Disclaimer : This is a work of fiction that I don't own, characters and some aspects of the plot belong to Girl Meets Wold's production and Disney Chanel.

AN: Hello dear readers, this is my first work in the GMW fandom and I hope that my contribution will be welcomed. I'm starting this project because I feel like the show doesn't focus on the characterization of my favorite character, Riley Matthews. There are so many insteresting things to learn about this amazing character but unfortunately the show is plot driven. So the writers kind of mold the characters according to the plot they are writing about. I'm hoping that I can fix that by giving a deeper approach of the character after each episode of season 3.

I will write mostly about Riley and Rucas and hopefully Joshaya if we get to see them again.

This is my take on Girl Meets Jexica. This is a drabble about Riley's insecurities and Lucas's anger management issues. I tried to keep Rucas where they are currently on the show.

Please, read, review and share!

XOXO

A rat-a-tat-tat- on the door pushed her to leave her bed. She flung off the blanket tangled aroud her bare legs and sprang from the bed. " Hang on, I'm coming."

She glanced over her shoulder at her laptop. She finaly made her profile on the Abigail Adams High School, public. She giggled.

Opening the door a crack, she struck her nose into the hallway, ready to send Auggie back to his room. But her mother was the one she found standing in front of her door.

" Hi, Mom, is everything alright?" She asked with a frown.

" Everything is fine, I was walking to my bedroom and I kind of listened to what you and your friends were talking about, and that got me wondering how you're dealing with this new situation." Topanga said while motioning a triangle with one finger.

Riley's heart missed a beat. She's been trying her hardest to avoid the subject and to wait patiently until Lucas make his choice but it was killing her. Findig out his sudden interest for her alter ego Jexica filled her with a risky hope.

" Well, Maya and I are both doing fine, we love each other and we both love Lucas!" She replied. Words coming out with urgency in an attempt to hide the anxious sting that was creeping through her at the mere mention of Lucas and Maya in the same sentence.

" Honey, I know that you think that you have all this situation under control but have you ever think about what will be the outcome of it all?" Topanga exclaimed warily.

Riley bit her bottom lip. " What do you mean?"

" What I mean is what will happen after Lucas's choice? what if you're not his choice?" Topanga spelled slowly to her daughter, while anticipating her reaction.

" It can't be! I…" she swallowed hard then inhaled a sharp breath. " I'm Lucas's choice, we're the story. We started this thing and we will end it. It can't be another way. That's the only thing that keeps me hoping in the middle of this suffocating situation."

" Honey, I admire your faith in your relationship with Lucas but you need to keep in mind that what matters is your friendship with both Lucas and Maya, no matter what happen."

" I know that!"

" That's why I think maybe you should try to meet new people, to get to know new people, just in case you end up losing hope or if and when things will become too suffocating. high school should be a new chapter of your life with new exciting expriences, don't spend it locked up in a box."

Riley shook her head vehemently. Every fibers in her body trying very hard to hold on to the certainty that was her and Lucas's inextricable bond.

" My friends and I promised each other that we will stay together no matter what."

" No matter what will happen if Lucas picks Maya?" Topanga questionned her with eyes narrowed to slit.

" I'm the choice, you will see. Good night, mom." Riley hissed then closed the door slowly.

She took a step backward, every nerve along her skin raw and exposed, knowing that her mother was right.

She didn't know the depht of Maya and Lucas's feelings for each other, heck, she didn't see it coming. Even if Lucas was the comet her world revolves around.

She was too blended, too enamoured and passionate, to see and feel the signs.

What if this time around she was wrong too? What if the signs were pointing to a very bright future for Maya and Lucas and nothing for her?

Riley's eyes opened wide as memories of the unholy and dull pain she felt the day Lucas and Maya had their first date came back to her.

It crushed her and enhaced her insecurities.

Tears. She didn't feel them filling her eyes and slowly marching out of her orbs in a gracious trail.

Riley tried to hide under her blanket and in the darkness of her room. But she couldn't conjure the pain away. She didn't know why but she could feel it now, her certainty making its way out of her heart.

She might not be the choice. She might not have another breathtaking moment with Lucas.

Her phone nuzzling on the bedstand brought her back to the moment.

She wiped her tears away with the back of her hand, ready to turn the phone off.

Her hand froze next to the phone when her eyes landed on the screen and she saw the ID calling.

She swallowed hard and picked up, quickly.

" Hi"

"Hi!"

" Hey! Hi!"

" Hey, I...I don't know why but...I just wanted to talk to you. We haven't had a moment just for us since we started high school. Am I calling too late? Are you already in bed?"

" No, I was just...thinking about you...I'm always thiking about you, Lucas. Always." She whispered, her voice sounded weak and almost teary even if she tried her hardest to not sound like she was feeling. Broken.

" I'm always thinking about you too, Riley" he said. Riley could tell that he had a soft smile on his face, right there.

" How much?"

" What?"

" How much do you think about me?" she repeated.

He took his time. Even if he was somewhere on the other side of the city, Riley could feel him.

He was too close, too personal, listening to her thoughts.

His face had invaded her mind all day. His voice rang like music in her ears; his touch stirred her emotions. And now he was here, on the phone with her, as if she'd called to him; as if their souls were speaking to each other without using any words.

" This is going to be hard to explain but hear me out, okay?"

" Okay...I'm listening."

" Before meeting you and coming to New York, I never had any idea of who I'am. Of course I had mindless dreams and a blurred vision of what I wanted to do with my life and what kind of a person I was. But it was never deep, there were no certainty."

Riley stared at the celling , feeling parts of her pulled in every direction. Her heart pounded so fast her face was hot, even in the chilly conditioner air.

" Then who were you? What defined you?"

" Most of the time? Anger."

" I...I can't picture you that way." she said then snorted, feeling lightheaded and full of him.

" Well, you should ask Zai, how life with the old Lucas was like."

" I will. Defintely."

He laughed. " But since I met, you something happened to me, you moved me. You taught me what friendship is."

Riley , giggled and turned on her belly, her legs sprawled on the bed, wide open, relaxed.

" I think you're giving me too much credit. I met you just the way you are...I didn't teach you anything Lucas."

" Well, you taught me that friendship is not just to be with someone, but to be someone. Guess what Riley Matthews? I'm proud of the person I'm. Everytime that I forget who that person is, I just need to see you, to feel you in the room, to find myself again. So yeah." He paused." I think about you all the time."

She needed to encase her heart with stone so that he couldn't penetrate it. Emotions surged over her, mystifying, and yet powerfully real. Even as she tried to push the feelings away for her and Maya's sake, she wanted to draw them close. Perhaps the boy wasn't so dangerous to her and Maya's friendship. Maybe Lucas was only dangerous to her.

She rubbed at her arms and stammered, "Please don't—don't call me in the middle of the night."

" Wait, why?"

" Did you call Maya? Have you said to her all those things you said to me?"

" What? No!" He snorted then laughed. " I told you, this is our privilged moment."

" We're in a triangle Lucas Friar, unless, you treat me and Maya equally, we can't have these mind blowing moments in the middle of the night. okay?"

Lucas laughed out loud. " What do you want from me, Riley?"

" Don't do this, don't get close to my heart…"

"Your warning is noted. But what if I stumble upon it—or what if I can't resist?"

Riley could tell that he was messing with her head and daring her.

She took a sharp breath, noting his words and his meaning. Riley felt his eyes on her face in the starlight, even if he was away. "Restraint is a virtue," She said simply, and hung up.

She turned her head back to face the bay window. She was proud of herself that she didn't look back, and made that moment something that could hurt Maya.

It was nothing more than a thought of this boy who was creeping into her mind and her heart a little more with each passing hour and who seemed to see everything and know everything about her.