Title:
Author:
SarahE-mail:
sajo_morningstar@angelfire.comRating:
PG-13Disclaimer:
I do not own any of the characters in this story. Like wise I do not own any of the songs used; however Lifehouse does own them. They are off the album No Name Face.Summary:
M/L fic that takes place after VLVCategory:
M/LAuthor's note:
It jumps around from 1st person to 3rd person and might be confusing, but bare with me, it will make sense in the end. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know what you think.^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
I entered my room, shut the door and flopped down on my bed. With out looking I reached over and grabbed the remote for my stereo and pressed shuffle, not caring what c.d. it was. This had literally been the day from hell. After Michael, Isabel, Tess, Alex, Maria, Kyle, Liz, and I had returned from our "vacation" in Las Vegas Isabel and I had endured the longest, loudest, and most tear filled lecture of our life from our parents. When Sheriff Valenti called our parents they were furious. When Isabel and I were finally been sent to our rooms a few minutes ago and I have never been more relieved to be grounded.
I kicked off my shoes and let the music of Lifehouse start flowing into my head as I started to recall the events of the weekend. The lyrics to "Somewhere in Between" started to make more sense then any of my present thoughts.
I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, I'll have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
No matter how hard I try, I can't stop thinking about Liz. More than just Liz, what I saw. Her and I, married, it wasn't true but when I saw it, it felt like it was meant to be. God I wish it were true. I know in my heart it is meant to be, or at least that it had been meant to be at one time.
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
I know there's something Liz wasn't telling me. Last night when we were dancing I felt her about to tell me, but the song ended. I don't want to push, but I want to know what she's hiding. If I say anything I would risk pushing her away again.
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
I have to know what's going on. But I can't pry. Liz and I have barely begun to re-build our friendship and I won't ruin that for the world. No matter how much the curiosity is killing me, I can't ask. What did I see? God, it felt so real, but it wasn't.
Cuz I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
I have to know! I jump up and grabbed my jacket and am out the window before I could think twice. I have to take a chance and find out what was going on.
Before I know it I'm was at Liz's and climbing up the fire escape. Above I heard her music playing, it was the same song I had just been listening to…
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Part 2
*Earlier that evening*
I closed my bedroom door and turned my stereo on shuffle as I made my way to change into my pajamas. When I got home my parents didn't say a word, just sent me to my room. I'm so exhausted, yet my mind is racing.
I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, I'll have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
I'm sitting here listening to the words of "Somewhere in Between" and it's like the song was written for me. God! I want to tell Max everything; and I almost did! I can't believe what he saw! Did he really see it? He had to… how else could he have known. He saw us. I know I changed the future, I mean he's gone so we must have, but I still wonder if there's a possibility we failed or merely delayed fate.
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
I have to figure this out. I wish more than anything he was here to help. But I'm glad he's not. HOW COULD THIS BE?
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
May be if I could just fall asleep and wait till tomorrow to think about it. Yea right! Who am I kidding!
Cuz I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
Who? What? It's Max! He's coming over the side of the fire escape.
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Part 3
*Parts 1 and 2 intersect*
Max came over the wall as Liz came through the window. Both stood till for a moment; just staring.
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this
"Hi Max." Liz said finally.
"Hi Liz." Max replied. Without word both silently sat down on the lawn chair.
Cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cuz I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
The song finished and "Breathing" started.
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do
When I get there...
Take a breath and hold on tight
And spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind
Into the truth and I'm
Trying to identify the voices in my head
God, I which one's you
Let me feel one more time what it
Feels like to feel and
And break these calluses off of me one more time
'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah-ah...
I don't want a thing from you
I bet you're tired of me
Waiting for the scraps to fall off
Of your table to the ground...
'Cause I just wanna be here now...
'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...
'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...
Where I wanna be...
They both knew why Max was there, it had merely become a matter of who would say it.
"Max…" Liz started. She knew what she had to tell him. She just didn't know how to start.
"The song… that's how I feel. I want to know what ever it is you have to say, but don't feel like you have to say it. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. Just being here… with you… is enough." Max told her as he put his arm around her and gave her a quick squeeze.
"Max you deserve the truth… I'm just not sure you'll believe it." She began. A nod from him was all the reassurance she needed. "Just please let me tell you everything before you say anything o.k." And she told him everything. Everything about Future Max, the song, the wedding in Vegas, and the plot with Kyle.
"Wow." Max said after a long silence. "You have a lot of courage. I'm sorry I pushed you so much." As he finished his sentence a tear ran down his face.
"Max." Liz said as she walked over and wrapped her arms around him in a hug.
"No, you gave up everything for us, for the world. And all I could do was hate you and question you." He told as the tears streamed down his face and into her hair.
Find me here
Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the life
To my soul
You are my purpose
You are everything
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this
You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart
And you take my breath away
Would you take me in
Would you take me deeper now
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this
Cause you're all I want
You are all I need
You are everything
Everything
You are all I want
You are all I need
You are everything
Everything
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better
Any better than this
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this
"I promise you Liz, I'll fix this. I'll find a way to make sure Tess stays. Cause Liz I can't do this without you. I need you." He told her as they both cried and held each other.
"I need you too." Liz told him as the c.d. played on. "We will make this work."
THE END