He should have been happy with the way he turned out and, to all that asked, he was happy. Of course he would be, he always ranted about beating God and becoming a God, so turning out the way he did, presenting as an Alpha, that makes him strong right? Being an Alpha meant being closer to being a God right?
No.
Being an Alpha was the farthest thing from being a God in his eyes. And he hated it.
Not that he would ever tell anyone he was unhappy as an Alpha. He was to macho, to manly, and just flat out had to much pride to show how upset he really was inside over what his nature ended up being. Besides, even in today's society, just about everything was dominated by Alphas.
Because that's what being an Alpha meant.
To dominate.
To be in control of everything and everything.
To have power.
And yet… He just didn't understand why society viewed Alphas that way. Why Omegas were viewed as weak, or Betas were average.
It just didn't make sense.
He could care less how society viewed him, if he was being honest.
He was Black Star. A God. The ultimate assassin.
Why should he care how anyone viewed him if he knew who he was?
Not that he could change things.
He was an Alpha, a dominate figure.
He wouldn't complain that people viewed him as strong, but he would be upset over how they viewed him as strong only due to his nature.
In his opinion Omegas are the stronger nature because they have to work to be viewed as such.
They had to have confidence already built in.
Not to mention, regardless of first gender, Omegas could create life. Get pregnant, give birth.
That was about as close to God as it gets in his opinion.
And he wanted that.
It was a want he couldn't have, but he still wanted it.
But he was an Alpha, the doctor had told him this morning during his medical exam.
If he was the only one in the room he might have cried, because he wanted to be an Omega so bad!
But he was an Alpha, and if he wished to be an Omega he would be viewed as a weak little freak.
Nobody, but little girls maybe, ever wanted to be an Omega.
Second gender, the nature you develop, it can't be changed with surgery like first gender can, and he had no problem with being male. He just didn't want to be an Alpha.
So then what did he do about it? Nothing.
There was nothing he could do.
So he pouted when he was alone, and threw himself deeper into his training to take his mind off of it.
He was an Alpha male, who wanted to be an Omega. If anyone found out he wasn't happy as an Alpha, and questioned why he would ever want to be an Omega he would tell them…
Well, he would just tell them it was because he's Black Star and he's awesome.
It was an answer good enough for him, so it should be good enough for everyone else as well.
Because it was the only answer he had...
So, another tacky little thing I wrote yet liked enough to put up. I had to write this on my google docs app on my phone because my laptops busted, and I borrowed my moms laptop to put it up. So forgive me if you see any mistakes, I'm not use to writing like this.
Anyway, hope you liked it. Thanks for reading, and feed back is always welcome.