I love Cammie more than anything, I get worried about our relationship because sometimes she's just so distant. I'm scared she doesn't feel the way I do and that she'll leave me.
I'm lost in my thoughts when she walks into my apartment. She walks over to my chair and starts waving her hands in front of my face. "Hellooo, earth to Zach."
"I'm sorry, Cammie. I was just thinking."
"What were you thinking about," she asks.
"You," I answer and she tilts my face up to kiss me. I feel sparks whenever we touch, but right now I feel detached. I fear we are drifting apart. I wish this wouldn't happen, but it seems like it is.
"Cammie, there's been something on my mind. Please just listen to this song. Really listen to what it says." I hope this works.
I put my iPod on its dock and Mike Posner's song, Baby Please Don't Go started playing.
Just run away
From these lies
Back to yesterday
Safe tonight
I find that I am singing along to the song. I sing so softly that Cammie probably can't even hear me.
I feel the sun creeping up like tik tok
I'm trying to keep you in my head but if not
We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked
Yeah you got me begging begging baby please don't go
If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here
I don't know
If you feel the way I do
If you leave I'm gonna find you
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't
Baby please don't
Baby please don't runaway
From my bed and start another day
Stay instead
I feel the sun creeping up like tik tok
I'm trying to keep you in my head but if not
We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked
Yeah you got me begging begging baby please don't go
If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here
I don't know
If you feel the way I do
If you leave I'm gonna find you
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't
Baby please don't
I stay running from tomorrow
I stay running from tomorrow
Well I stay running from tomorrow
Said I stay running from tomorrow
Baby please don't go (please don't go)
If I wake up tomorrow will you still be here
I don't know
If you feel the way I do
If you leave I'm gonna find you (I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gonna find you)
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't go go go go (don't leave me, leave me)
Baby please don't go go go go
Baby please don't
Baby please don't
Runaway
"Please understand," I say. "Please know that I love you. I need to know if you love me too. Do you? Do you really love me?"
"Yes, Zach, I do. I love you more than anything."
"Then why have you been so distant?"
"Because I'm scared."
"What are you scared of? The Circle's gone Cammie. What is it?"
"I'm scared that you'll leave and not come back. Like my father. I'm scared because I'm pregnant."