Chains

Chapter 1 Shattered

Buford's POV

I can't believe it, Baljeet had a boyfriend. He introduced his boyfriend Chad to us all, Phineas and Ferb were nice as usual but Isabella forced a smile and shook his hand. When it was my turn, it was as if time slowed down but I shook his hand. Baljeet always said I was impulsive but if only he knew how much restraint it was taking not to break Chad's hand… I must've been hurting him because Isabella pried our hands apart. Dinner bell and Ferb were looking at me, so was Chad, Isabella and Baljeet, I hated being stared at it. I couldn't stay any longer; I feared that if I did I might end up breaking Chad's pretty little neck. I turned on my heel and walked away, once I reached the end of the block, I turned left and ran. I ran and ran, barely able to breathe but I didn't want to stop for anything, crying is for pussies. So why did it feel like my heart was broken in a million pieces?

I kept running until I reached the park, I wanted to stop and catch my breath but I just wanted to hide. I walked to an off beaten path behind a bush, I followed it until I reached my hiding place. It was a mini cliff that had the prettiest view of Danville and I always came here whenever I need to think. I finally stopped to catch my breath, sitting down with my knees to my chest and I let my thoughts takeover. How could this happen? I thought…what did I think exactly? 2 weeks ago we kissed, and I honestly thought he liked me back but if he did why was he with Chad? Was he playing me? I never knew he had it in him, its always the ones you least suspect they say. I was his bully and he was my nerd but it became more than that for me, I fell in love with him. At least, I think I was in love; I'm still getting the hang of my other feelings and anything but anger was new territory for me.

When we were studying at my house, he was laying on my bed explaining the math to me but I couldn't pay attention to anything but his lips. I took a chance and kissed him. He was shocked but we ended up having a full make out session. I mean, I know we weren't dating but it still hurt anyway. Maybe I'm just not enough for him, or maybe he thought I was using him. My phone buzzed interrupting my thoughts; I looked at the screen and saw it was Isabella:

ISABELLA: Buford where are you?

I ignored the message and put my headphones in listening to some Green Day and just ignoring the world. The view of the sunset was beautiful, it became chillier but I wasn't cold. The sky was purple and the stars were so bright from here, light night lights. My phone buzzed again, I checked to see what Isabella wanted this time but it wasn't her, it was Baljeet :

BALJEET: Buford where are you?

My heart started to hurt all over again, I wanted to tell him but my anger took over:

BUFORD: Its none of your fucking business

BALJEET: Fine, do whatever you want

I felt numb, he didn't even care about me did he? Well fuck you too Baljeet. I wanted him to be closer but I pushed him away and look where that got me. I cursed my short temper and myself, I'm a bully for fucks sake and yet I'm falling apart over this? I held my knees tight and sighed.

Its not fair, what was I thinking? Why did I fall in love with him? Why do I love his smile? His face and his body, it was all perfect but that was only a part of him. He was funny, adorable, kind and so generous but I fucked it all up.