A/N: Just saying up front this is a Sam and Drew story. If they are not your favorite pairing you should probably not read this story. I don't necessarily plan on bashing any of the other pairings at this point but I don't know exactly where the story will take me after the first three chapters.
I had the idea for this story before the Nurses Ball but I started writing it after. There are just so many missing moments on this show now and holes in the plot. This story is centered on missing moments between Sam and Drew so not much interaction between any other characters. This is their discussions about things they should be telling each other instead of making assumptions. The interactions between Sam and Jason have been awkward and disjointed. Also, for a man that was kept from his wife and son for five years, Jason is too focused on Carly and Michael. Then the almost zero interaction between Drew and Sam when they are all three supposed to be in this triangle is making the show unwatchable.
I started thinking about in the good days of soap writing they would have a couple pretend to be apart to solve a mystery. They would be apart for a few weeks or even a couple of months and then you find out they are faking the whole thing to throw the bad guys off. It almost seemed GH was doing that but I should have known better. This is my version of what could have been happening off screen.
Disclaimer: I do not own GH nor any of its characters but if I did I would get as many vets on screen as possible and tie some of the newbies to the original core families and then get rid of the rest of the newbies.
Beware, this has mature content! Not as much as some but thought I would give a warning.
Chapter One
Mid August 2018
Drew was walking down the hall of Aurora Media heading for his office coming back from a lunch meeting. The company was actually doing better than he had thought after the fall out caused by Peter August. He had met with several accountants to go over the books to make sure Peter hadn't been reallocating company resources for his own purposes. He wasn't sure what Peter had been up too but he hadn't done anything to damage the company except for committing fraud to get the job.
He stopped as he felt his phone vibrate and his eyes sparkled happily as he read the text. He stopped outside his office and not looking up from returning the text he told his secretary to hold all of his calls.
"Mr. Cain," his secretary interrupted his inner thoughts. "Ms. McCall is waiting in your office to talk to you. Just a warning, she didn't look too happy."
The secretary heard Sam start yelling as soon as Drew went into his office and slammed the door.
"Are you done now?" Drew snapped.
"Not by a long shot!" Sam retorted as she leaped on him and attacked his lips with hers. She pulled away slowly then whispered, "Are you going to lock the door because I am just getting started?"
His hand had already moved to the door knob to turn the lock as she jump at him and wrapped her legs around his hips, pushing her flowing skirt around her hips. His mouth slammed on to hers as he started moving them to the new couch.
After they landed on the couch with her in his lap, her hands reached down to his slacks and started pulling at the button and zipper with impatience.
"You sure seem in a hurry," Drew said to her dreamily as he was reaching under her blouse to caress her breast. "Do you need to be somewhere else soon?"
"No," she panted. "I cleared my whole afternoon for this." She got his pants loose and pushed them down. She ran her hand along his erection with desperation. "It's been too long since I have been able to touch you like this. I just want you inside of me right now."
"I wanted to take my time." Drew told her breathlessly as he started kissing down her neck and moved his hand down below her skirt. He quickly rethought the situation when he reached her wet curls between her legs, discovering she had already removed her panties. He decided he didn't want to wait any longer either. She was right, it had been too long.
He quickly sat down on the couch and pulled her down on him with desperation. They both sighed with satisfaction as he slide inside her. Both of them felt whole again for the first time in months. As much as Sam had been in a hurry to have him inside her, she moved up and down his length very slowly at first. Then as she tightened her muscles around him, she slammed back down on him. They both gasped with pleasure. It didn't take long for them to climax together.
Sated for the moment, Drew fell asleep with Sam draped across his muscular chest. She ran her fingers back and forth across those muscles as she thought about what had occurred over the last few months to finally get them to this point.
Early May 2018
She missed her babies so much. She thought about them all the time. However, she had to keep them safe and she felt like she had to work with Jason to find the flash drive with Drew's memories. That is why the kids were at the Quartermain's most of the time for now. She couldn't take off at a moments notice while the kids were with her.
She owed Drew after all the lies and deception after Jason's return. She could at least give him that much even if he hadn't asked. Even though he hated her, she still loved him. She didn't know if they could ever make their way back to each other but it was going to be a long road if that was going to happen.
She had finally figured out she didn't want to be with Jason again even though she had always considered them soulmates. She should have known Drew wasn't Jason and Jason should be able to reason enough to realize that jumping back into the business that got him taken away from his family isn't the brightest thing he has done in his life. She had come to terms that Jason was never going to put her or the kids above Sonny, Carly and Michael. She didn't hate him for it but she had been shown a better way when Drew came into her life. She now knew she could love someone else and be happy with someone else that wasn't Jason.
To a certain extent Silas and Patrick had taught her that as well but something had been missing from both of those relationships. She originally believed it was because they were not Jason.
She just didn't know if Drew would give her a second chance. She could only pray he would forgive her.
She got to the Quartermain's late but luckily Alice was still awake and let her in. She headed up to Danny's room after promising she would lock up when she left. She quietly entered his room so not to wake him up. She stopped herself from reaching out to run her fingers through his hair. He was dressed in his superhero pajamas with his teddy bear clutched in his arms.
That gave her pause. He hadn't needed to sleep with his teddy bear in a while. She knew her actions were causing him to be insecure. She would make it up to him as soon as the flash drive was found. She would go with her original plan to take the kids with her out of town somewhere and just spend time together as a family. She knew her mom and Monica did what they could but it wasn't the same when your mother was there one day then she was gone the next and you weren't sure when you would see her again. She had talked to Danny every day on the phone but apparently it wasn't enough for her baby boy.
She lightly kissed the top of his blonde head before going into the next room to look in on Scout. Her baby girl was a much heavier sleeper now than she had been because now she was big enough to let her sleep on her stomach. Scout hated being on her back. Sam started patting her on her back and hummed a lullaby.
"My sweet baby girl," Sam whispered. "I love you so much. This is not what I had intended when things started spiraling out of control. I still love your Daddy so much. I just don't know how to fix this."
"Just what did you intend?" The question came as a whisper on the other side of the room.
Sam turned around quickly and saw Drew sitting in the rocking chair in their daughter's nursery. Instead of the anger in his eyes that she had grown accustomed too over the last couple of months, he just looked sad. She was surprised she had been so preoccupied that she didn't notice him in the room. She didn't like it that she hadn't felt him there like she used to. She didn't want to lose that connection they had but she didn't know how to fix it.
Drew watched Sam walk into the room. He had known she was in the house. He could still sense her for some reason.
He was still sitting in Scout's room after putting her to bed. He went there after he was done at work to spend some time with her and Danny. Although Danny was more concerned with Annabelle the II then spending much time with him. He could tell something was bothering Danny but he didn't push him to talk about it. He wasn't acting out so he thought he could let it go for now. It really wasn't his place anymore anyway.
He was just thinking he was going to have to bring himself to talk to Sam because he needed to tell her that something was up with Danny but he didn't know if he could stand it. Then he had felt her in the house and a few minutes later she had entered the nursery. He had watched her walk to the crib and start to hum to Scout. He closed his eyes remembering happier times between them when their family was together. A few months before he would have walked up behind her and wrapped her in his arms and kissed the top of her head.
He was just so damn sad about the whole situation. He was going to just let her finish and leave without alerting her to his presence in the room until she admitted she loved him and didn't know how to make it right.
Before he could stop himself, he asked, "Just what did you intend?"
She gasped and turned around with her mouth gapping open.
He quietly got up from the rocker and walked to her and took her hand. He turned around and tugged on her hand indicating he wanted her to follow him out the door.
She guessed they would be talking sooner than she thought. She wasn't sure she was ready. She knew they needed to talk.
She followed as he lead her downstairs to the living room. She wasn't sure what direction to take with this conversation. She was just going to let him take the lead. Unfortunately when they reached the living room he silently waited for her to answer his question.
"Drew, I still love you so much," Sam told him longingly. "I lied to you and myself about my residual feelings for Jason because I didn't want to lose you. Then, after the earthquake, I realized I couldn't lie anymore and I had to deal with my feelings and decide what they meant."
"Well, Sam," Drew began sadly, "From my point of view, every time I see you, you are with him. It looks like you had already decided I was just a stand in for him over the last three years."
"I am tagging along with him while he tries to find Henrik," Sam insisted. "I just want to find that flash drive with your memories."
"So now you are lying by omission?" He asked her with exasperation. "I just want my wife and family back, I don't need the flash drive. Didn't we agree before things hit the fan that my true memories are still in my head somewhere and I just need to try to find a way to get to them."
"I just wanted to give you back everything you had lost to make up for my lies. I really would like us to start over when both of us have our heads screwed on straight. For you that means having your memories."
"I don't want you putting yourself in danger for me." Drew said and he started moving closer to her. She wasn't sure if it was deliberate or not. He took her hands and looked into her sad brown eyes. "You say you have made the decision that you want us to start over when this is over but how do I know you will not change your mind again after you spend even more time with Jason?"
"I get you have a problem trusting me again," she said desperately, "I will have to earn your trust again but know this," she continued after placing her hands on his face, looking into his stormy blue eyes, "After spending time with Jason, I know in my heart he isn't the man for me anymore."
"How can you be so sure?" He asked sadly.
"Because he is the exact same person he was five years ago." She said adamantly. "And I am not."
"He could still change after some time." Drew insisted.
"I also realized something the last couple of months," Sam went on like he hadn't said anything. "Most of my residual feelings for Jason were about how guilty I felt for turning my back on him after he got back but when we all thought you were Jason I almost immediately wanted you back. I felt a connection to you that I never should have felt because you turned out to not be him."
"All three of us," Sam continued. "You, me and Danny; felt a connection immediately after we met when you were still in bandages. When Jason showed back up it made me question every feeling I have had the last fourteen years. Even when I hated him, I still loved him and wanted him in my life somehow. But when he came back this time, I didn't feel the same way. I was drowning in guilt and I couldn't be completely happy with you because of it."
Drew looked down at her tear streaked face and wanted to pull her in close and just hug and kiss her to reassure her everything would be alright but he couldn't do it yet.
"Let's give things more time. I don't think we should rush into anything again."
He walked out of the house, leaving her standing there not knowing what to do next.