AN: A friend of mine showed me this poem made by Sid Vicious to Nancy and I completely and absolutely loved it, so I had to write a fanfic about it.
Any mistakes are all made by me :P
And I'm sorry for the angsty/tragedy thingy going on here. But, I hope you like it.
Disclaimer: I don't own neither this poem nor the series. I'm a simple girl who just wants to have fun! =D
You are my little baby girl
We share all our fears
She's such a petite woman that I can't help to feel the urge to become her protector.
In the past few years we've opened up to the other, shared our most precious memories of our families. She's a good listener and I know I can count on her to be here whenever I need.
She laughs when she remembers the things her brothers did to their parents when she was still a child, before she was forced to grow up and take care of her brother, taking beatings of her father, but she's fought hard to be who she is today and I admire her.
I tell her about how I met my wife and the pain in her ass I was (still am, but on Lisbon's ass) or about the day my daughter was born.
Such joy to hold you in my arms
And kiss away all your tears
And of course, we end up crying and comforting the other, soothing away the pain from the memories we share.
I admit that it's hard for me to let go of my wedding band, because it serves for one purpose only: Remember what Red John did to my family.
She understands my thirst for revenge but she says she doesn't want to see me get killed trying to catch the murderer or end up in jail, because then, I would be already dead (inside) having no more purposes in my life to fulfil.
I know she harbours feelings for me and that the depth of those feelings terrifies her (she's already told me that). Maybe because of that, I love having her close, hugging her, comforting her, because it makes me a better man, but not the one she deserves. I would do anything to find the right man for her, the one who would be a giver and not a taker, who would do everything for her.
She deserves so much better than me.
But now you're gone, there's only the pain left
And nothing I can do about it
I told her to not go there.
I had Red John and she got in between.
I screamed as the serial killer plunged his knife in her abdomen, and I didn't hesitate in shooting that bastard.
I kneeled before her, tears leaving both our eyes, and I held her. Her last words were the proclamation of her love for me. I can't remember crying so much over anyone as I cried over her. She was gone. The loss had become too much and I couldn't handle losing the second love of my life.
The team parted and I was always in her apartment drinking and mourning over her death.
And I don't want to live this life anymore
If I can't live for you
I find her all her pills and take all of them, not caring if I die. I just want to be with her. Taking a swig from the bottle of scotch, I let myself get immersed by the darkness.
Life isn't the same without her here, and I can't take it anymore.
Sweet pain comes within my insides and takes me away of this world.
In my last breath I whisper my love for her.
To my beautiful baby girl
Our love will never die