First long fic and story for this pairing. So I hope its ok. Please enjoy and reviews are always nice of course. Thank you for reading.
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A tall teen sighed as his gaze flickered over towards some kids playing nearby. They were lucky. They were completely innocent. Oblivious to the things going on outside of their own little world. Did they know that things like werewolves and vampires really existed? Did they know how close they were to one of these creatures? Probably not.
What he wouldn't give to be like one of those kids. Just for a day. Leave all the phasing and leech chasing behind. I would be a dream come true for him but he knew that as long as he lived nothing would be as normal as he wanted it to be.
Glancing back at his hands in his lap he dropped his shoulders and let out a heavy sigh. The chill from the November breeze ruffling his hair and sending a shiver down his spin as it swept past him. How could a boy of seventeen feel so lonely when he had everything he could ever want and more? He had a loving family and amazing friends. But he felt empty.
Something wasn't right but he couldn't place what it was. The lack of somebody there. The feeling of incompleteness you get when you see the person you want with someone else.
The teen, Jacob, scowled down at his fingers and pressed his thumbs together. He didn't want anybody. Not anymore. Not when he couldn't get the person he wanted. Maybe. It was all so confusing.
Reaching up he rubbed his face with both hands. God he hated this. Why did everything have to be so difficult? Dropping his hands he slowly climbs to his feet and slinks off to the tree line. Maybe some running would help him out of his depressed thoughts. Glancing around to make sure nobody was around he almost let out a cry of shock when he saw a pale figure leaning a few feet away against a tree.
"What the hell are you doing here leech?" Jacob snarled curling his arms around his middle. His stomach was fluttering wildly and goose bumps had broken out along his arms.
"Bella wanted me to come find you. She says it's very important." He wasn't looking at Jacob but at his crossed arms. His hair was tousled by the wind and his eyes were a warm golden color. His skin was still as pale as when Jacob had last seen him. Well not like he was surprised the other was a bloodsucker after all. The warm eyes flicked up to his and hurriedly went down again. Jacob snorted and tightened his hold on his mid-area. Asshole couldn't even look him in the eyes. Probably was wondering what he was thinking. He had been practicing putting up a block to avoid Edward and he was glad to see it was holding strong against the other.
"I guess I have no choice. The queen will get her precious way one way or another." Jacob shrugged off his jacket and shirt rolling them up and placing them down. Glaring at the other he made a turnaround motion with his hand and quickly removed his pants when the other had done so.
Concentrating a second he winced as he felt the effects of the phase. It was supposed to get easier as he kept doing it but he figured there would always be a slight pinch before it happened. Of course there would be because he was changing into a beast. Feeling himself settle into the now familiar body of the wolf he huffed when he realized his clothes were still on the forest floor. Sending out a short message to the other he watched as his clothes were gathered and folded.
"I'll hold these for you while we run." Edward hugged the clothes to his body and inched forward waiting for the others response.
Jacob slightly tilted his head and turned sharply running of in the direction of where Bella's scent was the strongest. Ears twitching at the footfalls following him he tried to concentrate on what the girl would want to talk about. Probably wanted to know why he was acting so cold and distant to her now. Like he was going to tell her, whatever. Huffing slightly he dodged a fallen tree and continued on. When he got there then he would know. No use trying to guess and get himself all worked up over it.
He stopped running and looked over at the other male. Edward had been quiet the whole time. Well he was usually quiet but never this quiet. Jacob plopped himself down and scanned his link with the other shifters. Nobody was patrolling or phased except him now. Jacob opened the block a bit on his mind just enough to speak to the other male.
"Why does Bella need to see me Edward?" Jacob sighed again and stared at the other intensely. Edward looked small almost, kind of like he was holding himself together in a way. Edward hugged his clothes tighter to himself and curled over them slightly. Odd. Was the leech trying to inhale his clothes through his bellybutton?
"Why are you blocking me Jake?" Edward whispered. His voice was a little hoarse and it cracked on his name.
"Because I want to keep my thoughts to myself for once. I don't really care for you to be going through my head like a book. My thoughts are mine and well the packs but I can't block them like I can you. One less person in my head the better. Now answer my damn question. What does she want?" Jacob tried to glare in irritation but it didn't quite work out as well as he thought so he sent a mental image of himself glaring at the other to the one across from him. Edward's lips twitched a tick and he finally straightened up and looked across at the wolf.
"She wants to talk about your attitude and why you've been avoiding her. She's just worried about you. Please just listen to what she has to say Jacob. You don't have to say anything but at least give her something." Edward uncurled an arm and carded it through his hair. Jacob thought Edward's hair was amazing. It had a healthy shine to it and just seemed to really fit the other. Jacob 'glared' again and this time sends an image of Jacob shaving off Edward's tresses. Edward blinked out of habit and then let out a low chuckle. "Hate my hair that much huh? Or are you jealous?" Edward cocked a brow and smirked at the wolf that huffed and trotted away from him with his head in the air.
Jacob decided to put his block back up in place and ignore the old man as he walked the little bit left to where Bella was. His heart gave a happy little twinge as it remembered the way Edward had curled around his clothes almost protectively and the way he had chuckled when he had gotten the image. Sniffing the air his tail twitched as he recognized a familiar sweet scent. So she was over at the leech's house. How nice for her Jacob thought bitterly. Stopping at the tree edge he turned once again in Edward's direction and silently waited for the man to get his unspoken message. It took a couple seconds but Edward got the hint and gently placed the clothes in front of Jacob and turned around.
Closing his eyes he once again concentrated and once again felt the pinch before feeling the weight of solid flesh and hard almost hairless skin settle over him. Letting out a happy sigh he started popping his joints, making sharp crack noises in the silence. Dressing quickly he turned and headed for the house, not bothering to wait for the other. Jacob knew he was following he could still hear the others almost nonexistent footsteps.
Reaching the door he waited for Edward to slip past him and nudge open the piece of wood. Following behind he entered the house and was immediately tackled by a small brunette. So she was waiting for them? He tried to be friendly by wrapping his arms around her and hugging her back. He would listen like Edward asked but he was going to talk as little as he could get away with. Pushing Bella back he looked down at her and noticed she was beaming like a little ray of sunshine.
"Jake! I was wondering how long it would take you to get here you slow poke!" Bella giggled like a little kid and grabbed his hand. "We have so much to talk about."
Jacob tried not to tug his hand out of her grip while she pulled him over to a sofa and plopped on it patting the space next to her. Slowly he lowered himself and watched out the corner of his eye as Edward took a place at the piano across from them. Bella tapped his cheek and directed his attention back to her as Edward started to hit a few random notes.
"How are you Jake?" Bella asked softly.
"Fine. You?" He had one ear trained on Edward and the other on her. He tried to keep to his word from earlier and not say much.
"Oh you know this and that. Edward and I have been going strong and it's just been so perfect..." Bella trailed off as Jacobs attention had focused solely on Edward. The vampire was playing a song but was singing some words too while he played. He glanced over to Bella but she was still rambling on so she must not hear Edward. Catching the words from the song his face warmed and his pulse quickened slightly. Edward glanced up from under his long lashes and smiled slowly as he continued on.
"Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all (s)he is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more"
Jacob felt his breath catch as Edward ended the song and started playing random notes again. His eyes never left Jacobs and Jacobs never left Edward's the whole song.
He finally tore his eyes away and looked over at Bella only to realize she was still talking. Clearing his throat Bella looked up from her hands which were animatedly waving around with what she was rambling on about.
"I thought you wanted to tell me something important or was leech man over there lying?" Jacob tried not to look over as he noticed Edward falter in his note playing at the name.
"Well this is pretty important isn't it? We were so close Jake and now we hardly even see each other. If I didn't know better than I would say you were trying to ignore me. But that's not true right?" Bella nervously plays with her hair and glances over at Edward still playing.
"Actually Bella-"
"Jacob don't say it. " Edward stood from his seat and made his way over to the two on the couch.
"No. I need to tell her this. Bella I have been avoiding you and I have to tell you this before I explode. I can't be friends with you because I have feelings for Edward. When I say feelings it means I've imprinted on him and before you ask no he didn't know before this and Edward don't tell me not to say it because judging by the look on your face you didn't even know what I was going to say. So now you both know why I've been so distant lately and all the crap." Jacob let out a big gust of air and mentally patted himself on the back. He felt better now like a weight had been lifted. Smiling he stood from the couch tilted his head at Bella then turned to Edward who was still looking at him with a slightly shocked expression. Feeling emboldened by his statement he stepped toward Edward and yanked him forward by the wrist.
Pressed up against the colder male he noticed he was almost a good head taller. Grinning a shit eating grin he leaned down and pressed his lips harshly but passionately to Edwards. Pouring everything into it he felt Edward grab his upper jacket sleeves. Thinking to pull away before Edward could shove him away Jacob released the other and dropped the captured wrist. Glancing over at Bella a final time he saw that she had passed out possibly from shock and mock saluted her passed out figure.
Taking a peek at Edward he almost busted up laughing when he saw the other was looking a bit dazed. Now that he had done what he had wanted to do since walking up the front door he let a big smile cross over his features before walking out of the house. Reaching the tree line outside he turned to the right and smiled even wider at the figure that stood there.
"I feel amazing. Thanks for helping me out there man." Jacob clapped the other on the back and continued on towards La Push. He couldn't wait to tell his pack and his dad.
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The figure at the tree line grinned and walked towards the house. Opening the door he was greeted with the sight of Edward helping Bella up from her position on the couch.
"Jasper what are you doing here? I thought you were going hunting?" Edward asked. He appeared confused but Jasper could feel the nerves and slight shock coming off of his 'brother'.
"I just came to check up on something. What happened here? I saw that wolf Jacob leaving with a big smile on his face." Jasper reigned in the smile that was threatening to break free when Edward slightly twitched and touched his lips briefly before turning his attention back to helping Bella.
"Oh. He was just talking to Bella. It seems that he does not want to be friends with her anymore." Bella made a slightly choked sound and turned paler than she already was.
"That's terrible Ed. I hope everything works out Bella." Said girl just gave a jerky nod and clutched at Edward.
"I-I think I want to go-o home." Bella looked like she was trying hard not to cry but her eyes were surprisingly dry. Jasper felt her emotions and was amazed to find that she was perfectly calm on the inside. She most have just been in shock still somewhat. Nodding Edward helped her collect her keys and other various things.
"I will drive you to back ok?" Edward kept a hand on her whenever she started walking to the door. Bella nodded and walked slowly past Jasper who was still in the door way.
"Bye Jasper." Bella looked at him with her deep brown eyes and gave him a small sad smile.
"Farewell Bella. May I see you another day." He gave her a genuine smile and watched as Edward walked over to the garage and opened the door letting Bella move into her seat and then looping around to the driver side of the old truck. Cranking the hunk of metal Edward jerked it out of the garage down the drive; Jasper gave a little wave as he watched it disappear out of sight.
Jasper let out an unneeded sigh and walked into the house closing the door behind him. What an interesting day he thought to himself as he grinned and trudged up to his and Alice's room. Now to wait until tomorrow for everything to play out he thought.
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Jacob couldn't help his excitement at the thought of what had just happened. He couldn't believe it! He continued to run the rest of the way home in human form humming the song Edward had played on the piano earlier.
Coming up to the res Jacob slowed to a jog and listened for his pack mates. Letting out a howl he was answered with some other howls. Grinning he headed in the direction of his house and banged the door open startling half the people inside.
"I kissed him." Cheers and lewd comments were thrown towards him while he made his way into the house and sat with his family.
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"Edward."
"Yes Bella?"
"Did you understand what Jacob had said back there?"
"About the whole imprint thing?"
"Yes. And the part where he said he had feelings for you."
"I do. Carlisle told us about it a long time ago when we first moved here."
"Oh. Are you going to accept it?"
"…I don't know. To be honest I thought he still hated me. Someone should give that kid an award." Edward peeked over to Bella and saw that she was giving his a kind smile.
"I think you like him. Accepting the imprint will have benefits for you both if you go through with it." Bella reached over and squeezed his hand. She knew it didn't have an effect on him but it comforted her some.
"I think so too. You seem really calm about this Bell." Edward pulled into the Swan driveway and turned off the truck. Turning to her he noticed she was smiling softly out the window.
"I had a long time to think about all of this. I mean when you were away I was hanging out with Jake and he was one of a kind. He's an amazing guy. I think I've come to the conclusion that I wouldn't adapt well to a life of being a vampire. It might be the thought of drinking blood or maybe never having my own children or even turning bitter like Rosalie but I realized I wouldn't be able to handle it. I love you so much though Edward but I don't think this is the life I want. You were meant to be with Jacob and I accept that. So I want you to know that you have my full support if you go through with this." She turned her eyes on him and starred at him unblinkingly. "Just promise me that you two won't be like Rose and Emmett you know having sex everywhere and stuff." She gives him a small smirk and he grins crookedly at her.
"Promise Bella," Edward opens his door and Bella climbs from her side. Walking over to her he hands her the keys and sweeps her into a light hug. "Thank you for being so understanding." Edward releases her and steps away. Turning towards the woods he slowly fades into the shadows waving as he walks away.
"Hey Edward!" Bella calls. Edward stops and tilts his head. "Don't be a stranger! We still have to hang out and stuff just because we're not together now."
Edward gives her a thumb's up and runs off quickly. Bella hums lightly and turns toward her house where she can faintly hear her dad cursing at the game on TV. Everything was going to be ok she thought.
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Jacob was lying in bed watching some glow in the dark stars on his ceiling. They were put up there by his mother when she was still alive and he couldn't bring himself to tear them down. They soothed him in a nice way and helped lull him to sleep a lot of nights but tonight he was too jittery. He kissed Edward. His imprint and he couldn't have been happier. Well unless Edward came to his house and declared his undying love for him but that only happened in movies and books. Grunting he shifts to his side with his back to the wall.
His pack had all gone their separate ways once they had celebrated. He could hear his father in his room snoring loudly. Deciding that he was too pumped up he rolled out of bed and walked towards his window. Hoisting it up and slipping on a pair of worn flip flops he climbed out of his window and was surprised when instead of his feet touching the ground something cold had wrapped around him and was holding him in the air. Glancing down he huffs and rolls his eyes at the pale one below him.
"Put me down or I'll hurt you." Jacob warned. The other laughed by complied. "I thought you were Edward there for a second Jazz." He rubbed his arms and looked around the side of the house.
"Hoping prince charming would come to your window?" Jasper ducked ass the young wolf aimed a punch at his head. "He's at home playing the piano. I had to leave his emotions were everywhere after he came back from Bella's."
"What kind of emotions?" He hoped they somehow were linked to him and the kiss.
"All kinds: anger, worry, fear, love, hope, jealousy, like I said everything. He was going through them so fast I thought my head was going to implode." Jasper rubbed his temples and turns towards the woods. Gesturing and receiving a nod they both walk along a small path into the forest. Stepping through the foliage both find a small clearing with two tree stumps in it. The floor was covered in soft grass and the trees circled around it in a graceful setting, the moon shone brightly through the tops of the trees. Bypassing the stump Jacob settles his larger frame on the ground and plays with a caterpillar on a nearby blade.
"Do you think something must have happened with Bella?" Jacob knew it was slightly wrong but he desperately wished so. Jasper had settled on a stump and was tracing the wood lightly.
"Bella was pretty calm leaving the house surprisingly. She seemed like she knew it was going to happen one day and she had come to terms with it." Jasper mused.
"Hm. That's odd. Jasper?" Jacob whispered the others name softly and stared at the caterpillar intently. "Why are you helping me? I mean I know there's no ill will between us but why help me try to get your brother?"
"I think you're a nice person. You compliment Edward better than Bella or anyone else ever could have. It's like a puzzle but one where you have two pieces and you're trying to force them together but they just won't fit. For some reason that reminds me of you two except when you really look at the pieces and I mean really look then you'll see that before you were just trying to shove them in the wrong slots so you flip them the right way and get a perfect match." Jasper gazed at Jacob from under his fringe, the other boy was still playing with the bug but he could tell Jacob was listening to everything he said.
"Thanks Jasper." Jacob sent him a boyish smile and huffed. "Did you know Edward wrote a song for me?"
"Did he now?" Jasper looked on in amusement as Jacob lightly blushed and fiddled with his hands. "You're very lucky I've been bugging him for one for years. Did you know the song he made for Bella was one he heard a long time ago in a music box? It was around Christmas time and he found it. He didn't buy it but he remembered the song and played it often when in thought or he was in a mood. Actually now that I say that he wasn't playing it tonight. He played a different one, one I'd never heard before."
"Did he sing?" Jacob had a smile on his face and was sitting up straight. He was amazed with what Jasper was telling him. He wasn't going to tell Bella though. She didn't need to hear that bit of news.
"Yes. It was a beautiful song from what I could hear." Jasper quirked a brow at Jake "Do you remember any of the words?"
"A little bit." Jacob scratched his head and thought to earlier when they were in the living room. "I know it said 'How can I love when I'm afraid to fall. But watching you stand alone. All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow' and he said something about a thousand years but I highly doubt he's that old. Maybe a couple hundred but not a thousand. That would make him ancient!" Jacob threw his arms out and flapped them like a duck. Jasper chuckled and they both turned sharply as they heard a third voice.
"I'm not ancient but I am quite old." Edward stepped into the small area and slid into the second stump, which happened to be close to Jacob. "I didn't expect to find you two out here all by yourselves. Having a secret affair?" Edward felt jealousy zing through him as he said that, he leaned slightly forward and lightly grazed Jacob's cheek with his fingers. Blinking owlishly Jacob glanced over to Jasper and they both let out a loud cackle.
"Why of course? Didn't you know me and Jake here are secretly together?" Jasper slid off his stump and crawled seductively to Jacob. Jacob laughed and opened his arms allowing the other to snuggle into his chest. Jacob sniffed Jaspers hair on accident and immediately made a gagging noise.
"Sadly though, the only thing keeping us apart from physical contact is the god awful smell." Jacob pushed Jasper away and 'wiped' himself of the smell. He grinned up at Edward and saw the other starring at the two of them blankly. "It was a joke Eddie babe. Lighten up old man." Jacob slapped Edward's knee and was slightly surprised when his hand was grabbed and he was hauled off into the trees. Walking a good ways away Edward finally stopped and turned to look at him. Jacob's poor heart almost broke right then and there. His imprint was making a crestfallen face and his shoulders were slumped he brought up his hands and wrapped them around himself.
"I thought you said I was your imprint?" Edward's voice was small and he curled into himself a little more with each word. "Why would you be with him and still tell me? Is Jasper the type of guy you want? I can try to be like him! Please Jake tell me what I did wrong? Was it the song? I thought you would like it but I guess not." Edward trailed off and looked over to the side.
What. The. Fuck. Jacob wanted to laugh because of the jealousy Edward showed toward Jasper but he also wanted to well…laugh some more. I mean the situation was serious but how could Edward not see or know that he was all Jacob cared about and all Jacob wanted.
"Edward. It was a joke. Well I don't know how much on Jaspers part but I was only acting." Jacob paused as they heard someone slightly shout 'you asshole! I was only acting too! I have Alice!' He laughed and turned back to Edward. "I meant it when I said I had feelings for you and damn well meant it when I said you were my imprint. I loved the song you played for me and I love it a thousand (haha thousand…sorry) times more because you were the one who did it. Edward I don't know how you didn't see it but I've been mooning over you for the past couple months and I had to build a block so that you couldn't catch on. That day in the park I was so lonely I couldn't stand you not knowing. In fact I was heading off to find you when you came along. When we were in the woods by the park I had sent Jasper a quick text telling him to go to your house. Well we got there and I was slowly losing my confidence after you had played that song but then I felt Jasper giving me a bit of a push and I knew I could do it. So I did. I don't regret it in fact I celebrated it and it felt awesome." Jacob stuffed his hands in his pockets and leaned against a nearby tree.
"Really?" Edward unfolded his arms and ran his fingers through his hair "I've been thinking about you a lot these past couple of days and seeing you with Jasper was like a slap in the face. I didn't mean to act like that but it's hard what with you both blocking your thoughts. I just really care for you Jake."
"It's all cool Ed. We should go back to Jasper though and make sure the pack didn't get to him or anything." Jacob reached out and hooks his index finger with Edwards. The action causing a slight chuckle to escape the other.
"I don't think the pack will do anything to him." Edward stepped closer so their shoulders were brushing and headed off into the direction of the small clearing.
"Probably not but we did kind of leave abruptly don't you think?" He raised his eyebrow at Edward.
"That was pretty childish wasn't it?"
"Just a bit. But I think he'll understand." Jacob whistled the tune from the song and tried to hide his smile as Edward started to softly sing the words.
"Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all (s)he is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more"
Jacob pulled Edward closer and wrapped his arm around his shoulders planting a kiss on the others head. Everything was awesome and life couldn't be better for him. Wonder what Edward's family will say about this.
He felt the other tense and realized he had let that thought slip pass.
"Oh fuck."