Alright, so. This is my first real attempt at starting "Can't You See?" over again. I'm leaving it up for all to see but I don't think I'll be finishing it. Instead, I'm going to try and bring the original plot forward in this new, and hopefully better, fic. I want to try and take things slower, and with more grace. I've improved since that first story and I wanna show you guys that. So...here goes nothing.

**Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Kisses and never claimed to, because if I did, Trevor would've admitted his undying love for Raven and the two would've skipped off into a neon sunset together. So, don't sue the fangirl, please.**

No offense to Alexander x Raven fans, but it's wayy too predictable to put the two Goth kiddies together. "You're dark, I'm dark, so I love you. But oh wait, I'm a vampire so I can't get too close to you because, well, then I might just kill you." - That's got little depth and it's starting to get really, reallyy annoying.

So! Read on, Traven fans, read on.

(Rated M just to be safe..)

I always thought I was destined to be with someone different, someone strange, like me. Someone who didn't mind dancing in the dark and shrinking away from the light of the sun. And when I finally met that someone, fell so incredibly and totally in love with them, I realized something: I'd grown up, grown out of my childish fantasies of vampire kisses and love bites. I wanted something real, someone real. But of course, there were some complications in this little epiphany of mine. It took a break-up, a break-down, a misunderstanding, and a huge one-eighty.

People are going to talk about it, that's all they ever do in this sleepy little town. But I want to get my version in first, and then the gossip girls can go back to kissing up and kissing ass.

Because this is how it happened and the way it happened, with a little embellishment thrown in, just for the fun of it.

xxx

His absence left an endless void where my heart should have been, filled with blank space and blood that had nowhere left to go. The whole thing was horribly cliché and said countless times by all the other damsels in distress. So where was my knight when I really needed help killing off my fire-breathing-demons?

Where are you, Alex? Where the hell are you?

I was out of the sun by now but the glare of it left stars dancing across my vision. Becky was nowhere to be found and I didn't have the heart to ruin her good-morning kisses with Matt. But really, I just didn't want to see her so hopelessly in love when I was so ridiculously alone. I pushed past clusters of the other kids in the hall in a half-hearted attempt to make it to first period on time. I heard the vicious whispers, tried my best to ignore the hard stares. Why should I give a shit about what people said? Just because I'd been losing sleep and a bunch of weight did not mean I'd turned to drugs. Sometimes I wanted to, sometimes I needed something to numb the pain.

And I wouldn't have to do anything about it if I could just make it through half the day without seeing-

"Trevor," I offered a pretty smile and a three-second warning for him to move. I was so not in the mood, today.

When he didn't budge I shoved him back against the locker so fast, Peter Parker and all his spidey-senses would've been jealous.

"Never knew you wanted me that much, babe," He smirked down at me and the gleam of the flourescents made his eyes that much greener, so much more vibrant than my own.

"Trev, honey, do we really have to do this thing right now?"

I could feel about twenty pairs of eyes drilling holes into the back of my head. The girls at my school were too stupid for guns, but I'm sure anyone could point, aim and shoot.

"Of course we do, sweets. Sit back, relax, and watch the show," The smirk only grew wider, twisting that gorgeous face into the one I'd always remembered, always hated. He leaned down to whisper, "Cause you know the freaks bring the best crowds,"

"Don't you have something else to do? Like kick a soccer ball around or fuck a cheerleader?"

"Well," His breath tickled my ear as every female in the hall glared daggers, "I was thinking about doing you after school, but-"

The guy was so close that I found myself backing up, away from him. We'd drawn a crowd now, rapt with attention as my shoulder blades grazed against a cold metal lock.

"I wouldn't mind starting now,"

My mind was racing at the speed of light and sound, praying that every superhero in the known universe would come whisk me away, back into the comic books. I went weak in the knees and begged for just one in particular, that just this once, he'd pull through for me.

"You like that, Monster Girl?" Trevor had his hands on either side of my body now, and it made me shiver.

"I wonder if Monster Boy ever makes you pant this hard," I swear to God and all that is holy, I felt his knee slide between my legs for just a second. And for just a fraction of a second, there was this crazy heat between us as we looked into each other's eyes. Me, glaring, and him, staring. And by that point, I was clenching my fist and smiling coy.

"Trevor?" I breathed, silky sweet and low.

"Yes, Raven?" His voice was so deep, you'd think we were off in the bushes, figuring out how our pieces fit together.

"I want you to remember this, baby," I murmured, leaning so close I could smell a hint of cologne on him.

"Oh, I will, don't you worry," He whispered.

I punched him right in the nose and stalked off to homeroom as the blood glistened off my knuckles and a forgotten spider ring. The whispers just grew louder and louder as I walked away, swirling around me like a storm cloud that'd grow into a violent hurricane by the end of the day.

He was the only one I saw, in that haze. And for the first time in a long time, I think he saw me, too.

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