1x17 Lily & Rufus One-Shot
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B, B, B, B, Bart cell…Oh My God what am I doing, I need to get out of
here, I cannot spend the last few hours of today at a Lincoln Hawk
concert, I'm supposed to be with Bart were getting married tomorrow.
God tomorrow…No it's final I'm leaving right now….
Are you ever going to see everything you mean to me?
I'm
trying really hard to believe
Every time you walk away or run away
You
take a piece of me with you there
Damn it just what I was afraid would happen; well I could maybe just
stay for a few minutes, or seconds just a little peek. I closed my cell Bart
could wait I mean I was marring him tomorrow, wasn't that enough?
Every time you walk away or run away
You
take a piece of me with you there
I walked slowly and cautiously toward the stage, I could hear his voice
more clearly now; still as rough yet as beautiful as it was so many years
ago and I honestly didn't think that I would ever hear it again.
Come back to me
Smile
and you'll make my life complete
I stood there staring up at him, afraid to look away because I mightn't
see him again after tomorrow or at least I shouldn't see him again after
tomorrow. It wouldn't be the least bit fair on Bart I was already hear now
when I should be there with him and I would fell even more guilty doing it
once we were married. He spotted me then and the worried that I didn't
want anyone to ever know I had just disappeared.
Every time you walk away or run away
You
take a piece of me with you there
He was singing to me know. Even though I already knew the song was
about me it made it that much harder to want to leave, to 'walk away'
when he was looking right at me. Then i finally had the realization that I
could sing the exact words back to him with all my heart. I couldn't help
but think that with the amount of times we had 'walked away' from each
other we probably had half of the other everywhere we went.
Every time you walk away or run away
You take a piece of me with you there
I started to turn away to leave but I couldn't help but smile softly at him
before I did and I couldn't help but notice the sadness cloud his eyes
when he saw me turn around. I REALLY needed to leave now, before I ran
back in there just for the sake of being in there; in there, with him.
Every time you walk away or run away
You
take a piece of me with you there
I was finally out of there and I sighed deeply how could seeing him even if
it was only foe a few minutes have such an effect on me even after all
these years? How could on glance make everything so much harder? And
then all of a sudden he was right there in front of me. I tried to get past
him bit he wouldn't let me. There was something in his eyes though and I
wasn't sure what. Love? Lust? Need? Want? Determination?
'Get out of my way, Rufus.'
My eyes were begging him to obey but he didn't. He knew as well as I did
that I just couldn't resist him, he was Rufus Humphrey after all.
'No.'
I moved to get passed him again and again he didn't let me.
'Get out of my way.'
My voice wasn't as strong this time and my eyes betraying me, this time
begging him to disobey.
'No.'
He said it more confidently this time as he looked me dead straight in the
eyes. I tilted my head to the side a little still never braking eye contact
with him and before my mind could comprehend what my body was doing I
was kissing Rufus Humphrey and he was kissing me.
It happened so quickly and everything flooded into my mind so quickly Eleanor's
party, Allison at Thanksgiving, The debutante ball, his message at Christmas,
Not running away with him, him seeing me in the wedding dress, watching him
sing to me after so many years.
I didn't just miss Rufus Humphrey I am and I don't think I ever stopped being,
in love with him.