This is a story about what would have happened if Edward never came back in New Moon. Written 2 years after The Cullens left Forks.

I do not own anything Twilight!

I sat up with a start as my alarm went off loudly next to my bed. I rolled over to turn off the annoying buzz thinking about the dream I had been having. I was dreaming about him, again. We were together and happy both 17 forever. I had to shake the thought out of my head. He was gone forever, and today, I was turning 20 years old. I groaned at the thought.

It had been 2 years since my 18th b-day. That was the night that changed my life forever. A night that as hard as I tried, I won't ever forget. I try hard not to think about the night Edwards brother Jasper tried to attack me after I got a paper cut opening a gift at the birthday party the Cullen's had thrown me. It was that night that Edward held me while I slept, thinking about right and wrong. It was when he decided he didn't want me any longer and decided to leave 2 days later.

I don't remember much of those few months that passed after the whole Cullen family left with not so much as a goodbye. I didn't just lose Edward, the love of my life, I also lost a family, a best friend, and a future I wanted more than anything. The loss of all of that, had left me catatonic. It wasn't till Charlie got me to hang out with Jacob Black that I snapped out of it, somewhat. I was left with a huge hole in my heart.

Jacob and I became best friends fast. I spent all of my time with him down in his make shift garage in LaPush. Jacob became my own personal sun. He made me happy. I grew to love Jacob. Never the way I could love Edward, but I could see a life with Jacob, a future. Even after I found out that Jacob became a werewolf, It didn't change how I felt for him. We had become very close. Closer than I thought I could ever be with someone besides Edward.

After about 6 months with Jacob, we became a couple. It was never the same as it had been with Edward, and I didn't want it to be, But it was enough and I was happy. I graduated high school and started classes at Peninsula Community College. I also did secretarial work for my dad down at the police station part time.

With all that and spending as much time with Jacob as I could, it kept me busy. Busy enough not to think of my past and think of Edward. But he was always there, in the back of my mind, in my dreams. I even thought I saw a glimpse of his bronze hair in the forest outside my house. Of course I was just imagining it. Edward was off somewhere with his distractions as he called it. He didn't love me anymore. He told me that the day he left. Of course I would always love him.

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I was in my bedroom getting dressed for the day, when my phone vibrated on the night stand next to my bed.

I flipped it open and saw a new text message from Jacob.

Happy Birthday Bells! I love you and can't wait to see you tonight for your party! Meet me at first beach by the fire pit by five o'clock!

I flipped my phone shut and groaned at the thought of a party for my birthday. I hated to be the center of attention. With my luck I will trip and fall right into the fire pit. Plus if I had it my way, I would never celebrate another birthday again. It's too painful. But Jacob insisted. Said it would be good for me. I needed to move past everything that still hurt me.

I finished getting dressed and ran downstairs to have a quick breakfast before I had to be at school. Charlie was sitting at the kitchen table reading the paper and drinking a cup of coffee.

"Happy Birthday Bells!" He said enthusiastically.

"Thanks dad." I pulled out the box of pop tarts and tossed two into the toaster.

"So are you looking forward to your party tonight with Jake and all your friends?" He asked while I poured myself some juice and sat down next to him at the table.

"Spending time with Jacob and the rest of the gang yes, the party no. I hate parties and you know it. I don't know how you got so lucky to get out of going." I said taking a bite of my pop tart.

"Cause I have to work Bella, you know that. Besides, you don't want your old man there cramping your style." He laughed.

I snorted at that and popped the last of my pop tart in my mouth. I got up and gave Charlie a kiss on the cheek and started to head out.

"Hey Bella, have fun tonight. I know Jake put a lot of work into this party for you. Try to enjoy yourself."

"Yeah, ok dad. I will."

"I won't see you till tomorrow. I am working all night. If you need me just call." Charlie said then taking a sip of the coffee.

"Right Dad, I'll be fine. See you tomorrow." And with that I was out the door to my old red Chevy truck. Thankfully my boyfriend was a good mechanic. I have had little problems with the truck, I knew it wouldn't last forever, but Jake kept it tuned up for me and fixed things as needed.

Of course if something were to happen to my truck, I could always ride my motorcycle that Jake fixed up for me. He had one too and that was a past time of ours that was special. Us just riding around the roads of La Push.

Charlie had eventually figured it out. With all the hospital visits I was having he finally got it out of me. He threatened that I couldn't keep seeing Jake if I kept getting hurt while with him. He demanded to know why I was coming home with concussions and skinned arms. I finally gave in and told him. He was furious at first, but he saw that I enjoyed it and I really had gotten pretty good at it. So he bought me a helmet and riding jacket and made me swear to wear them. I was relieved to say the least that he didn't make me stop riding with Jake.

The day went very quickly and before I knew it I was on my way to LaPush. I was anxious to see Jake. He had been busy planning my party this last week, and I had been busy with school and work so we didn't see each other as much as I would have liked. When I went without seeing Jake for an extended amount of time I got cranky and irritable.

I parked my truck at the edge of the forest that led to First Beach and got out and trudged through the forest only tripping a few times on the way. I came out to the long stretch of beach. It was a sunny day in Forks for a change and unseasonably warm. The sun was setting low on the horizon and there was a slight breeze, but still comfortable.

"Happy Birthday Bella!" Quil said coming up to me and pulling me in for a big bear hug.

"Thanks" I squeaked. "Quil…Can't… Breath."

He let go of me and dragged me to the rest of the group. Everyone was there, Sam and Emily, Leah and Seth, Jared and Kim, Paul and Rachel, Embry, Quil and little Claire and Colin and Brady.

Everyone came up to me and gave me a hug and wished me happy birthday. For some reason though the person I wanted most wasn't there.

"Where is Jake?" I asked looking around the beach for him.

Everyone grew quiet and looked at each other.

"He is just finishing some stuff at the house. He will be here soon." Sam said.

"Yeah, have a seat Bella, relax, stay a while." Said Paul while patting the spot next to him.

I took a seat and the chatter picked up again. However I couldn't concentrate. Something was off. Everyone was acting weird, and why wasn't Jake here. He hated being away from me even more than I hated being away from him.

"So, Bella, do you have any special birthday wishes?" Seth asked me pulling me out of my own thoughts.

"No, not really, I'm just ready for another birthday to be done with." I said laughing.

I pushed a stray piece of hair behind my ear and looked up at Seth. That is when I saw them. Jake was walking towards us looking down at his feet. He was carrying a small square box wrapped in blue wrapping paper. Walking next to him was a girl I didn't recognize. At first I thought it was Jakes other sister Rebecca, but this girl looked too young and didn't really look like Rachael, her twin sister.

The girl kept looking at Jake, then back to the group scanning the faces till she met mine. Her eyes immediately dropped to the sand. She was beautiful. She had long dark brown hair with streaks of red highlights when the sun caught it just right. There was just a small amount of curl at the end of her thick hair that nearly reached her butt. Her eyes were shaped like almonds. They were very big and dark brown. She had perfect eye brows and her eye lashes were thick. Her nose was perfect and straight. Her lips were a shade of dusty rose and plump. She needed no makeup that was for sure. She was tall, thin and looked athletic. Her skin looked smooth and was russet color, but not as dark as Jacobs.

I got up from where I was sitting next to Paul and walked over to meet Jake. I wanted to know who the girl was standing next to him and why did she look so nervous.

"Hey Bella, Happy Birthday." Jake said as he pulled me in for a hug. I went to give him a deep kiss, but he just gave me a quick peck. That was weird, normally Jacob was all for PDA. More often than not I couldn't keep his hands off me.

"Thanks Jake. Who's this?" I asked taking his hand and looking at the pretty girl next to him.

He looked over to the girl and back at me nervously.

"Uh, this is Savannah, Colin's sister. She is visiting from college. She goes to USC in California. I told her she was more than welcome to come, I hope you don't mind." Jake said nervously.

"Hi Savannah, it is nice to meet you. Of course you are more than welcome to join us." I said as we reached the rest of the group.

She smiled shyly and looked back at Jake. Ok. I guess she is one for little words.

We sat down around the bonfire. The fire was warm and big. I still marveled at the colors of the blue's it turned from the driftwood. The flames danced, licking up to the night sky.

The sun had set and we were all hanging around eating the hot dogs we had cooked in the fire. There was a ton of food. I was sure with the packs appetite though, it would be all gone quickly.

Jake was acting really weird and didn't say much to me all night. Savannah sat next to him and Colin. The atmosphere seemed thick and a little awkward. I couldn't figure out what was up though. Jake stared at the fire most of the night.

I opened up my gifts from my friends even though I had demanded that they didn't get me anything. From Colin and Brady I got an ITunes gift card. Seth, Leah and Quil bought me The Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire DVD. I have a little crush on Cedric Diggory. Sam and Emily got me a gift card to the local book store, in which I was very grateful. I had read Wuthering Heights enough times I had it memorized and I wanted to expand my small book collection desperately. Jared, Kim, Paul, Rachel, and Embry all chipped in and got me a new blue IPOD. I was so excited. My current IPOD was pretty much full. I couldn't wait to get it home and load it with all my old songs and tons of new ones I had waiting on my ITunes.

"Ok Jake, it is your turn." I said holding out my hand. "I will try not to get too upset with you for getting me something."

I was actually kind of excited to see what he got me. Our relationship was getting pretty serious. Not quite marriage or anything but still enough to wonder what he would get me.

"Um Bella, I would like to give you this in private if that is ok?" He asked looking at me quickly then looking back to the fire.

"Yeah Jake that's fine, whatever you want." I said grabbing his hand. He was hesitant but kept his hand entwined with mine.

I wonder what it could be then. I couldn't fathom what he would want to give me in private and not in front of all our friends. I guess I would find out soon enough.

I blushed profusely when everyone sang happy birthday. Emily made the cake and of course it was delicious. The night started winding down and everyone started saying their goodbyes. I gave everyone a hug and thanked them for their generosity. Everyone was gone except me, Jake, Sam, Leah, Colin and his sister Savannah.

I had grabbed all my gifts and was looking around for Jake. I spotted him just down the beach a little ways talking to Savannah. I was about to walk over when I noticed the look in his eyes. They were sad, yet, filled with love and devotion. I was confused. I felt like I was intruding on their moment when I remembered that was My Jake. I looked over as Sam and Emily walked up to me.

"I hope you had a nice Birthday Bella." Sam said, his hand entwined with Emily's.

That is when it clicked. Jake was looking at Savannah the way Sam looks at Emily. The way Jared looks and Kim, the way Quil looks at Claire and the way Paul looks at Rebecca. Savannah wasn't just an old friend of Jakes. Jake had imprinted on her.

"No." Was all I managed to squeak. I dropped all of my birthday gifts at my feet.

At that moment Jake looked up at me. I looked him in the eye for 2 seconds before I turned and ran as fast as I could away from him. My already fragile heart broke. I now had two massive holes left by the two people who promised to love me forever and who swore they would never hurt me.

I tripped several times running back to my truck. My mind was a haze. I couldn't think straight, all I felt was pain and betrayal. I didn't hear the sound of the large feet running behind me. I barley even felt it when the warm strong hands grabbed me and stopped me from going further.

"Let me go!" I screamed. I couldn't even see who the person was through the tears and haze that covered my eyes.

"Bella, please I didn't mean for this to happen. I am sorry."

It was Jacob. The last person I wanted to see right now.

"Yeah whatever Jake, just leave me alone. I can't take this. I can't do this, not again. You of all people Jake, should know that my heart can't go through this again." I sobbed trying to pry away.

"I never wanted this to happen, Bella. I love you. I know I am supposed to protect you and not hurt you even more. I hate myself for this. I am sorry Bella, I am sorry for who I am."

I looked up to Jake who had tears streaming down his face.

"Yeah, well I guess that is what happens when you fall in love with the supernatural, they can't help who they are right, which makes it o.k. to break your heart. Now just let me go Jacob. I want to go home NOW!" I screamed and tried to wrench my arm away. It wouldn't budge.

"Bella, it isn't like I could help this. I can't control this. You know that. I tried to fight it but I couldn't. All I could think about was how this was going to break your heart. I don't want to hurt you Bella, but I don't know what to do. It just is so right with Savannah. When I saw her everything came to a screeching halt. I can't explain it. Everything just revolves around her, but Bella, that doesn't mean I don't love you. I do. It just isn't the same. I am sorry. Bella Please, I am sorry." Jacob said sinking to his knees and wrapping his massive arms around my waist.

"Stop, Jake! I can't hear this. Of all the days it had to be today. You know how hard my birthday is for me, but knowing I had you made it better and now, I have nothing. I have lost the two people who I loved the very most in my life almost exactly two years apart. Why did it have to be today?" I yelled shaking hysterically.

"I am sorry, this isn't how I wanted your birthday to be. I know how hard it is for you Bella. I know you still hurt over that Leech. I know you still cry over him, I can't understand it. I never said anything though, I just tried to be there for you. I knew you would always love him more than me, but I didn't care as long as you loved me. My biggest fear was that he would come back and take you away from me. I was afraid you were going to be the one to leave me. I never thought I would be the one hurting you. I am sorry." Jake said hugging me to his chest tighter.

I just wanted to run and never look back. I needed to escape, but Jacob was holding onto me too tight. I would probably have bruises tomorrow from it. Like I would care, I would be hurting a lot worse than some bruises. At least the bruises would disappear. This pain though, losing Jake would never disappear. I wished I could just disappear.

"Bella, please say something, anything. Tell me you hate me; tell my how much I suck. Please."

"Jake, I have to go now. You better get back to your soul mate or whatever it is you half breeds call it." Again, I tried to pull away. This time he let me. I started to turn to run to my truck and I saw Jake reach for me again.

"I love you Bella, please forgive me." He begged. He was still on the ground on his knees. He was bent over with his palms on the ground shaking. I wasn't sure if he was shaking cause he was trying not to phase or shaking from emotion. I didn't care.

"You know Jake, when Edward left me and broke my heart, I had you to comfort me and help heal me and piece me back together again. Now I don't even have you. What am I supposed to do? You broke my heart Jake whether you meant to or not, you did. There is no way you can fix this. Not this time. My wounds are too deep." I sobbed clutching my ribs trying to hold myself together.

"I never want to see you again Jacob. I just don't think I could stand it." With that I turned and ran to my truck as fast as I could trying not to trip on the way. I didn't care so much about the pain of falling rather than the pain of my heart bursting into a million pieces. I didn't want to be here any longer.

As I finally reached my truck, I heard a loud agonizing howl come from the trees I just exited.

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