I knew running away that day, would one day come back to bite me in the ass. because now I am on my way back to charming after 17 years. I don't know what I should expect going back, I know that I wont have open arms waiting for me. I don't know what's going to happen when they see what has happened to me. I'm not by no means the same girl who left all that time ago...I have become cold, filled with hate, all I see is red anymore. I have become a killer.. I am a monster...not just by my looks but everything about me has made me a monster. I just hope that going back there, that people will forget what I have done.. which I know will not happen. maybe they will understand what I did and forgive me.
But I know that is and will always be a long shot.. I use to be this sweet, happy, little girl until that night...the night that changed everything... those men and women turned me into this monster...they did this and the one who still breath shall pay for ruining my life. the scars on my body make me look that a monster, people are scared of me when they look at me...so I keep my face covered from everyone. my body is covered in bruises from head to toe. their always from fights or people trying to kill me. most of my scars are from people trying to kill me. I wont say I'm not beatable because everyone one is in someway but I am saying that I will not go down without a fight and if I'm going down so are they.
I have always kept my past to myself...no one knows anything about me unless I wish for them to know. I am a very private person. I have done and seen so many things that will make people wonder "how is she still alive?"...I'm still alive because of that things I have done. my body is covered in tattoos...both of my thighs are covered in smiley faces with each person I have killed initial's in them...because of the smiley faces people have either called me smiles, happy, or killer. I'm in the process of getting 20 more smiley faces added on me, but i need to find someone who does tattoos... maybe I will ask Gemma ... I am almost into charming I have reached the town's city limits.