Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts, Demyx, and Zexion belong to Square Enix.

I heard reports from the Dusks that everyone who was sent to Castle Oblivion was wiped out the other day. At the time Xigbar was excitedly telling me about it, I couldn't believe him. But today they confirmed it. Every single member. That means you too.

There are so many songs written about people and their hearts, but I thought I was so much better writing about you and me instead. Even now I'm trying to find a memory from my past that could compare to you. But who am I kidding- I can't feel. We can't feel; We're nothing, right? You told me these feelings are just shades of what we've felt before, what we remember feeling.

You told me the heart is a place where our feelings materialize and become real. And the Organization's goal is to complete Kingdom Hearts so we can get hearts ourselves.

You wanted a heart so badly because us Nobodies are constantly reminded of "what's not here." Maybe I'm a little slow, but I didn't get around to thinking that about myself until now. Actually...I don't remember being this empty since discovering I lost my heart.

Does that goal even matter if you die though?! Is getting a heart back worth that much- worth leaving me behind?! We're incomplete, sure, but you know damn well that I was fine with that if we were together. Was that not enough for you?! People are so fucking lucky, huh, they get to be brokenhearted. What about a Nobody like me with no heart to break? Or do you think I'm the lucky one? Haha, I can see you saying it right now, no heart, no emotions, just shadows of feelings from our memories. Lucky me then, I must only be recalling an intense "shadow of sadness," funny how it's a "shade of pain" unlike any I can remember though. Didn't know shadows were capable of breaking the soul, Zexion.

Unlike you, I'm afraid of getting my heart back. I changed when I lost my heart, Zexion. Well, namely I didn't have a heart anymore. But something else. I'm trying to hold onto anything I can get now that I have nothing-now that I am nothing. I had you though. All I had was you.

So I'm scared that when I regain my heart, something's gonna change again. Maybe more drastically this time. That empty space is gonna be filled, but what happens when it already was?

They say people remember the feelings even if they forget the events. That in the end, the most precious memories, the most precious feelings are unforgettable because the heart remembers even if the mind forgets. But we Nobodies don't have a heart. We're not people. So my most precious memories from when I didn't have a heart- does this mean I'm gonna forget you?

I'm not a researcher; I don't know as much as you so I was always asking you a lot of questions. But one last question: Is it stupid to cry for Nobody? These tears are real. I know these feelings are. So I'll take a crack at that theory stuff you always do- I have a hypothesis:

We do too have hearts.

And if we don't, I'm gonna do my best when I get my heart back. Maybe I can quickly catch these feelings from my memories with my new found heart.

Will that bring you back, Zexy?

A/N:

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It was a huge challenge for me to post anything Zemyx. The best fanfic writers are Zemyx writers and they have never failed to tear my heart asunder.