Teach Me the Meaning of Sadness
Written by Termony
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of Gundam SEED or Gundam SEED Destiny.
Teach me the meaning of sadness…
That little girl sang the song, and I alone sat while waiting.
It was a sunny day at the city square. That little girl seemed sad as she sang. She was so little… wearing a pink and white frilly dress.
"If you closed your eyes, you won't gaze into sadness."
"If you forget the feeling of warmth, you won't feel pain."
I can't recall that gentle voice,
In the depths of my mourning heart…
He died before me… My father…
Did I screamed? I think I did. I forgot…but this feeling of shock stayed with me. There was no calming down.
That's odd, I thought. Where are my father and mother? I looked around. We are supposed to be meeting here for something.
Strangely, I noticed people running from one end of the block.
I began running.
Someone is calling me from my forgotten past,
Asking me when I will take sorrow into my hands again.
At this moment that will never come twice,
You are all I can see.
I see myself now. She is in that shuttle, and she will be blown into millions of pieces…and…become me.
I just witnessed myself throughout this war…and I wonder where I will go after I see myself die…to the promised land? Where…? This, and everything goes to point zero, and this point zero…is unknown to me.
"Mummy!" I screamed. NOOOOOO!
A car crash...She was on the ground, covered in blood.
A little ship glitters silently in the distant, alone.
Swept away by a torrent of grief,
it disappears under the waves of my heart.
I told him, "Kira, I'll protect you! "
Maybe…I know how everything goes in his head because the same thing went through mine.
That little girl…he told me…died before him.
Just as I…my father and mother died in front of me. And for those who observed, who cared…only felt for those whose body laid as cold and bloodless. The dead doesn't feel anything.
"Daddy…" I looked at the blonde man. He was smirking.
Why do I search the ocean depths aimlessly,
For the warmth that I should not have known?
Swaying with the ripples, the ship of life sails on.
Though no stars can be seen,
it overcomes waves and advances on.
Beyond the Darkness,
You are all I can see.
"Wouldn't it be nice to have a little child around who thinks I'm the embodiment of her late father? But…George Allster is gone. Should I remind you that? Or should you come to your own sense?" Le Cruset said mercilessly.
I didn't speak at that time.
He continued. "Make yourself useful around here."
"Fllay…" Father said at that time, when I was shaking for such horror and sadness for the first time. "It'll be okay. I am here."
He hugged me. The warmth was irreplaceable.
The waves that we saw are flowing towards serenity,
Flowing to the kindness that disappeared underwater.
I know that there's a future where we will love each other.
Until I take the sorrow back into my hands again,
At this moment that will never come twice,
You are all I can see.
He dismissed me.
I liked the man because he comforted me. His voice was just like daddy's…but he's still not daddy.
The dead can never become the living. This wish of mine was not granted.
I can never become alive either. That's why…my wish…my wish now is to protect someone…truly…
Truly…
Looking at his crying face, I began to say, "Kira, I…"