Chapter One
"Danny!" Flack called down the hall disrupting everyone, like usual. "Wait up."
"What do you want Flack?" Danny asked as he continued his way towards the locker room. When he didn't answer him, Danny gave him a look and saw that Flack had something to say, and he didn't want to say it. "Flack! What's up?"
"Uh…" Flack started as he watched Danny walk over to his locker, open it and turn back to look at him. "I drew the short straw, so I got stuck with having to tell ya this."
"Tell me what?" Danny asked annoyed as he put his piece in his locker, grabbed his coat and turn to leave.
"Well you know…she left…like two years ago…'cause ya know…ya practically made her…and…" Danny cut his mumbling off.
"Flack! English man alright?" Danny said then giving him the look to continue. Danny had only heard a bit of what Flack said and from what he heard he knew it was about Lindsay, he could tell just by the way Flack refused to look him in the eyes and didn't know what to say because he was afraid he might set Danny off.
"She's coming back, being forced actually, Gerard's making her come back, something about something, I dunno." Flack finished and stared at Danny trying to gage his reaction.
"Who Flack? I need to hear you say it." Danny said as he stepped closer to his best friend.
"Lindsay." Flack said then got cocky and added "better known as Montana…to you at least."
"Fuck!" Danny groaned and threw his jacket against the locker. Flack narrowed his eyes at Danny in confusion; Flack hadn't even gotten to the worst part yet.
"Danno, what the hell?" Flack asked as he watched Danny go pick his jacket back up.
"When?" Danny asked as he went to stand back in front of Flack.
"Not tomorrow, the day after." Flack said while signaling with his hands.
"What am I suppose to do? Act normal?" Danny asked Flack as he took a seat on the edge of the bench and put his head in his hands.
"Uh…as your friend, my advice is to at least clue her in on why you were a total ass and broke her into two and maybe you two could be whatever." Flack said as he connected eyes with Danny. "As her friend, dude just leave her alone, I think you've done enough damage already."
"That's supposed to help me?" Danny asked as he stood up to leave.
"It's up to you, you both have the same shift, so I'm sure you'll figure something out." Flack said as he patted Danny on the back then turned and left.
New York Apartment
"So you're all moved in…again." Bonnie said as she sat down on the couch next to Lindsay.
"Ha Ha." Lindsay said which was followed up by a yawn.
"What's it gonna be like to see him again?" Bonnie asked curiously as she turned her gaze from the ceiling to Lindsay.
"I see him everyday." Was her response.
"No, I mean really see him, like in person." Bonnie continued she knew her best friend, and she knew her best was still in love with Danny Messer and still hurting because of him too.
"I dunno. It's going to be hard to restrain myself from strangling him." Lindsay said but then followed with "or kissing him."
Bonnie couldn't help but laugh out loud, sometimes Lindsay was too much. As her laughing continued Lindsay tried to shush her, but that didn't work.
"Ma-ma." Bonnie immediately stopped when she heard the sound of the little boy's voice. She winced and said she was sorry as Lindsay got up to retrieve her son. Lindsay entered the room and couldn't help but smile as she saw her son standing in his crib against the railing waiting to get out. "Mama" he said excitedly as he clapped his hands together.
"Hey baby, did you have a good nap?" she asked as she picked him up and placed him on her hip. "huh? You hungry?" The little just looked up at her, his cobalt blue eyes looking right into her brown ones, as if they were looking into her soul. 'Just like his father's, damn you Danny Messer' she thought to herself as she placed a kiss on her son's forehead.
"Well if it isn't Mr. Blue eyes." Bonnie stated as she got off the couch and headed towards the kitchen, where Lindsay was.
Not Tomorrow, the Day After
"Damon where is your blue hat?" Lindsay asked as she turned to look at the 15 month old sitting on the floor, all bundled up in his winter coat ready to go. The little boy just laughed and reached his hand to the top of his head in search of his hat. "Silly boy I know it's not on your head." Lindsay laughed as she continued her search until her intercom buzzed. "Yeah?" Lindsay asked as she picked her son up.
"Linds! It's me." Flack said through the intercom, obviously excited. "Buzz me up."
"'kay" Lindsay said as she buzzed Flack up. "That's your Uncle Flack he's crazy." Lindsay said as she tickled Damon's tummy. "I guess we're just gonna have to wear the red hat." She said placing the hat over her son's blonde hair. Then a knock came at the door.
"Lindsay!" Flack smirked as she opened the door, her gave he a quick hug, doing his best not to hurt the baby. "and this must be Damien." The little boy scrunched his nose at Flack as he tried to pinch his cheek.
"No Flack, this isn't the omen, this is Damon." Lindsay replied with a laugh at her son's reaction to Flack.
"Right." Flack said. "Ready to go? I even got you a car seat."
"No way, you're so sweet." Lindsay said as she pinched Flack's cheek then turned to lock up her apartment.
"Can I say something?" Flack asked as they were already on the road and heading towards the lab.
"Sure." Lindsay said as she turned her attention from the window to Flack.
"He sure looks a hell of a lot like Danny." Flack stated as he looked in his rear-view mirror. "With the blue eyes and the attitude when I got his name wrong, how he like scrunched his brow and his nose."
"Yeah, everything it seems like, just like Danny." Lindsay sighed as she turned to look at her son, who was staring out the window in awe.
"Hey, speaking of Danny." Flack said faking excitement. "When are you gonna tell him about Damon?"
"I don't really plan on it, unless he asks or I have to." Lindsay said simply. "He said he never wanted to be a father and never will want to."
"Yeah Linds, but that was right after Ruben died." Flack stated.
"It was his Christmas gift, I had it all planned out, it was gonna be perfect, then Ruben died…
Flashback
Christmas 2007
Break room
Danny was just sitting there at the table staring into his coffee mug, completely lost in thought.
"Damn cold." Danny said as he got up to blow his nose. He used to hate working Christmas, this year it didn't bother him, now he just hated Christmas. Ruben was supposed to get a Wii for Christmas this year. "He'd probably be playing it right now if you didn't get him killed" Danny said to himself in an angered voice.
"Danny?" he closed his eyes for a second at the sound of her voice, how weak and scarred it sounded. He raised his head to look at her, locking eyes with hers. "Can I bother you for a second?"
"Sure." He said as he sat back down at the table and she stood in front of the table. "You can sit."
"No, I'm on my way out, I just wanted to give you your present, cause I didn't know, you know when I'd see you next." She was rambling and they both knew it. She sat what looked to be a necklace box in front of him. "I had this for awhile, I thought it'd make you happy then, but now, I don't know." She waited for him to open it before she continued. She watched the look of horror on his face as he opened to box to reveal and positive pregnancy test and a sonogram picture with 'it's a boy' written at the top.
"Wha…how…" he stopped and closed the lid. "I don't want this."
"I know, just wanted to give you the courtesy of knowing you're going to be a father." Lindsay said then turned to walk away but stopped in the doorway and turned back to face him. "I don't expect anything from you Danny, I know you don't want this but I do, and yeah." She finished and walked away.
2 weeks later
"Danny?" Lindsay asked from her hospital bed as she opened her eyes to see him in the chair next to her, holding her hand.
"Yeah Montana, it's me." Danny said as he stroked her hand with his thumb. "I'm still your emergency contact remember?"
"Yeah." She practically whispered. His eyes hadn't left hers since she awoke, he needed to know, he needed to know if their baby was okay, but he didn't want to ask, he didn't want to show her he cared, how much he cared. As if she read his mind she said "he's gone." And with that she broke down into tears.