From young kits we choose. Perhaps not all know their path when we start. We encounter forks in the pathway, where we choose one or the other. Sometimes another can help guide us down the right or wrong path. Blinkstar, He was led down a dark and wrong path long ago. Revered as a great leader, hid a darker personality, that in the end, was led on by his ancestor Silverbird.
For as long as any cat can ever remember, he was kind and helpful. He wasn't what any cat wanted for a leader though. He was one of those that was thought of as soft and kittypet like. He was one who took the time to play with trickery. He was one who found no reason to do whatever he wanted. When he became deputy, he changed.
He was punished for what he did, what he had chosen to believe in, and what he chose to do. For him, it was all a game. A game he couldn't push reset on. For him. When he found himself on the edge between the Dark Forest and StarClan, From beginning to end, he was faced with all his wrong choices.
"Why should I feel sorry for them." Blinkstar growled at the nearly transparent large dark furred tom. For this was different then how he thought he would be judged. For Blinkstar, he was told that he would just go to whichever one he had deserved. But this was outrageous.
"What do you even want." He hissed. He wanted answers for this. Why couldn't he just go to either. Why was this even needed. He grew ready to just pounce on the cat.
"I see, another worthless cat who can't even see beyond their nose." The large dark furred tom spat. "Of course no one of my own clan and lineage can even begin to comprehend their own choices." The tom hissed
Blinkstar rolled his eyes in annoyance "I can most definitely comprehend my choices, I got what I wanted because of what I did." He meowed a hint of annoyance in his tone. The transparent tom shook his head.
"I'm not sure you know who I am. And if you are so willing to act this way, how about you learn a little lesson." The transparent tom came closer to Blinkstar. "How about we start with… Your kithood. You know you did start your path when you were born. You just were not… On your path." He flicked his tail at Blinkstar's nose.
"Who even are you and what even is the point of this lesson." Blinkstar recoiled at the touch of of the tail to his nose. He hissed after recoiling in which the tom just shook his head again.
"You must learn what you did wrong. Perhaps then you can be allowed into StarClan as you want. Or maybe you would earn the chance to come back once more to fix your mistakes." The tom meowed. "Must you know who i am? I am Darkstar. Founder of DarkClan." Darkstar smiled slightly.
Blinkstar took a step back upon hearing who the cat was. "Really now?" he meowed in disbelieve. Darkstar walked by him and sighed.
"May you know your mistakes. Let's start with a glimpse of you kithood. Where you were innocent, with no cat guiding you. Maybe you can see where you changed upon apprenticeship?" Darkstar meowed to Blinkstar.
"You know why I hate kits?" Blinkstar meowed. "They are small, needy and way too naive. Useless. I'd rather not see it." He added to it.
"Yet you stuck around them. Why? For the sake of convincing the other cats you were a great leader." Darkstar mentioned. He flicked his tail and sat down. "Maybe you should see what it was like as your kithood. See it from those two eyes that are not blinded by ignorance as they are now."
For as a young kits, they are innocent. They follow the norm. They do not understand the world's issues. They don't understand what it means to love the same gender, or what it means to be another gender. Let them grow older before they can truly find themselves.
"Blinkkit!" A mewling noise from the young kit's sibling called. Blinkkit couldn't figure which one out. Blinkkit tried to open his eyes. Rubbing them, Blinkkit finally opened them, Blinkkit looked around for which kit had called for him. Blinkkit saw the blue grey pointed kit looking at him. Blinkkit responded with a nice smile.
"I'm sorry Ashenkit! I wasn't aware you were there. I was asleep!" Blinkkit mewed. Ashenkit just laughed. Before yelping at their runt sister who rolled right into Ashenkit. "You okay Cherrykit?" Blinkkit asked his sister who was trying to fix herself up.
"I'm fine Blinkkit! I just was running from Hollykit. She swore that she'd get me and make me pay for trying to uhh…" Cherrykit slowed down. Her tortoiseshell lynx point pattern of her fur was all fluffed up. "Uh… I wanted to hear a story from good old grumpy feet Lynxfur. And Hollykit wanted to hear a different story than I. She chased me down." Cherrykit looked downright scared. Blinkkit came up to Cherrykit and playfully pushed her.
"Now, where's Hollykit then. I'll teach her a little lesson for messing with my sister!" Blinkkit said, proud to be acting like a 'hero' like one of those elder's stories about Ravenstar. For Blinkkit, he dreamed to be a leader like every other kit. He also dreamed of being like Ravenstar compared to other kits, it was uncommon to be wanting to be like a cat told of stories.
Ashenkit spoke up too. His voice as childish as it was, was more like a leader than Blinkkit would ever be. "Yeah, like Blinkkit said, we'll hunt her down and make her pay for messing with you!" He seemed excited as Blinkkit was to help Cherrykit. "Even though she's younger than us…" He mumbled, adding on to his first statement.
Cherrykit made an amused noise. "She'll have to respect me later though. I want to be a medicine cat unlike you two. What do you want Blinkkit, leader? You'd have to respect me despite me being a medicine cat, you'd have to listen to my advice along with the deputy's advice. Ashenkit, you want to be a warrior?" She paused in her statement. "Actually, no matter what you'd have to respect me unless you were some rouge, loner or a soft kittypet!" She had to leave that in.
Blinkkit rolled his eyes, annoyed that she'd push their offer to help her off. Silly sister, Hollykit is a cat of no respect! He amused himself with this thought. "That's okay! Like as Ashenkit said. She's only a couple of moons younger than us." He meowed. "But if she scares you again, we will make her pay for messing with you." Ashenkit nodded to Blinkkit's statement.
"Thanks Blinkkit and Ashenkit. But I think I need to stand up for myself!" Cherrykit meowed. A noise of amusement sounded from outside the den making Cherrykit spin around. Blinkkit and Ashenkit looked at the direction it came from.
"How disgustingly sweet!" The black and white kit meowed to the 3. "I'll make you pay Cherrykit!" The she-kit made a cute small childish hissing noise. Blinkkit hissed back. Hollykit was a kit brought in from being found at an abandoned twoleg nest. The farmplace. She was orphaned and cats took more pity on her more than anything. Blinkkit hated Hollykit for this. She was stuck up and acted like she owned the world.
"Leave Cherrykit alone!" He meowed to Hollykit. The kit rolled her eyes. She held her tail up high. "I give you a warning. You are not the boss of us. You never were and never will be." Blinkkit hissed once again.
"I am the leader of this nursery you three. At least Batkit understands it!" Hollykit hissed. "You three are the only kits who don't understand. Blinkkit mumbled something.
"You asked for it!" He leaped at her. He felt skin and fur underneath his claws as he tore at her. Hollykit mewled in pain. She aimed for his nose. She caught his nose. Making it bleed. Blinkkit recoiled slightly in the pain. He went for her shoulder before he was hauled off of Hollykit.
"Blinkkit!" He was sat down next to his mother where he just sat and stared at her, frozen with fear. "You should know better than to attack another cat of your clan." Blinkkit knew he was in trouble.
"She started it! Why doesn't she get punished!" He looked back at Hollykit who was proudly licking her wounds inflicted upon her by Blinkkit. "She was the one who was ready to pounce and attack Cherrykit!"
His mother sighed. "I know you were the one who started it." He watched as his mother turned her head over to his siblings. "Alright, who started the fight. Hollykit or Blinkkit." Blinkkit grumbled in annoyance.
Both Ashenkit and Cherrykit hesitantly said that it was Blinkkit. Blinkkit hissed. "But why does she get to have everything but we don't. She never gets in trouble but she always chases us down!" He said to his mother
"Hollykit's punishments rely on her foster mother. Don't worry about her. You should know a true warrior does not attack their clanmates." Blinkkit's mother told him. Blinkkit turned around. "You are to stay in this nursery until your apprenticeship." She told Blinkkit his punishement. Blinkkit fluffed up his dark chocolate point fur.
"What!" He yelped. "I don't deserve that!" He laid his ears back. "That's an entire moon stuck in this starclan forsaken hole in hay!" He got a smack from his mother.
"You don't call home things like that." She scolded. She glanced around for Ashenkit and Cherrykit. "Do you know where Ashenkit and Cherrykit went?" She started and Blinkkit shook his head. "I want you to stay here." She told him in a strict tone. Blinkkit rolled his eyes.
He watched as she left the nursery. He glanced around the nursery. He was glad that no queens or kits were around at this time. He would have to see some be around in half a moon though. He came to the corner of the den. He pushed himself through some hay. He turned around and tried to cover the hole he made by pushing through it.
Today is going to be a long day…
Blinkkit found himself out of the camp. He didn't want to stray far. But as far as he could see, just tall grass. He saw a couple of warriors out for their patrol. He just wanted back in camp. For himself. He found himself lost. All he could see were the warriors and grass.
"Do you smell that?" one of the warriors commented. "It smells like one of the kits from our nursery Goldenmist." The warrior commented. The warrior's black fur looked brown in the sun that shone upon it.
"Not really. I'd think that's just your imagination Ivynose." The golden tortoiseshell she-cat meowed to the tom. "We don't need to be hunting down random feelings. We need to be hunting. Birchleaf told us to do so." Goldenmist shook her head "Come along now Ivynose."
Blinkkit turned from the warriors and took tentative steps away from the 2 warriors and bolted for it. He could hear Ivynose meow "That sounded like there is a rabbit nearby." Blinkkit grumbled in annoyance to be referred as a rabbit but as scared as he was, he took no time in reminiscing upon it.
Blinkkit ran underneath a log and hid underneath it. He got himself up and out after a few tentative moments. He saw the forest. He could smell a different scent on the edge of the grass. It didn't smell like home. He jumped up on the log and noticed where the camp was. He took a moment or two before he heard a cat say that there was another cat there.
"There it is, It look like a kit!" The voice sounded like it was a male cat. Blinkkit looked back for a moment to see a small, lithe light grey tom. Blinkkit leaped down from the log and darted in the direction of the camp. He slid to a stop when he saw the two warriors from before.
"I swear the noise came from this direction!" Ivynose meowed. Blinkkit wanted to hiss, He stifled a hiss and took steps to go around the 2 moving warriors. He wanted to make little noise as to make them notice he was there.
"I think we may have imagined it. We should check by the farmplace. That place has always been our territory and has always been surrounded by mice and rats! Prey is prey." Blinkkit wanted to get back and now it sounded like they were coming towards him as he got around them He was thankful to dear StarClan that they couldn't scent him, but now, The wind seemed to not be in his favor.
"I think we have scented a young kit." Ivynose meowed and Goldenmist nodded. "Now which kit is it." They seemed to start to sniff and look around. Blinkkit mumbled "mouse-dung" under his breath. He took for it. He slipped through the long tangled path of grass and tried to keep himself from making too much noise.
He exhaled air as he came closer to the camp. He found himself climbing over to the dirtplace. He sat down at the edge of the dirtplace. He was huffing and puffing. He flicked an ear as he heard his mother come to the nursery. He heard his siblings as well.
"Blinkkit!" He heard her shout. He took to his paws and started to pretend to be finishing making dirt. He noticed Cherrykit poke her head to the dirtplace.
"Mother! Blinkkit's in the dirtplace. He's…" She slowed down and sat down at the entrance. His mother came to the entrance of the den. Blinkkit came up to her, and hung his head.
"Sorry mother, I just needed to uhh…" He took his sister's trademark and said uhh. He waved his tail at the dirtplace. "Yeah!" he gave a smile. He was scared of what she might have said. He came out of the dirtplace and headed for the nursery. "Sorry mother that I caused you to be angry with me."
He slid into the nursery and over heard his mother tell his sister "You did a good job in finding him. He won't be in trouble this time. After all, he needed to do his business." She praised his sister. Blinkkit grumbled in annoyance at his mother's words. He paused and let himself settle down in a nest.
"Blinkkit. Next time you need to make dirt, please let me know so I can make sure you aren't trying to sneak off." His mother had come in. "If there aren't any cats around to do it. Just call out my name in camp." She added to her words. Blinkkit sighed in relief. He wasn't caught, but he was worried that the two warriors that had scented him outside of camp would call him out.
"Right mother. I'm sorry I went out of the nursery without your permission." He meowed back. He'd have to endure a moon of waiting in this hole of doom. He sighed and waited patiently for the warriors to come and tell everyone that they had scented a kit.
That wouldn't happen, as they came back and didn't exactly say a word. They did say that a LeafClan cat came onto their territory.
A/N:This was fun to write! wew. This was not even close to the goal of words I wanted, but it's fine. I'm getting ready to write another chapter anyways rn