She felt better than she had in weeks, she couldn't quite recall why she felt so bad but she knew it was because of something she had done.
Soon she was awoken from her peaceful sleep and the reality of her life hit her. She suddenly remembered,She felt like her heart had been ripped out of her body and all that was left was an empty shell of Liz Parker. Liz parker A+ student with no heart, no soul and no Max Evans.
She couldn't bare to even look at him anymore, the pain in his eyes was just more than she could handle. She had caused that pain and she could never forgive herself for that. She didn't regret doing what she had done,it was the only thing she could do, but she just wished there was some way to have done it without shattering their lives.
Her heart was broken two weeks ago when she realised that love was not the most important thing and that it couldn't conquer everything. Her whole world fell apart the day she broke Max Evans heart and there was no way that anyone could ever put it back together again.
Thankfully she had two of the greatest friends in the whole world that she shared the truth with. No one else knew and that is the way it had to stay. Maria had freaked when she 1st found out but she accepted that Liz was telling the truth instantly, Alex on the other hand wasn't so easy to convince. Although after a while he realised that there was no way the rumours were true and if he believed in aliens why shouldn't he believe in time travel too? They were the best friends she could ever ask for. She didn't know how she would manage to stay sane without them in her life. Maria could make her laugh when she wanted to cry and Alex could make her feel safe when it felt like the whole world was out to get her.
She didn't know how she'd surviced these two weeks without Max. It was almost bareable before, them being apart but understanding he still loved her. Now that she'd ripped his heart out the lack of hope was just crippling.
Maria hated the way people talked about her, gossip spreading around school like wildfire of Liz Parkers' wild sexual adventures. She didn't listen, didn't even really care.
She knew the truth and besides words didn't hurt her. It was just Max that could hurt her, those eyes that had been her everything were closed to her now. She could still feel him, their connection lingering in the back of her mind. It was like a gift and a punishment. She didn't know how she could carry on anymore.
Things seemed to be changing too fast. She couldn't deny that the way Tess touched Max didn't make her want to vomit. She couldn't hide the stab of pain when she saw him laugh at something she'd said. Maybe what future Max wanted all along was for her to go insane? Maybe she could run away and have herself committed somewhere to ride out the pain this was causing?
"Liz babe shift starts in half an hour." Maria mumbled from her bed on the floor. She's taken it upon herself to become her official watch person. Making sure she didn't fall apart, or just lose herself in all this mess. Maria had been (not so subtly) reminding her that she did have a life outside of Max land, and she still had friends who needed her. Liz had avoided pointing out that because of her their friendship group had dwindled away to half it's size. Isabelle and Tess were obviously team Max now and Michael,
who knew what was going on with Michael, but he wasn't hanging out with Maria anymore at lunch. She felt bad. Alex had been struggling to split his time between Isabelle and his friends. Michael and Maria were strained and she...well she had just been sucked into a black whole and couldn't find her way out.
"Ok I've got a plan, if the pod squad come in I will serve them ok? That way you don't have to speak to any of them. If anyone asks I'll just say we switched sections k?"
She nodded in agreement but didn't really care. Sometimes she liked just being close to him. She sat behind him in the library last week, he didn't know she was there. She just sat there and just...felt him.
"Liz?" Liz looked out from under her duvet and peered at her friend. "I think maybe, soon it might get better.I can see sometimes that it hurts you so much you don't even want to breathe. I can see how the idea of him being with Tess is like a knife being stabbed in your chest. It will get better, it has too, because I don't know how anyone could go on living that way."
*Ok guys I know the story is maybe not going into as much detail as it should at the moment but that is because I've been thinking about the plot for quite a while and I really want you to get to the good bits, also I have a feeling that this story is going to be quite long but to say time I may just finish it on a cliff hanger skip a few years and the do a sequel. All feedback is welcome, as I would love to know what you all think of my 1st complete fanfic*
*I stumbled accross this story recently and realised not only did I publish it in a poor state but it didn't have a lot of the content it needed, hence I've done some editing and decided on a report- enjoy!*