Yet ANOTHER quick one shot. I'm super inspired today! This is 2D's version of 'I HATE Him'. Please, forgive me if it's OOC ; - ;
I love him. And he loves me back. But, I know he hates me as well.
It's hard to explain; Hell, I can barely explain it myself…
It's like one moment he loves me and can't be without me…
Then the next moment his fist is connected to my jaw and he hates me.
I've always had a slight crush on him. I guess it turned into more over the years. One day all of the tension between us exploded.
The next thing I know I'm lying on my back moaning while Murdoc is on top of me kissing my neck.
That turned into a little thing; just shagging.
Then I accidentally told him I loved while doing so.
I didn't mean to; It slipped out.
I mean, random shit just comes out of your mouth when you're being shagged real good, right? It's just that "I love you Murdoc" wasn't random…
I regret ever saying it. We've never argued this much before the incident.
It's funny. Now that he knows I love him he acts like he hates me more than ever.
…But right before I get really angry he shows me how much he loves me.
It's sad actually. He can't handle knowing that he's in love with another human being, so he's quick to lose his cool and punch me in the face.
And it's really sad on my part. I put up with this bullshit. Every day, I wake up and wonder how I'm gonna be tortured by the man I love…
What's worst about this fucked up situation?
The fact that I don't mind it.
The fact that I actually like the feel of his teeth sinking into my flesh, even if he isn't 3 feet up my ass.
One day he told me he hates my fucking guts. That he hates my face. He hates everything I do. He hates everything I hates everything about me. And that's why he loves me as much as he does.
Kind of fucked up, isn't it?
He's such an angry little man, it's kind of funny.
He always tells me about how annoying I am. How the slightest things I do irritate him to no end.
Half the shit I do to anger him is on purpose. I want to push him to his limits.
Just like he pushes me…
It's only a matter of time before I snap. A human can only take so much…
I wonder when I'll get him to snap. He's so angry 24/7, I wonder if he can get angrier. So angry that he'll wrap his fingers around my neck again. So angry that he'll knock more of my teeth out.
Being around him has gotten me used to pain. Sometimes I like it…
One particular day we got in a fight over something stupid. Punched me. Kicked me. The usual. He pushed me flat on my ass and used his foot to pin me to the floor. He said "I should fucking kill you".
By now, I was damned if I did, damned if I didn't, so I laughed and said "Whatever gets you off Murdoc."
Surprisingly, instead of fulfilling his threat he dropped down to his knees and moved up to kiss my lips and fucked me on the living room floor.
I know we have a really fucked up relationship, and I know that loving him is unhealthy, but I don't care.
It's not like I still don't hate him, despite how much I love him…