silky, menacing voice said to me as its tongue licked my now hot cheek. "What have you done to me you vile snake!" I looked up and saw the sickly, withering Orochimaru. He has since gown skinnier and paler than the last time I saw him a year before Sarada's birth. Mentally, I was trying to understand why he is back to his twisted ways all of a sudden; as though he have been reading my mind he informed me "I'm going to be blant thisss time around, asss you may already notice I'm in a fragile ssstate; I'm going to take your body asss I intended to do over a decade ago. But this time thingsss will be different. I will have your body." He said with an evil smile in his face. If it wasn't for this horrendous headache I would of already killed the snake. "Tsk, you can never teach an old dog new tricks can you? Go to hell" I tried to activate my joujutsu but seemingly the pain of my throbbing head intensified. "Karin, come out, it'sss time." he said as I hold my head in agony and blood pouring from my eyes. At that moment I figured out the source of my pain. It was in my limbic system, the memory center of the brain. At first I tried to remember little things like what I ate this morning but it wouldn't come to me as I tried hard and hard my memories just seem to fade away until it can reach the core. Karin appeared shortly after looking as hideous and demented as the day I told Sakura to kill her, she also looks a little she and Anko ate their feelings together. "Pft. Sasuke you look well" she said so cold as she approached both of us. In her hands were chakra restricting shackles for my hands and neck. At first I thought she was just going to place them on me but I was wrong. She punched and kicked me as if there was no tomorrow. "Take that you jackass, endure the pain you made me suffer." She kept on repeating with every hit she got. When I was completely bloodied and bruised enough for her enjoyment, she spit in my face. She then summoned a recently dead body, preformed a transformation jutsu in order to make the body look identical to mine; and lastly stripped me out of my bloodied clothes, leaving me with only my boxers on, and put it on the other body. Once she was complete and Orochimaru checking over her work, then told her to beat me until unconscious while the venom finished it job but first put the shackles on. Prior to falling in slumber, all I could think about was my daughter Sarada until she was ripped away from me by the venom and then ultimately to my soulmate Sakura. The light of her shiloette and all the memories of our good times came rushing to me one last time. As my eyelids close my final declaration of love escaped my blued lips "I love you Sakura, and I am yours until the end." and at that moment I lost my sunshine.
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4 years ago
The first year past like a blur. Like in my adolescence, I was used as an experiment to be able to be a perfect vessel for the King of all Traitors. I did not know who I was except for the fact that my name was Sasuke, and whenever I activated my ability called the Sharenigan, I saw bits and pieces of my past. But, not enough to tie them all together. So I just kept obeying because I knew that I would get out of this hell hole one day.
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3 years ago
I remembered everything except for any memories dealing with Sakura. I remembered the glorious Uchiha clan. I remembered the love my parents had for one another. I remembered my adoration of my brother Itachi. I remembered Shisui's words telling me to never doubt my brother's loves towards me.
I remembered my days in the Academy and my peers. I remembered the massacre. I remembered Itachi's betrayal. I remember the loneliness amd promise of revenge. I remembered by first sparring with Naruto. I remembered my time in Team 7. I remembered the time I was with Orochimaru. I remembered my time with Taka. I remembered Danzo's death caused by my hands. I remembered the final battle with Itachi. I remembered the Hokage Summit. I remembered the war. I remembered my final battle with Naruto. I remembered my journey of redemption. I remembered coming back to Konoha. I remembered my little princess Sarada. Lastly, I remembered how I got trapped there. I did not tell Orochimaru nor did I ever hint at the fact that I remembered. I waited patiently as a hawk to make my move out of this dungeon I was in for far too long.
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2 years ago
Exempting the gorey details, I did not leave no loose threads behind as I emancipated. I killed everyone that was loyal to that Snake and anyone who was in my path. My dignity that was taken out of my possession was restored to its former glory. Thereafter, the thought of reuniting with my daughter blazed a fire in me. I summoned a hawk to search for my daughter because she knew how she looked like; I told her seek out her whereabouts either in school or at the family house. I set her free and I waited. She came back two hours later to reveal that there is not a trace of my daughter anywhere in Konoha. At that instant, I fell on my knees and cried vowing to look for her in every inch of the world.
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Later in the same year I met my current wife Morie. I met her was I searched for my daughter in Iwa. She has raven hair with black eyes like myself. She recognized me because I helped her once when I was seeking redemption. She took hold of me and took care of me. Then healed me with words as sweet as honey. At that moment her seduction came and began to take hold of my brokenheart and mended it to fit her obession. I did not know that at that time because I was blinded by my pain nor did I remember my true love.
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6 months ago
I married Morie out of carnal pleasure alone. I knew in my heart that I didn't love her but the pain of losing my daughter was numbed by her. Not only did my pain not leave, it intensified. On the day of our honeymoon, all the memories of Sakura came back to me when Morie screamed "Sasuke-kun" for the first time as she rode out her euphoria. The guilt hit me like a pile of rocks after the love making. I've forgotten my oath to look for my Sarada and my promise to Sakura about never forgetting about her. At the time I didn't comprehend how I could of have forgotten these two important things in my life.
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We kept moving from place to place. Learning, that my wife got pregnant after the honeymoon irked my need to find "the perfect place to start a family" in her opinion; thus, secretly, I was only looking for my girls. The last place that I didn't savaged yet was Suna. I was scared to go there because I have not told Naruto about what happened. I knew how close Gaara is to him, so I didn't want him to know where I was by Gaara's mouth, I wanted to tell him when the time was right. It angers me now that the fear of not coming here soon changed my life forever.
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Present Day
Suna is a very hot place to live. It's been two days since we arrived unnoticed and today I decided to take out the wife to a local restaurant. We sat on the table closest to the window in the corner. "Oh hon, the baby is kicking! Here have a feel." my wife said as I proceeded on caressing her inflated belly. The soft kicking of the child inside her reminded me of the one I came to lost, the one I didn't spend enough time with. At times like these, my painful memory of what could have been taunts my melancholic soul. That tiny bundle that was wrapped with a love as pure as snow. Oh, how happy I was when my sunshine told me I was going to be a father. That eagerness to fill with unconditional love to a little princess that was yet to come. But, now more than ever I want see her. "Hey look, the Kazekage and his family is here. Wow, what a gorgeous wife he has. He is very lucky!" my wife said as my charcol eyes found the Kazekage .To my complete and utter suprise I saw him standing beside my not so tiny bundle who was holding a toddler, no older than 4 years of age, who shared her same raven hair but with eyes as green as his mother's and lastly he had his arm around the waist of my lost sunshine who is radiating brightly just as she was like her pregnancy with the bundle. In a fraction of a second, our eyes met and I felt as if we knew, the world we knew was about to change.
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"Moma please don't cry, I don't it when you cry" the little boy said as he hugged her. Sarada then walked over to the boy, ever so compressed told her younder sibling "Itachi, why don't we go get moma some tomatoes? That'll make her feel better. Uncle Naruto will be here soon as well." the toddler nodded and left with his sister. My eyes were in tears as I heard the name of the son did not know I had. A son, I had the most handsome son with the one I loved. He was my miniture self with the eyes I wished upon Sarada. After locking eyes with Sakura in the resturant Gaara immediately took all of us to his office. Once in the office, I tried to touch my girls but I was denied access by their new protector. Gaara has taken good care of them. I know this and I can feed it off the air too. My wife didn't say a word since we arrived at the office. I sense she was too afraid, embarrassed, and full of guilt. No one said anything to me, the room was quiet. With the exception of Sakura's soft sobs and Gaara's soothing voice trying to calm her down. My children came back to the room with Naruto a few minutes later. Aforetime that I said a word, Naruto jabbes me hard in my face. "Where the hell have you been huh?" He punched me again "Do you know how much pain you cost all of us? How much tears where shed? The struggle that we all had with out you?" He punched me again and grabbed me by my collar "Look at me damn it and tell me, no, tell us where have you been in the last 4 years. Apperantly, you have another life to think about and quite frankly" he glanced at Morie and back to me "That trash over there is so guilt-ridden I can smell it. She used you, you know to not finding us." tears were rolling down his eyes when he embrased me. I hugged my brother and began to sweep the tears I held back since I regained my memories. I proceeded on telling them my story.
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The next day I spent the whole day with my true family. I learned that day was that little Itachi and I share the same birthday. I learned that he is just like Sarada, meaning he is the perfect balace of me and Sakura. I learned that Sarada is now the Kazekage-in-training and will reign as it in just a few months. I learned that she graduated from the Academy at 7, became a Genin at 8, a Chunnin at 9, and a Jounin at 10. I learned that now, at twelve years old, she possess the Mangekyō Sharingan similar to my cousin Naori's by having a four petaled flower instead of three. I learned that Sarada has fell in love with Inojin Yamanaka. I learned that Sarada is no longer my little princess, she is young lady. I learned that Sarada never gave hope on me and still loves me unconditionally. I learned that Sakura and Sarada forgave me for taking this long to find them. I learned that Sakura married Gaara two years ago and is expecting twins. She then told me the words I been preparing myself to hear for a day now "Sasuke-kun, though I know I still love you, I cannot go back with you. Even if you divorce your wife if she has a miscarriage, I can't leave Gaara. I love him Sasuke. I wouldn't have married him if I did not. We can share custody of our children but I will not leave him. I am his sunshine Sasuke." I then lifted her chin and said to her "No, you are MY sunshine." and we kissed our final kiss.