Numb. That's all he felt.

Kaoru sat on the cold white tiled floor, he stared into nothing. His hands laid beside him not moving an inch. His heart kept a steady pace; every time it would beat it felt like someone was trying to rip it out. Lost in the train of thought he was oblivious to everything around him. Including the coldness from the cracked window in the restroom that was seeping inside.

His eyes drifted to the mirror where he saw his reflection, he studied himself and knew that his facial features weren't unique. He had an identical twin brother, so in a way he was staring at him. His heart tugged and he knew. He knew that he was losing him to a girl. Its not like he didn't see this coming, you could say that he expected his twin to at least talk about something other than her.

It was getting annoying have his twin; Hikaru speak of someone in a loving manner. Not like it bothered him speaking of someone else, it only made Kaoru feel uncomfortable. Which was probably due to the fact that all their lives that it was only them. Only them in their own world and someone had finally crossed the border. It made him feel uneasy knowing that their world had expanded. He accepted that it was no longer just them anymore.

Still, it's a painful process knowing that slowly and surely someone you love dearly was getting close to someone else. He saw it coming, he knew it was coming he just didn't want it to happen quite yet. He wasn't ready to give up his elder brother to Haruhi; the girl who came into their small world and could easily destroy it.

It annoyed him though, that his Hikaru had to fall for someone who wouldn't know a romantic gesture if it slapped her across the face. Only love that she knew was family and friends. Truthfully speaking, he loved her too just not in that way. Like Tamaki a friend of theirs; he pictured everyone like a big family. Tamaki as the father, Kyoya as the mother, Mori, Honey, Hikaru and Kaoru as the sons and Haruhi as the only daughter. He never wanted it to end but with each passing day they get closer to the end.

His train of thought broke when a gust of wind hit him in the back of the neck. It was gentle; it send chills down his back. He didn't appreciate the sudden cold front, especially for it to hit his body all at once. He shivered and stood up. It was his fault really, he chose to come to the restroom the reason was long forgotten.

He attempted to push the window down but to no avail. He let out a heavy sigh. The window never closed no matter how hard anyone tried. Yeah someone could come and fix it but it gave Kaoru a strange comfort that it never closed. Probably because it reminded him that he could just climb out of it and just run. That jumping through a window could change his life. Maybe that's why he came to the restroom.

He walked to the door and slowly turned the knob, he pulled it back seeing through a crack he could see his older brother sleeping peacefully. He crept out if the restroom silently, he turned his head so he could close it silently. When he heard a soft click he gave out a relief sigh.

"Kaoru?" a tired voice questioned breaking the silence in the night.

Kaoru jumped and felt electricity travel his spine when he heard his name being called. He slowly turned around seeing Hikaru rubbing his eyes tiredly.

"Is that you?" Hikaru yawned.

"UUUhhh...no...?" Kaoru answered hopeful that he wouldn't question. There was a long silence as if he was trying to let the words settle in.

"...Oh...okay..." the older twin muttered and laid back on his bed falling back into his slumber. Kaoru stared at his brother unimpressed how he could be easily convinced.

Deciding that it was indeed late and he should get some sleep he crept to his shared bed with Hikaru and slipped in. His back turned away from Hikaru, with a final sigh he closed his eyes and slowly started to slip into a dreamless sleep.

Next morning

Kaoru woke up with a yawn, he stretched in bed before swinging his legs on the side of the bed and jumped off.

"Good morning Kaoru!" A cheery voice said.

The younger twin shrieked in fright and whipped his head around to see his brother ready to go to school before him which was a surprise.

"Sorry I didn't wake you up," he apologized, "but you looked so cute while you slept I couldn't wake you!" he answered sheepishly with an embarrassed blush dusting his cheeks.

Kaoru blinked and just stared at him slowly his cheeks started to heat up.

"What's wrong Kaoru?" his twin asked glancing beside him. Kaoru narrowed his eyes at him, "Kaoru?"

He snapped out of his gaze, "Huh? Oh it's nothing..." He answered with clear confusion plastered in his eyes. It wouldn't admit that he was checking if he had a red face as badly as he did.

"Well you better get ready soon, it's almost time for school!" Hikaru grinned grabbing his bag.

"What?!" the younger brother screeched he looked at the clock to see it was indeed almost time, "Oh Hikaru! We're definitely going to be late!"

Hikaru merely gave him a devious smile, "Then you better hurry!" With that he bolted out the room leaving Kaoru scrambling in the room trying to find his clothes.

"HIKARU!"

At School

"Oh relax!" snickered Hikaru. Kaoru huffed and crossed his arms, "Aw don't pout Kaoru it was just a joke!"

"I was forced to walk into school wearing a girl's uniform!" he whined causing his older twin to burst out laughing.

"And it was absolutely hilarious! And that moment when you realize that your uniform was in your bag all along! HAHAHA!" Hikaru laughed loudly putting a hand on his head.

Kaoru kept pouting and his stance as he watched him bawl with laughter. The end of his lips tugged slightly upward. He knew that he couldn't stay upset with him and apparently so did his twin since he swung an arm around his shoulder then looked at him with a wide smile.

Soon he was laughing alongside his brother while some people in their class gave them odd looks. They ignored them because they didn't care what they thought at least they were having fun. The door opened from the class room and appeared Haruhi.

"What's so funny?" she questioned the twins.

Kaoru looked at the girl who entered their world, his face fell a bit but it was so subtle no one even noticed. Not even Hikaru.

"Oh Haruhi! You really should've been here!" Hikaru laughed while patting Kaoru's back, "Kaoru here got a trip to girly lane!"

At that point Kaoru zoned out he knew it wouldn't be long until his brother would be taken away from him by Haruhi. He could walk away right now and no one would notice. It was as if the moment she came he turned invisible. He would bet that he could be killed in the same room as the both of them and his brother won't notice until Haruhi left. Maybe he was just overreacting but sometimes it just felt like that.

Kaoru walked to his desk still hearing his brother laughing alongside with his crush. It pained him seeing that he could still have fun without him. Yeah there was always the club but lately it seemed that he spent more time with Haruhi than him. When he stand there alone it felt like half of him was gone.

He knows he shouldn't but he still did; he glanced at his brother and the thief. He quickly erased the thought from his mind Haruhi wasn't a thief but deep inside of him he couldn't help but feel anger towards her. So he decided to call her the, 'Unintentional Thief'.

The bell rang signaling that class has started. The younger twin let out a deep sigh knowing that it was a long day of loneliness ahead of him.

At The Club

Kaoru walked towards the music room by himself which was a very rare scene. He grabbed the door handle, his hand tighten and he tugged it backwards. He walked in with his right hand stuffed his pocket while his other hand held on the strap of his bag that rested on his shoulder.

"Sorry I'm late," he apologized kicking his shoe on the ground making it feel more comfortable for his foot. He felt a soft breeze hit him he looked up to see his friends on the red love couch.

"Welcome back princess," greeted the entire club in unison.

Silence filled the room as everyone took in what had just happened. Kaoru stared at them with wide eyes he felt his lips tugged upward no matter how hard he desperately tried to keep the smile contained. He held back his laughter but was failing miserably. In a weak attempt he put a hand over his mouth but it was no use once he saw everyone's expressions after realizing what they had just said to him.

Kaoru burstered out laughing, tears were streaming down his face and he clutched onto his stomach.

"I-I can't...b-bre-breath!" he choked out.

"That wasn't meant for you Kaoru!" Tamaki shouted at him embarrassed that he said those lines to his "son".

"Kaoru w-we thought you were a cu-customer!" stuttered Haruhi trying to save herself embarrassment by bringing out the reason.

"Kaoru where were you?" Honey asked clutching onto his bunny; Usa-chan. Mori put a hand on top of the smaller boy's head while giving Kaoru a soft glare.

"You're late," stated Kyoya adjusting his glasses, ignoring Tamaki who was trying to get him to tell Kaoru to stop being mean.

"Hahaha! I-I'm s-sorry!" Kaoru apologized between chuckles, "I had to d-d-do something at t-the l-library!"

"Whatever just get ready for the customers!" Kyoya stated jotting a few more things down in his notepad. Kaoru merely nodded trying to stop himself from laughing again and walked further in. He saw Hikaru from a distance in the shadows. Kaoru ran up towards him happily, he wanted to spend as much time with him as possible before Haruhi came. When he got closer he could see that his hair was covering his eyes and he had clutched fists.

"Hikaru are you alright?" the younger twin asked worrisome.

"N-No," he choked out, "I can't hold back my feelings anymore!" Kaoru stared at him confused by his words but it made his heart race.

"What feelings?" he asked hesitantly not sure if he wanted the answer

"I love you!" Hikaru confessed with a bright blush plastered on his face, "I love you more than just a friend!"

Kaoru frozen in place, his heart started to pick up the pace and his face heated up.

"Will you go out with me?"

Kaoru's cheeks ignited and his heart felt like it was going to jump out. Did his twin brother just ask him to be his boyfriend?!

Hello, I'm fairly new to this fandom so forgive me I did horrible or made them OOC. And just bear with me throughout the fanfiction but I'm telling you this right now...I am VERY late when it comes to updating. I know shot me but don't pull the trigger just yet. You just gotta hang on.

And I know that there is a lot of fanfiction about this scenario but I couldn't help myself. It was calling my name, mostly because I have been in a similar situation so I think I can grasp the pain. And be prepared because there is LOTS of heartache. Sorry Kaoru for what I'm making you go through.