And I Thought of You
Hey there... This will be a very brief free verse poem on Faramir's feelings towards his father, Steward of Gondor, Denethor. I don't know...something just quite touched me when in the Extended Version of 'The Two Towers', Denethor rejects Faramir's request to go the Council of Elrond in place of his brother Boromir. Dedicated to all my lovely reviewers!!! Please read, enjoy, and leave a beneficial review before you leave!!
Meggin
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We are in the middle of battle
Here I am
The scorching sun blaring down on us
On the army
The thick, suffocating armor strapped upon me
My helmet fastened securely around my head
The hilt of my sword clutched tightly in my right hand
The edge of the blade sharpened and ready to kill
Here I am
Sitting atop my horse
He stomps his hooves into the dirt
And snorts impatiently
I steer him to the right
And lead him to the very front of the battle
To the very front line
The bloodiest line of brave warriors
If you stood in that line
Most likely you would be crushed in an instant
And I went there
And who was on my mind,
But my father Denethor.
Of all people,
The person I hated
The person I loathed
Lingered in my thoughts
Clouded my mind and pushed away all others
Father, I thought of you
As those filthy orcs pulled back the strings of their bows
And aimed on us to fire
I thought of how you loved Boromir more than you loved me
I thought of how you always pushed me away
Left me on the very bottom of your list
Your own son?
I thought of how you thought me useless
Not good enough to go in my brother's stead to the strange Council in Rivendell
I thought of how every day of my life
I strove with every inch of strength that was inside of me
To be perfect for you
So that you would appreciate me
And smile at the good things I would do
But every great thing I manage to accomplish
You wave it away like it is a speck of dust
Just one smile father,
Just one nod of the head,
One "Well Done,"
Would mean so much to me.
Just one moment
If you would just see Faramir's quality
The young captain of Gondor
For just one moment
Would mean the world to me.
The arrows fly
And my eyes blur with tears
As I realize that we probably won't ever get to see each other again
That I would for sure be crushed by the iron hand of our mighty foes
"Do you wish now that our places had been exchanged?" I asked you.
...that I had died and Boromir had lived?"
You nodded your head.
Did you know that when I walked out of there
I was crying?
My vision is clouded by my coming sadness
Sadness because
I probably won't get to tell you
That I love you
Even though you don't love me
That I think of you
Even if you don't think of me
That there is still room in my heart
For you, Father.
Even though you probably have none left
For your own son.
It is the climax of the battle
And I raise my sword high above my head
And scream a shout of courage
The sunlight glints off my polished blade
And all I remember is charging
Charging towards my enemies with every bit of strength left inside of me
Every inch of my soul
And there was only one thought on my mind, Father
As I charged towards my death, towards my doom:
"Now do you appreciate me, Father? Am I good enough for you?
Am I perfect?"
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