This is for 2Padfoot00Moony8's Letter's from Heaven Challenge. Please review and tell me what you think.
Prompts - 2,4, and 5
The characters of the Harry Potter universe belong to Ms. Rowlings, and I'm borrowing them for my own imagination.
Dear Severus
April 1997
Dear Severus,
I'm sorry. It seems so pathetic to start a letter with those words, but sometimes the simplest statements are the truest. I have wanted to tell you that sooner, but lacked the courage until I saw how much you were willing to risk for my son, for Albus, and in the hopes to save another child from mistakes you have made. Some Gryffindor I turned out to be.
Upon learning to truth about everything, as James and I now know, I realized what I actually lost when I ended my friendship with you. We were young, and I didn't realize that in my hurt at your words, that I had become selfish. When we started at Hogwarts, you provided a familiarity and stability to me entering an unfamiliar world. I never recognized that you needed me more than I needed. You were a much better friend to me than I ever was to you.
I now know that I broke your heart that day. That day led to so many bad choices in your life, because pain becomes nothing when your heart is broken. When I should have been working hard to get you accepted by my friends and to protect you without under minding your manhood, I turned my back on you and allowed you to fend for yourself. I was wrong to do that to you when I knew whom you would turn to, because they accepted you and didn't treat you like they wish you didn't exist. Although I love James with my whole heart that is one thing I could never understand. I wish I could have been better, but don't we all?
I know that what you have ahead of you will be incredibly hard. Albus, the only person left on Earth that you love, has put you in a no win situation. Just remember that in your darkest times that life without love isn't a live at all. You are a person who does love and is loved. If Albus didn't love you, he wouldn't trust you as he does. And, Severus, my oldest friend, I have and still do love you. You have sacrificed more for me, for my son, than anyone save for maybe five others, and you did it all out of love for me. Thank you.
I hope you have forgiven me of my youthful mistakes, and I wish that I had the opportunity to stand before the whole Wizarding world and brag to them at what a true friend I had and still have in you. I look forward to the day we are reunited, and I can hug you and tell you all this in person. I pray that it is not to soon that you will see the fruits of all you sacrifices. I want for you to have a life you deserve, full of love and friendship. Continue to do the good work you are doing.
Love,
Lily