8 year old Sami stood in her doorway, listening in on her parent's conversation. Well, it wasn't exactly a conversation...but a fight. Her father had just dropped her back off at her mother's house. Sami's parents were divorced and her father lived in the city while her mother lived in the town that Sami came from.
"God damn it, John! Why do you have to do shit that you do?" she heard her mom yell. Sami was too young to understand the reasons they fought all the time. She can remember when she was 2, walking into the kitchen and seeing her parents fighting (verbally).
Sami took her shoes off and thought about going into the dining room or not. She decided to go. She shut her door and walked down the hallway and turned the corner. She stood in the middle of them. It was as if they didn't notice she was even there.
Her mother slammed down a piece of paper that needed to be signed. Her dad looked at it angrily and seized a pen out of his pocket, signing it as fast as possible and throwing the pen down on the wooden dining table. He stormed out of the house and got into his champagne colored car which held his girlfriend in the fron seat. He started the car and drove away.
"What wrong?" Sami asked, looking up at her mom.
"Your father's an asshole." she replied, going into the kitchen. Sami followed her. Sami leaned up against the wall.
'Was it something I did?' she thought, almost in tears.
A few minutes later, Sami and her mom were eating dinner. Sami did her homework and went to bed, dreading to go back to school the next day. She had just started 3rd grade a few weeks ago. She had been at the school she was going to since 2nd grade but still hadn't made many friends. She thought she never would.
3 months later
Sami sat in her mom's room, playing her PS2 and minding her own business when the phone rang. Her mom rushed over and picked it up.
"Hello?" her mom said into the reciever. Sami looked over at her mom, and seeing the look on her mom's face, she knew something bad happened. Suddenly, her mom signaled her to get out of the room and get dressed. Sami was practically shaking while she put on her jeans and top. She was so scared that she was talking to herself.
"Please don't let something be wrong with Grandpa, please tell me he's okay." she was saying to herself, mostly. She put on her socks and shoes and heard her mom come walking into her room.
"What happened?" Sami asked, looking for her jacket in the closet.
"Oh, nothing," her mom lied, "your aunt is just in the hospital. She cut herself with a...knife. It's not that bad though. She's gonna be okay." Being the 8 year old she was, Sami fell for it. "Come on, we have to go to Grandma and Grandpa's house." Sami nodded, less worried and followed her mother out the door, not knowing that she would go through one of the hardest things in life.
The drive to Sami's grandparent's house took only a few minutes. Sami and her mom walked around the house and opened the gate into the backyard. Everyone was there except Sami's aunt and father. Her grandma was in tears and her uncle and grandpa were trying to calm her down. Sami looked up at her mother.
"Where's Daddy?" she asked, looking up at her mom.
"He's just sick. He's at home. That's all." her mom replied, not looking down at her daughter.
"Let's go inside." Sami heard her grandpa say to her grandma. Her mom and grandparents went inside and her uncle stayed outside with her.
"Hey, Rob and Al are free today. Let's go hang out with them." her uncle said. He was talking about his nephews. Sami just nodded, looking into the window and seeing her grandma crying, nearly hyperventilating. Her uncle went to tell them where they were going and they left.
Sami found out later that day that her father was in the hospital. Two words. Heart Failure. The two words that would kill Sami inside everytime she ever heard them for the rest of her life. Two days later, her father was pronounced dead. The rest of her life, Sami would live with no father. No one to run to when she was mad at her mother, no one to help take stress away from her. She was fatherless forever.
In Joy And Sorrow Chapter 1
September 24th 2005
Sami was now 11 and had just moved from away from all her friends. She was going to a new school, and on top of that she had a new family member! Her mom gave birth to a baby girl a month before. Sami thought that her sister would grow up fast and it would seem like days would only be 24 minutes long, and not 24 hours. She was wrong.
She could never talk to her mom anymore without getting yelled at. Her mom's boyfriend was a total fuckwad and got mad at the smallest things Sami did. She couldn't leave a light on in the basement without her mom saying that her boyfriend was mad at her. She couldn't eat sushi in front of her mom's bf without getting a rude noise like an, 'Ick.' or an, 'Ew.'. One night, Sami finally made the desicion. She wasn't putting up with anything that he or her mom said to her anymore, since it was mostly insults and rude remarks.
"I'm fucking running away. I'm going as far away as I possibly can. I don't know how far fifty five dollars will take me but I'll find a way to make it all work out." Sami said to herself, packing her bags of clothes. She packed 10 outfits, a few cans of Jones Soda, her toothbrush, toothpaste, hair brush, deoderant, a journal, a pen, some snack food, her cell phone, her charger, and her fifty five dollars. She left a short note, telling her mom what she was doing. Sami glanced over at her guitar, and sighed. She didn't want to lug it around with her but she knew she had to. It was her only way to make money. She packed her guitar in the case it went in and climbed out her bedroom window. She walked down her street and headed east.
West Chester, PA
"You fucking cunt!" Bam yelled at his girlfriend, Missy, who had just been caught cheating in Bam's bed with another man.
"Bammi, I can explain!" she replied, nearly in tears.
"I don't need an explination! Get the fuck out of my house and never come back!" Missy got up and put her pants and top back on. She and her new lover walked right out of the room. Bam sat down on his bed and changed the sheets before laying down and crying himself to sleep.
A few hours later, Bam woke up. He stared up at the celing and then finally got up out of bed. He remembered the events that occured the night before and almost started sobbing. Ever since Novak was put in prison for being caught with herion, Missy was the only company he had in Castle Bam. Now, that she left, Bam was alone. He walked down to the Pirate Bar and made some breakfast.
Once he finished eating the most important meal of the day, Bam called up his friend Dico to hang out. He went over to Dico's house and they went out to mess around, play pranks, film, skate, whatever. Then after a long day at doing what Bam does best, he went to Duffers with the rest of the CKY crew.
back where Sami is
Sami was sitting in a chair at the airport. She had made enough money to actually get a plane ticket to go somewhere. She picked Philedelphia. She had always wanted to go there. She had been walking all night long and longed to sit down on a plane and maybe get some sleep. A few minutes later, she picked up her backpack and guitar case and boarded the plane. She found her seat and shoved her things in the storage space above her and sat in her seat. Once she got comfortable, the plane took off and she fell asleep.
6 hours later
Sami woke up when the captain's voice came over the intercom and said they were landing. She wiped the sleep out of her eyes and heard the plane come in contact with the ground. As soon as the plane stopped moving, she stood up and grabbed her bags and guitar case from the overhead storage thing and walked down the isle, trying her best not to run into people.
She walked out of the airport and hopped on a bus, going straight to West Chester, PA. West Chester PA was where her favorite actor/athelete/jackass lived. Bam Margera. Sami wasn't just going there because of him, but because she had a feeling that she could find a small abandoned house to live in.
She arrived in WC 1 hour later and payed the bus driver the rest of her money. She walked off with her guitar in one hand and her backpack on her back. She saw a park and decided to stop there for dinner. She sat down at a picnic table and ate a Chewy Bar and a cookie. She got up and drank some water from the water fountain and started to walk around town, not caring if she got lost or not.
As it got darker, she decided to take a turn up a long dark street. It was full of trees and she thought it would be a nice place to sleep at. After walking up the long dark street, she found a perfect place to sit her stuff down and go to sleep. She placed her bags so they would be hidden from anyone passing by and took her guitar out from the bag. She began to play, 'To All Of You'.
Duffers, where Bam is
"Hey! Raab! Quit dancing with Dico!" Bam yelled, laughing. "Unless you guys are on a man-date"
"Shut up!" Raab slurred, being drunk like always. Bam and the rest of the crew just laughed. They were having a great time. Bam's mind wasn't on that bitch, Missy, and was actually laughing for the first time in awhile.
Bam looked at the time on his phone and yelled to the guys.
"Hey, I gotta go. I need to wake up early for a demo tommorow." he lied, getting up from his bar stool.
"Since when do you care about getting rest for demos?" Dunn asked, slurping some beer.
"Since I nearly fell asleep driving to one." Bam waved good-bye to the CKY crew and got into his Lambo and drove home.
As he turned into his driveway, he heard a faint noise. It sounded like music. He pulled into his driveway and parked the car before investigating. Down the driveway he walked, the noise getting louder every step he took.
'That sounds almost like Deron playing the guitar.' he thought. As he reached the end of his driveway, the sound was quite loud. He looked around and then spotted a silhouette of something in the woods. As he walked closer, the music stopped and the shadow started to move backwards a little bit.
"Hey...come back. I won't hurt you." Bam said, in a comforting voice. The shadow stopped moving backwards and stared back at Bam. As Bam got closer, he realized it was a girl.
"What are you doing out here at this time of night?" he asked, looking her over.
"I have no where to go." she replied, slipping the guitar off and stuffing it back into the bag.
"You have a home. Go there."
"I ran away. I lived in Missouri before though." Bam's eyes widened.
"You came here all the way from the mid-west?" She nodded. "How old are you"
"Eleven." Bam was even more surprised. The girl sighed and pulled her guitar back out and started playing Shippensburg.
"Do you need a place to stay?" he asked, once she finished playing.
"Yeah. Do you know where an abandoned house is? I can stay there." Bam laughed slightly.
"Abandoned house? You can stay with me. Come on, let's go inside. My house is just up that driveway"
"Um..okay." The girl followed Bam up the driveway.
"By the way, I'm Bam. What's your name"
"I'm Sami."