I SHOULDN'T HAVE LET HER GO.

Before my Dad passed away he told me something that's stuck with me ever since. It wasn't something I listened to though, nor was it something I understood immediately. As I sit here wishing I had just listened to my old man, wishing I got it then and there. Do you want to know what he said to me?

"Emmy, you'll only get one great girl in your life. Sure you may find good girls, girls that make you happy. But they won't be that one great girl. You'll never forget her. I promise you that. Do whatever it is you can to keep that great girl, because you'll regret letting her walk away".

I remember just looking at him and seeing him deflate. You could see that he knew I wasn't getting it. I thought then that he was talking about Paige. He said it right after she flew off to California. Now, I can sit here and try to blame by Dad's terrible timing. But there's no real point. I misunderstood for too long. Now, I'm sitting here, in a church. I'm about to watch the great girl get married. To a person who isn't me.

I can't help but think how stupid I've been. I should have just told her all those years ago how I felt. I should have trusted her and listened to her. I should have believed that she'd changed for the better. I can see it now. She's grown into this amazing, kind, loving woman. I shouldn't have let her go.

I hear the church doors open and I rise with the rest of the room for the girl of my dreams to make her grand entrance. It wouldn't be an event unless there was that signature Ali entrance. She's always known how to make her presence known in the most magical ways. I can't bring myself to look up. I hear gasps and I hear whispers.

"Em, are you alright?" Hanna whispers in my ear. You would think Hanna would be focused on the bride, and her dress. It warms my heart slightly that she's thinking of me. "Em" she says warmly and I feel her hand touch the middle of my back in support.

At that I look up and see her. The great girl in the most exquisite dress I think I have ever seen. It was obviously made for only her to wear. Her blonde locks are cascading down her back dressed with the most beautiful flowers. She's radiant.

"I can't do this" I whisper. I felt my heart breaking. I remember this feeling all to well. I felt it when she disappeared. I felt it when I thought she was A. I felt it when she told me she was marrying someone else. But nothing can compare to this kind of heartbreak. It's happening in slow motion. I can feel every crack, every piece shattering. I've lost a lot in my time. But this is something in a whole different league.

I lock eyes with the girl I should be marrying and I can see her freeze. It's like she's trying to tell me something with her eyes. The moment passes, she looks ahead and makes her way to the alter.

I wipe a rogue tear away and slip quietly out of the church. Hold it together Fields, just make it home.

I get into my car with shaky hands. I feel like I'm going to be sick. I stop myself before I drive, and I take a few breaths. Not yet, not yet.

I make it to my mothers house and thank god that she's not home. I don't think I could stand that look of pity in her eyes. I rush into my house and fly up those familiar stairs.

I can't breathe. I can't get any air into my lungs.

I make it into my childhood bedroom, that hasn't changed a single bit.

I stand in the middle of the room and stop. Now.

This is when I let everything out. I let out a guttural moan and start crying as I drop to my knees. I don't fall to the ground though. "I've got you" I hear Hanna's voice in my ear and that's when I totally lose it. I burrow myself into her chest and I cry, and I sob. I have no idea how long I spend like that, it felt like a forever.

"Sweetie, you need to calm down. You need to breathe okay" she comforts as she strokes my head, rocking me back and forth gently.

I can feel myself slipping away, there are black spots clouding my vision as I try to focus on my best friend. "I shouldn't have let her go" I break out before I lose consciousness.

My Dad was right. You'll only ever have one great girl. I will never forget about her. And I will always regret this.

I shouldn't have let her go.

AUTHORS NOTE: This is a little something I had stuck in my head. It's something I experienced not too long ago. The only difference between me and Emily, I stayed and watched the whole thing. And it's something I don't think I'll be over for a really long time. Now I'm not to sure about making it more than just a simple one shot. It's a little heartbreaking, but I love this piece. Tell what you guys think. Would you like more one-shots like this? Maybe some happy ones? Angry ones? Sexy ones? Let me know!