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So my heart just broke. I just watched Jane's heart get trampled on ten minutes ago so I wrote this. At the end of any season finale it's like I'm channeling their feelings and energy once it's over. Jeez I hate being emotional. I'm pretty sure I almost cried just watching it. But anyway here's a short one shot before I write my full blown story on the aftermath of the finale. I wouls start it now but, I'm exhausted.
Enjoy.
Still Beating Heart
Fruit snacks.
I was standing there watching Billy make out with Zoe on stage and that's all I could think about. It was the first thing Billy ever offered me.
Fruit snacks.
It was kindergarten.
I had walked over to him because he looked lonely.
I sat down and said hi, talking a mile a minute as always.
After he gave me a blank stare he moved the fruit snacks in front of me.
I took one, giving him the biggest smile I could possibly give.
My eyes teared up at the thought of it all.
Billy was mine and now...he wasn't.
He was wrapped around another girl.
He had slept with her and was more happy than he ever was with LuLu...and with me.
And here I was gazing, tears beginning to cloud my eyes.
Here I was more than sure that I was totally in love with my best friend.
The play ended and I kept it together.
I plastered on a smile, told him he was great, mentally backing towards the exit.
He hugs me and I feel dead inside.
It's like he's saying goodbye without actually saying it or making a wish that can't possibly come true.
He squeezes tighter and my heart breaks at the look in his eyes when he pulls away.
For a split moment I see the Billy that belongs to me but, in a flash he dissappears as he turns and walks toward Zoe.
The one constant in my life was soon to be gone and he didnt even know it.
One last glance he sent my way and I crumbled into peices, not caring if the earth rose up and swallowed me whole.
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