Life Didn't Wait Around
Not long ago, I held her cold hands in mine as she lay there taking her last breaths in. She told me not to worry and that even if it took her centuries to come back and find me that she would pursue the journey. A long journey that will take her back to her home, in my arms. I had always naively thought that she would always be here and that nothing would tear us apart, but I never noticed her becoming so fragile in time. We spent a short time together and to me it will never be enough. Her being human never made me think twice about old age. Yet, this was not the case. Her vulnerability, as a human, left her with a deadly disease that would take her slowly away from me. We had spent our days with as much love as any other day and I will never be sorry for that, but I will never forgive myself for not thinking of our future.
I had a dream that we would last a lifetime together and we could somehow grow old together, but it just seemed as though all that faded away, when I received a call the day that I would last see her. She had collapsed and said she was fine, but knowing better, I knew she would always stand tall and be stubborn until the end. I raced back home to find that she was in bed and hadn't woken up. She was fading away from me slowly and I knew it. Oh, how I wish I could have gone back in time and changed all I did. Maybe if I had stayed home that day she had a fever or canceled my meetings and at lunch with her the days she asked, then this would have never happened.
I feel so foolish to actually believe that she could have lived on a life with me. She had once told me to never be afraid of love, but at that moment I was very afraid. I was afraid that if she left me my life would end and that I couldn't continue living without her. She was my hope, my life, my everything. She was my soul and if she were to leave what would become of me. I loved her and I will always love her, but it seems that life didn't wait around for our love to last. She told me that life has granted the most happiness in her life. Being with me was all she wanted and it granted her that wish.
When those precious words came out of her mouth, I held on tighter then I have ever held on before. I wasn't going to lose her, yet here she was telling me that it was okay if she left. I wouldn't stand for it. I will never let her say that she was happy for herself. What about me? What about my cherished love for her? I loved her more than life itself and as she looked me in the eye with a broken spirit, it broke my heart. I told her to wait for me. I confessed my undying love to her for the last time, before her hands went limp and her eyes left a trail of her last tears.
I sat for hours refusing to let go of her hands, but when I finally did, I had the determination to find her again even if it were in another life. I wasn't going to leave unsatisfied with my life without her. If life didn't wait around for our love, then it will have to wait around for our after life. No matter what I do I will find her and welcome her back into my warm arms as though nothing has ever gone between us. I won't let this simple obstacle to come in our way.
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