Hey people im kind of feeling angst or sad or depressed or sum thing right now so I decided to write poetry/angst story please when you review PLEASE tell me if this is a poem or not heheheh…. Wow im sad…. Yawn….. Sigh…. Sob… lol. I have never written a poem before but I know its not supposed to sound all rhymy like that shiz yeah. So if you review can ya please tell me if I wrote a poem or not if I did then I will just change this to 'angst/general' other than 'angst/poetry' if I feel like it this will be a chapter thingy so YEAH might mostly revolve around matt/mello L/light Near and I guess that's it….. my second story still new PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I OFFEND AT ALL. Okay so lets get on with the story

Disclaimer: I do not own death note but I do own a cookie. UMADBRO? STAYMAD

R E S P E C T

"They say that in the old times respect=fear so lets view from the old times and we will see how much I respect you then…" ~anonymous

I respected you when I first met you….

Lying in that pool of blood I realized exactly how much respect i had for you. It was a lot.

I respected you when we were told we had to room together

That's why I was silent

I respected you when we had a class together one of those office aide things. Alone

That's also why I was silent

I lived in respect for you every day

Until the pain stopped and we became friends. I respected you a little less then, because you showed me your soft side, I warmed up to that side, though it didn't last for long.

I respected you like never before

When I fell in love with you

Oh but the time I respected you the greatest was when I told you

Then I was expecting either a yes or no or a maybe, I got neither one of them

Instead you laughed then with as much venom in your voice to make even the strongest person cringe with hurt if it was directed towards them, you said

"Why would I ever like you, you're a stupid ginger with no soul not even worth loving by a girl so maybe that's why your gay"

Then you told your friends… though I respected myself when the bullying became to great and I smashed the window of our top floor dorm, ready to jump

I respected you when you caught me
persuaded me not to... but since i know that would hurt you alot but not enough

so that night i got all my stuff left a note to the staff and left

though the note i left to you. the note you are reading now... it explains what i felt then

what i feel now.. its entirely different

want to know what i feel right now? just one word.
Hate.
Yes Mello, i hate you , i wished you had never come into my life and hurt me like you did
The physical pain was much Less
I can understand why you always lost to near, the true sucsessor
You are a self-centered vain little blonde Ass that you cant even respect a freind enough even if they tell feelings for you or when they try to commit suicide. i wouldve stayed if it wasnt for you going off and telling your freinds what i tried to do again, it became too much i want to let the world know what you did mihael keehl. yeah i know your name, sure you never told me but i swear the next time i hear that you have gotten into trouble with the cops and they dont know your information i will tell your name... or maybe even send your name and picture to kira to finish you off. right now while you are reading this maybe the entire school will be reading this. i made copies retard, want to know why everyone's reading this now. i rigged your alarmclock i did everything inmypower to ruin you to show to monster you really are...

mello i wont see you in hell because that is exactly where you are going

~Matt