You have my heart, whether you want it or not

Ok, so your reading my first story on here. COOL!! Well, since your reading this, I'm going to give you the summary for the story.

Bella is a vampire, and the Cullens are happily... IDK, being vampires? Whatever, they're happy. So, Jasper goes hunting, alone. And then he doesn't come back. Soon, Alice has visions of him that rips her heart out. NO CHARACTER DEATH!!! Oh yeah, no Nessie.

Disclaimer: Me: (Gasps) OMG!! I own Twilight!! (Does a happy Dance)

Jacob: No you don't.

Me: Why do you always ruin everything? And isn't it usually Edward who tells people they don't own Twilight?

Jacob: He took a day off.

Me: Ah.

"Bella!!" I whined. Yet again, she wouldn't go shopping with me. I had hoped that, as a vampire, she would've changed just so much as to go shopping with me. But, NO!!! I gave her the infamous puppy eyes. She sighed.

"Fine! But I'm paying for a quarter of it!'

"Fifth." I negotiated. I didn't get it. She thought, even after how many times Edward told her he loved her, that she wasn't worth spending money on. She was beautiful, smart, funny, caring, the list goes on and on!! She just doesn't get it.

She nodded. "Fine. Let's go."

"Yay!!" I squealed. Jasper walked up to me.

"Hi honey!"

"I'm going to go hunting Alice." He said it bluntly, without any emotion. I was instantly worried. He was never disconnected with me.

He smiled a smile that reassured everyone in the room. He hadn't hunted in a while. He could be like this. It fooled everyone in the room. Everyone except me.

"Want me to come with you?"

He shook his head. "No, I won't be gone long."

"Are you sure?"

He paused, and only I saw the pain in his eyes. "Yes. I'm sure darling."

"Ok…" I gave him a kiss. "Now, go bag some black bears for me, OK?"

He nodded stiffly and ran out the door, with one final glance at me. I stared after him worriedly. Bella tapped my shoulder and said her voice full of concern. "Come on Alice. Let's go to New York and shop. We haven't been there before and you keep saying you want to take me there."

That girl knows how to cheer me up.

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I sat on mine and Jasper's bed, staring at the phone. Waiting for him to call. He didn't even have to call. A text. Anything to let me know where he was. I'll let you know what happened. Well, what as much as I know, because three months later, I still don't have a damn clue as to what happened.

I came back from shopping with Bella in a couple days. I expected Jazzy to be back by then, but he wasn't. I waited the rest of the week before I called him. He didn't answer.

I texted him. He didn't reply.

I did everything short of calling Missing Persons department to find him. I would've tracked him. But I couldn't. His scent was nowhere to be found.

Short explanation much? Yes. Anymore info you can give us? No.

I started to run the water to a bath, making it extra hot. I was gonna be in here for awhile. I also brought in my cell phone. Just in case. I took the bath. It didn't help the pain, and he didn't call.

I was… more then depressed. If there's a word meaning 'far beyond the reach of happy pills' then that was me. I never went shopping. I didn't host or go to any parties. I didn't play Bella Barbie. I didn't look at my Porsche longing to drive it. I sat in my room, and was hmmm… there isn't a word for 'far beyond the reach of happy pills' so I shall make one. How about…. Werf. No idea as to why, other than it sounds really cool.

I waited for weeks. The only thing I did was hunt. Only occasionally did I hunt animals though. I was hunting his scent. I never had any luck though.

I came down from my room one day, with no idea of what I would do. My family all smiled at me and Bella, who was closest, gave me a hug.

After forty seven minutes and 34 seconds of TV I got up from the couch and headed outside, ignoring my family when they asked what I was doing. I walked towards our pool that we had installed. We got a discount on it, courtesy of Rose.

I slipped my shoes off sub-consciously but nothing else. I stepped into the shallow end and lay down. I was deep enough that about five inches of water covered me. I kept my eyes open and tried to think of nothing. I ignored Emmett when he leaned over to ask what the hell I was doing and stared blankly through him. He gave me a concerned look and walked away.

I looked through the future mindlessly. I gasped as a vision shook me. A vampire with dark brown hair, nearly black. Her eyes where a red of the brightest kind. I knew her from Jas… his descriptions.

Maria.

Pain ripped me apart as Jasper, his name was too beautiful to blot out with him, or he, or his, entered the scene. He began to kiss her trailing kisses up and down her body… and more.

I flashed back to the present, where my family was leaning over the pool with wide eyes. The next second, I was back in the vision. I flashed in and out, each scene lasting no more then half a second.

A new vision came. Jasper was in a tux, Maria in a white dress. They leaned close and kissed. Becoming married. Maria's face flashed through me head. The visions and reality skimmed in and out of my vision in no order. Maria's face. Family. Wedding. Kisses. Wedding. Family. Face. Family. My body was shaking violently, and I was heaving dry sobs which resulted in me swallowing a hell of a lot of water. Wedding. Kisses. Face. Family. Kisses. Wedding.

My family appeared and this time stayed. Emmett pulled me into a hug after getting me out of the water. Edward was seething from what he had seen in my mind. Jasper had been his friend, his brother. He had been my mate. I heard Edward explaining what had happened because I was about to go into hysterics. Emmett growled and pulled me tighter. "Don't worry, lil' sis. We can make him pay."

"I don't even know where he is!" I choked out, ignoring Emmett's comment.

"Don't worry Alice." Bella came up to me and said. "If he's to dumb to realize what a great girl he's got, he doesn't deserve you. Besides, dumb guys like that always come back. And when he does, girl he is going to regret what he's doing to you so much that he's going to…" She walked off, muttering to herself.

Emmett gave her a worried look. Edward glared at him and went after his wife.

I wriggled out of Emmett's grasp. The only person I wanted to hold me right now didn't want to hold me.

I climbed into the top branches of one of the trees in our yard, when an awful smell hit me. "Ugh." I muttered. "Who invited the dogs?"